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October
Sebastian: 21
Ciel: 18
A loud, insistent banging on the front door had Sebastian scowling at it as he slowly made his way to the front of his apartment. Soot watched him lazily from the couch where they had both been watching the cooking channel.
With a sigh, Sebastian cursed whoever wanted to bother him on the weekend. It was a day meant for relaxing and from the sounds of the knocking coming from the other side, it sounded like this wasn't going to be a relaxing social call.
He opened the door and was hit with a small breeze before Sebastian focused on the person in front of him. "Ciel?" He asked, honestly surprised. "What are you doing here?"
"We need to talk," he stated simply, hands shoved into his pockets. He brushed past Sebastian, not even waiting for an invitation to enter. He caught sight of the kitten on the couch and glared, hoping to scare her away so he wouldn't suffer from an allergy attack.
Sebastian shut the door behind him and moved to sit in another chair in the living room. He didn't want to sit next to Ciel in case it put the younger male on edge. Soot jumped over to sit on his lap, and he idly stroked her body.
Once Soot had vacated the couch, Ciel sat down and took a deep breath. "I want to thank you for the time you put into tutoring me. You could have done other things instead, but you chose to help." He rubbed the back of his neck nervously. "I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't need your help anymore." His words came out all rushed, and he looked at Sebastian out of the corner of his eye, not daring to look at him face-on.
Sebastian's eyebrow arched. "Really now?" He asked and slumped down in the chair a bit more. "And you're one hundred percent certain that you can pass all your classes on your own; without my help?"
Ciel paused. "Not one hundred percent certain. I just..." He struggled to find the right words, "I have so much to do, and I can't afford to have any distractions."
"Ah, distractions. And you think that I'm a distraction," Sebastian stated. He cocked his head to the side and focused on Ciel. "And would that be such a bad thing? Having something to distract you from the things in daily life that trouble you?"
"Yes. No. I don't know. My life is basically all planned out, Sebastian, and I don't have anything planned in for relationships." Ciel stood up and paced to the window, staring blankly outside.
Sebastian blinked. "That sucks," he said honestly. He couldn't even imagine what that most feel like; other than being smothered to death. "That's not the best way to live, you know. No freedom for anything; no time for fun, friends...nothing."
"I know, but it's the way I've always lived." Ciel gave a small laugh. "You know, before today, I'd never really given it much thought. Having relationships, I mean. I was fine, just doing schoolwork and working with my dad. But now..." He trailed off, shrugging his shoulders.
Shaking his head, Sebastian stood up and moved over to Ciel's side. "You still have some time, you know," he said carefully. "You're still young and have time to live. But you have to make that choice for yourself. It's something your father can't decide for you."
Ciel sighed softly. "I know. It's just that my family has always ranked high in the social ranks, and I don't want to mess it up." His cheeks turned a light shade of pink. "Especially since..." A few seconds ticked by while Ciel attempted to find the right words to say. "Especially since there's something I want that I know for sure won't help my family's outstanding reputation."
Sebastian cocked his head. "These are the times that I'm glad I don't have a family," he stated. "All this worrying about what your family would think or how it would affect their reputation. A bunch of bull if you ask me. But then again, what do I know?"
Ciel hummed in reply. His fist clenched, and he swallowed nervously. "Sebastian?" He bit his lip, knowing that it was either now or never. Without warning, he whirled around, grabbing Sebastian by the arm. He leaned forward and pressed his lips against Sebastian's.
Wine red eyes widened briefly in surprise, not expecting such a reaction from Ciel. His arm looped around Ciel's waist, pulling him closer as his eyes lowered, and he responded eagerly to the kiss. It seemed that all his teasing and flirting hadn't been pointless, and perhaps he had gotten through to the younger male after all.
Ciel's knees nearly gave out when Sebastian returned the kiss. He'd been worried that maybe the other male would laugh or push him away, but it appeared that Sebastian wanted this, too. Moving closer to Sebastian, he wrapped his arms around his neck, his tongue flicking out to lick at Sebastian's lips.
Sebastian's lips parted, accepting Ciel's tongue as it pushed into his mouth. A low hum left his throat as their tongues twisted around each other, vying for dominance. His grip tightened on Ciel, pulling him closer as Ciel's nails dug into his skin.
Ciel moaned, pulling away slightly to allow them to catch their breath before connecting their lips again. He stood on his tip-toes to better kiss Sebastian, his right hand threading through his hair. His nails left little red lines down Sebastian's neck, and he nipped at the older male's bottom lip before sliding his tongue back into his mouth.
Groaning at the boldness that Ciel was showing, Sebastian backed Ciel up to the wall, pushing him against it as they continued to kiss with fervor. He sucked on Ciel's tongue, tasting something sweet that the younger male had eaten earlier. With a small growl, he pulled away, and his lips attached to the pale neck, nipping and sucking along the skin.
Ciel tilted his head to allow Sebastian better access to his neck, trailing his left hand down Sebastian's chest. When he reached the hem of his tee, Ciel slowly inched his fingers up underneath the fabric of the shirt, feeling the warm skin on his fingertips. He unintentionally grinded against Sebastian, another moan escaping as his cock was pressed into Sebastian's thigh.
Sebastian's body shivered and he pulled back with some difficulty. "Not too fast," he breathed, his breath fanning across Ciel's face. He didn't want to rush into anything, nor was he looking just for a one night stand.
Ciel nodded, his face flushed, and he didn't look at Sebastian. He stood there awkwardly, not sure what to say now that his mind had cleared. He'd never kissed anyone before, and he hadn't been expecting it to be with another male. Clearing his throat, he managed to finally speak. "So what now?"
"You can stay for dinner if you wish," Sebastian said softly and pulled Ciel closer to him. Heat flowed between them, and he sighed quietly at the feeling. "If not, we can find some other time to see each other outside of tutoring. Maybe go out to a movie or something."
"Dinner sounds good. I don't have anything planned for today, which is a first for me," Ciel chuckled lightly, nestling his head in the crook of Sebastian's neck. He ran the tip of his tongue across the skin there.
Sebastian shivered slightly and tilted his head to the side, giving Ciel more room. "What would you like?" He murmured and took a careful step back. He guided them back to the couch and pulled Ciel down onto his lap.
"Mm, whatever you want to make is fine," Ciel answered. "But I want something sweet after dinner for dessert." He continued the assault on his neck, every once in a while nipping at Sebastian's ear.
Chuckling, Sebastian nodded. "Of course. Somehow I figured you'd be a sweets kind of guy." His hands trailed down Ciel's sides, too content to move at the moment, and he hummed happily at the soft touches on his neck.
Ciel smiled, pleased that he was able to get a reaction out of Sebastian. He leaned his head against the college student's shoulder and closed his eyes, fingers rubbing circles on his arm.
Sebastian shifted slightly, moving to lay down on the couch so they were more comfortable. He let Ciel rest on his chest and propped his head up on the arm rest so he could look down at the younger male. "You look like you can use a nap," he stated and brushed away a strand of Ciel's hair.
Ciel sighed softly. "I didn't sleep well last night, actually. I think I got a grand total of maybe four hours of sleep." He actually hadn't been too tired until Sebastian had mentioned it, and he stifled a yawn.
"Sleep," Sebastian murmured and settled a hand on Ciel's back. He was hard pressed to keep his own eyes open, and the thought of taking an afternoon nap sounded wonderful.
Ciel soon felt his eyelids lowering, and after snuggling closer to Sebastian and wrapping an arm firmly around his waist, he fell asleep.
November
Sebastian: 21
Ciel: 18
Sebastian's eye opened lazily as the front door cracked open. He watched as Ciel slipped inside and kicked off his shoes before padding further into the living room. The younger male was drenched, and Sebastian's lips twitched in amusement. "I told you to take the umbrella today because it was going to rain."
"Shut up," Ciel grumbled. "I know what you said, I just chose not to listen to you." He plopped down on the couch by Sebastian, wrapping his arms around him, getting him wet in the process.
Hands batted Ciel away and Sebastian quickly tugged the wet shirt off Ciel's body. "You're going to catch cold that way. Go into my room and change into something warm; there are some sweats in the dresser."
Ciel stood up, made his way to the bedroom, and began to dig through a drawer. He found a pair of sweats and stripped out of his pants, pulling the dry pair on, along with a shirt. They were loose on him, and he growled, knowing that it was going to annoy him. Pulling the drawstring as tight as he could, he grabbed his wet jeans and shuffled back to the living room. "Hey, do you mind if I throw my clothes in the dryer?" His hair was still damp, and he shook his head, sending water droplets everywhere.
Sebastian shook his head. "Go ahead. That way they'll be dry for later on." He watched as Ciel stuffed the wet clothes into the dryer and started it. The rumbling sound of the dryer filled the apartment and Sebastian held his arms up, gesturing for Ciel to come lay down with him.
With a smile, Ciel laid down, giving a contented sigh as he pressed a kiss to Sebastian's lips. "So what are the plans for today?" He glanced warily around the room, looking for Soot. The kitten always seemed to know when Ciel was cuddling with Sebastian, and she would come over looking for attention from her master. That made for an irritated Ciel, who would then begin sneezing.
"We could go do something fun. Go see a movie or maybe go to the bowling alley," Sebastian stated and wiggled down into the couch more. It was a lazy day, and he wasn't in the mood to do any studying; the rain made things too dull.
"A movie sounds good, as long as you behave yourself while we're in public," Ciel poked Sebastian's chest for emphasis before attaching his lips to his neck.
Sebastian frowned. "But that takes all the fun away," he said with a small pout. "You won't even let me hold your hand when we're out in public."
Ciel sighed. "If someone sees me holding hands with another guy, it would be all over town by tomorrow." He paused. "But I guess you could hold my hand in the movie theatre. It should be dark enough that no one sees."
"Fine," Sebastian relented, still not happy with the situation. Even though it was better than nothing, the situation still irked him. Ciel was always concerned about the advances that Sebastian made when they were out in the public eye, and in the past few months that they had been dating, everything was hidden behind closed doors.
Ciel looked away. He knew that Sebastian wasn't happy, but what else could he do? Sighing, he returned his gaze to the college student. "Why don't you get it all out of your system now? That way, you won't be tempted later," he whispered into his ear.
Sebastian smirked slightly, his hands coming up to rub along Ciel's back. They slipped underneath the large shirt that Ciel wore and brushed over the soft skin. Fingers traced over the bumps on the younger male's spine, rubbing small circles over them.
A small moan fell from Ciel's lips, and he inched closer. Sebastian's hands felt so good on his skin, and he leaned over, covering Sebastian's mouth with his own. His tongue flicked out, licking the red-eyed male's lips before nipping it lightly with his teeth.
Mouths parted and tongues brushed against each other. Sebastian hummed his approval and slowly brought his hands up, fingers brushing over dusky nipples. They circled around them, teasing them until they were hard and standing at attention.
Ciel let out a soft mew, arching his back slightly at the touch. All of this was still relatively new to him, and he sometimes felt like an idiot for the way he reacted to certain touches. His hand trailed down Sebastian's chest and crept under his shirt, feeling the muscles contract at his touch.
The hesitant touches made Sebastian purr, and he silently urged Ciel on. Each touch made his body tingle and slowly stroked the fire that was growing. Heat passed between them, and Sebastian tugged Ciel's shirt off, wanting to see and feel more skin. Once the shirt was free, Sebastian pulled the younger male down closer, his lips attacking the hard nipples.
Ciel gasped, his nails digging almost painfully into Sebastian's stomach. Tilting his head down, he dragged his teeth across Sebastian's earlobe. His other hand tangled in Sebastian's hair, rendering Sebastian unable to move his head.
Smirking against the skin, Sebastian continued to tease the pebbled nubs. His teeth dragged across them before he bit down on them, drawing a loud cry from Ciel. A tongue soothed over the now red skin, laving it carefully to apologize for the rough treatment.
Loosening his grip and allowing Sebastian more freedom to move, Ciel wiggled down Sebastian's body to kiss him, their tongues tangling together. He was getting a little breathless but was reluctant to pull away, loving the feeling of Sebastian's kiss.
Sebastian's fingers trailed down Ciel's back as they kissed, dipping below the waistband of the large sweatpants that the younger male wore. They teased the skin, brushing against it lightly before his nails scraped across it gently, drawing shivers from Ciel.
Ciel let out a low moan as his body began to relax due to the soft touches he was receiving. He finally broke the kiss to breathe and rested his cheek against Sebastian's. His fingers danced lightly across Sebastian's chest, and Ciel pushed his shirt up, then gave a small growl. "Take it off," he demanded, tugging at the shirt.
"So demanding," Sebastian teased but paused to sit up so he could remove the shirt. The article of clothing was dropped to the floor and Sebastian once more continued his assault on Ciel's body. His fingers rubbed small circles over Ciel's hips and he looked up, silently asking Ciel how far he could go today.
Ciel hesitated, biting his lip. He probably wasn't moving as fast as Sebastian would like to, but he was reluctant to do much more than kiss. Today, though, he decided that he would allow Sebastian to go further.
Surprising Sebastian when he didn't pull away as he usually did, he leaned down and kissed him again, his hands resting at Sebastian's waist. He slid his thumb underneath the waistband, stroking the skin hidden underneath the pants.
For a second, Sebastian just stared at Ciel, the action catching him off guard. A fine shiver ran through his body at the hesitant touches that came from Ciel and he returned the action.
Ciel was nervous. Sebastian was the first person he'd ever kissed, and he wanted to make a good impression and not make a fool out of himself. The fingers on his right hand tangled in Sebastian's hair, angling his head so that Ciel could kiss him better, while his other fingers dipped slightly lower down Sebastian's pants.
Hips bucked up at the touch and Sebastian moaned softly. Heat rushed through his body and his back arched into Ciel's body, wanting more. Their tongues wrapped around each once more before they broke apart, panting softly.
"Are you sure?" Sebastian asked. His body trembled, wanting to continue but Ciel's face looked nervous, and Sebastian didn't want to force Ciel to do more.
Ciel nodded firmly. "I'm sure." And he was. His body was practically screaming for more, and even though he was nervous, he was ready to move beyond simple kisses. "Just...don't laugh, okay?" He requested, his cheeks turning red. "I suck at this kind of stuff."
Sebastian smiled softly. "I wouldn't laugh; I think it makes you cute," he stated and leaned up to peck Ciel on the cheek. His hand slowly dipped below Ciel's pants and fingers brushed against the coarse curls. "Can I touch here?" He asked.
Ciel moaned as his body moved into the touch. He buried his face in the crook of Sebastian's neck, knowing that his cheeks were probably flaming. He felt almost overwhelmed with the new sensation, and his nails scraped against Sebastian's skin.
"I take that as a yes," Sebastian murmured and let his fingers move lower. They brushed against the heated length, and the body above him jerked at the new feeling. Sebastian's free hand pushed down the sweatpants that Ciel wore, exposing his lower half to the cool air around them.
A small whimper escaped Ciel's mouth as his eyes closed, his cock pressing into Sebastian's hand. He licked Sebastian's neck and worked his way to his ear, thrilling in the soft moans that the other male was making. He connected their lips once more and pushed his tongue into his mouth, not waiting for Sebastian's permission.
They kissed as Sebastian's hand slid over the heated length, making it stiffen and harden with each pass of his hand. His own hips bucked up, seeking attention and Sebastian's legs trembled as he tried to keep his own desires at bay. Right now, his focus was on Ciel alone.
Tentatively, Ciel's hand crept over to Sebastian's length. He brushed his fingertips against it before stroking carefully, feeling Sebastian shudder at the contact. He tried to mimic Sebastian's actions, hoping to please him.
"More," Sebastian moaned softly, wanting to feel more friction on his cock. His thumb circled over the head of Ciel's length, smearing precum around the tip and making it easier for his hand to pass over the skin.
Ciel's breaths were coming in short pants as he pushed against Sebastian. His fingers slid over Sebastian's length with a bit more pressure than he'd been using before. He lapped at the sweat beginning to form on Sebastian's neck, then bit down lightly on the skin.
A shiver worked its way through Sebastian's body at the action, and he tilted his head to the side more, allowing Ciel more room to nip and suck at the skin. Pleasure and heat coiled through Sebastian, making him buck against Ciel. His hand continued to stroke the hard length, pushing Ciel closer and closer to completion.
Ciel felt a burning in his lower stomach and let out a small groan, thrusting into Sebastian's hand. He licked and sucked Sebastian's neck while he fisted his cock. Finally, he could stand no more, and he came with a cry, which was muffled by Sebastian's neck.
Sebastian grunted as warm liquid covered his stomach and he continued to stroke Ciel's length, drawing out the younger male's orgasm until Ciel was just a panting mess resting on top of his body. His hand came up, and Sebastian lapped at the cooling cum on his fingers, sucking them clean.
When Ciel finally regained his senses, he continued to stroke Sebastian's length, determined to make him cum, too. He wiped away a bead of precum from the tip before trailing his fingers down the base of his cock. He lightly bit Sebastian's ear, then moved to kiss him again. Their tongues tangled together, both of them vying for dominance.
The fingers around his cock tightened, and Sebastian bucked his hips more into Ciel's hand. The fact that it was Ciel's hand and it was the younger male doing this to him made him moan lowly. His own hand slipped down to join Ciel's, both of them stroking his length and pushing him over the edge.
Ciel pulled his hand away slightly when he felt a sticky substance coat it, then returned to lazily stroking Sebastian's length. He rested his head in the crook of the college student's neck, the tip of his tongue tasting the skin, and Ciel closed his eyes with a contented sigh.
Heat passed between them as they continued to lay on the couch, basking in the feelings of what had just happened. Sebastian's head tipped back to rest on the arm rest as his breathing returned to normal and the high started to ebb away. "Let's rest a bit before we go," he murmured.
Ciel nodded in agreement, snuggling closer to Sebastian. He laced Sebastian's fingers with his, and the red-eyed male's steady breathing began to lull him to sleep.
December
Sebastian: 22
Ciel: 19
Sebastian's hand ran over Soot's body, soothing down the puffed up fur. Her eyes were still wide, and she stared into the bathroom, ears quivering at the sounds that came from the room. The older male chuckled slightly, even though there wasn't anything really funny about the situation.
Another gagging sound floated back into the bedroom, followed by dry heaves. Sebastian rolled his eyes. "Drama queen," he murmured to Soot and rubbed her ear. "I swallowed for him and didn't act this way."
A minute later, Ciel finally appeared back in the bedroom. His face was still pale, but at least he wasn't throwing up anymore. Crossing over to the bed, he sank down beside Sebastian, leaning his head against his shoulder. "Just for future reference, Sebastian, I suck, not swallow," he grumbled.
Sebastian chuckled and pressed a kiss to Ciel's head. "I'll remember that then," he stated and wrapped his arm around Ciel's waist. He rubbed small circles over Ciel's stomach, easing any pain there.
Ciel sighed, relaxing into the touch. "How can you stand the taste? It's so bitter," he made a face and shuddered, recalling the flavor that was present on his tongue.
"Yours was quite sweet, almost like fruit," Sebastian commented. "Your diet affects your body in more ways than you think."
Ciel was silent for a moment before replying, "I don't think I wanted to know that. But now that I do, I won't be able to eat anything without wondering if you're going to like the taste of my cum. So I'll just ask you now. Is there anything specific that you would like me to eat?" He asked sarcastically, a dark scowl on his face.
Sebastian waved the comment aside. "You tasted just fine, so keep eating whatever it is you're eating now." A kiss was pressed to Ciel's temple as the scowl deepened even further. It only served to make Sebastian chuckle, and he turned his attention back to Soot.
It was quiet for a few minutes before Ciel sneezed. The close proximity with the kitten was making his nose itch and his eyes water. It wasn't long before Ciel felt a tightening in his chest, and his breathing became rapid. He wheezed whenever he took a breath, and he immediately grabbed his book bag, rifling through it for his inhaler.
Once he had it in his hand, he shook it for ten seconds, then proceeded to stick it in his mouth and breathe in and out once. He pushed the metal canister down, taking a deep breath and holding it to allow the medication to reach his lungs. After he finished, he wiped the mouthpiece down and rinsed his mouth out with water in the bathroom.
Ciel came back to the bedroom, halting before he sat down on the bed and glaring at Soot, who just stared back at him with a small mew.
"You would think by now that you'd be used to her," Sebastian stated and leaned back on the bed. Soot padded at his stomach before curling up into a small ball. She glanced at Ciel and flicked her tail at him before closing her eyes.
"I would be, except that there are other things that can lead to an asthma attack, Sebastian. Stress, dust, changes in temperature, having sex. Add that and your cat together, and I was an asthma attack waiting to happen." He cautiously perched on the edge of the bed, trying to stay as far away from Soot as possible. He glared at her, wishing that she would leave so he could be the one to snuggle with Sebastian.
Sebastian rolled onto his side to look at Ciel. "Then maybe we should go to your house instead. Wouldn't have to worry about Soot, and you'd be in a more comfortable environment."
Ciel stared at Sebastian incredulously. "And do what? Study all afternoon? Because that's what we would have to do, Sebastian."
"Well, that's boring," Sebastian stated. He frowned and looked once more to Ciel. "Your parents don't know about me, do they?"
Ciel squirmed under Sebastian's gaze. "They know you're my tutor. Other than that, they know nothing," he whispered the last part, averting his eyes.
"I see," Sebastian murmured, his voice low. Somehow he had figured that had been the case, but it wasn't pleasant hearing Ciel confirm it. "How was your last test?" He asked, changing the subject quickly.
"I got an 'A' on my economics," Ciel smiled proudly. "And art appreciation is so easy, I probably could have taken another college course instead of just the two." He cautiously scooted closer to Sebastian, wanting to feel his warmth and not caring that Soot was nearby.
Sebastian cocked his head. "That would've been a lot to take. Three college classes along with your normal school load; I believe you're overestimating yourself." He shifted Soot to his free side and stroked down her nose. "All that stress would've worn you thin, and then you really would've had an attack."
"Possibly," Ciel murmured against Sebastian's neck. "I suppose I do tend to take on too many things, but that's the way I've always been." His tongue flicked out, licking Sebastian's neck.
A small chuckle escaped Sebastian's mouth. "We'll have to fix that then," he stated. "Can't have you passing out from work overload. You're too young to do something like that." His hand came up to push away a stray lock of hair from Ciel's face so he could see both blue eyes.
Ciel smirked. "So then if I'm young, does that mean you're old?" He teased.
Sebastian gave Ciel a small shove. "I'm not old; I'm the perfect age." The comment earned him an odd look. "Not too young and not too old," he clarified.
"So you're middle-aged, then," Ciel decided. "Right in the middle." He couldn't help but laugh at Sebastian's expression. "You set yourself up for that one, Sebastian."
Huffing, Sebastian rolled away from Ciel in a mock pout, muttering something about evil younger males who only liked to tease him, the action making Ciel laugh and drawing their attention away from the sore subject beforehand.
January
Sebastian: 22
Ciel: 19
Ciel sighed as he rinsed off another plate and stuck it in the drainer. "You know, if you'd remembered to turn on your dishwasher, we wouldn't have to be doing this right now."
Sebastian shrugged. "But washing dishes like this keeps me warm." He glanced out the window where freezing rain was coming down. "It's cold outside."
"That's kind of what happens when it's winter, you know," Ciel muttered. He reached for a towel and began to dry the dishes so they could be put away. He stopped, an almost devious thought worming into his mind. He smirked, twisted the towel, and let it go with a snap across Sebastian's ass.
Sebastian jumped, not expecting such an attack and he turned to glare at Ciel. His glare twisted into a grin and he splashed the warm water at Ciel, catching the younger male in face.
Ciel sputtered, wiping the water away. He lurched forward, grabbing for the small hose attached to the sink. Once he had it in hand, he turned the water on and sprayed Sebastian in the face, laughing as he did so.
A wet washcloth was tossed at Ciel as Sebastian ducked away from the spray. He lunged for the faucet, quickly turning off the water and taking away Ciel's weapon of choice. Another splash of water from the sink made Ciel drop the hose and dart away from the kitchen, Sebastian hot on his heels.
Adrenaline coursed through Ciel's veins as he tried to escape from Sebastian. He dashed into the living room, eyes looking for something to use either as a weapon or a shield. Snatching a pillow, he threw it at Sebastian's head.
The pillow hit Sebastian square in the face, temporarily blinding him. With a playful growl, Sebastian tossed the pillow to the side and vaulted over the living room table, catching Ciel off guard. The younger male collided into him, and they went tumbling to the ground in a mess of tangled limbs.
"Got you," Sebastian stated and licked Ciel's nose.
"So you did," Ciel panted, staring up at Sebastian. His breathing and heart rate began to return to normal, and he laid back on the floor, ignoring how hard it was. His fingers trailed up Sebastian's arms and came to rest on his shoulders, sliding under the collar of his shirt.
Sebastian smirked. "You're all wet," he said, pointing out the obvious. The soapy water had soaked into Ciel's shirt, and Sebastian tweaked Ciel's nipple through the damp fabric.
Ciel let out a small moan, nails scraping gently down Sebastian's neck. He leaned up, pressing a kiss to both corners of Sebastian's mouth before kissing his lips.
Sebastian's mouth parted, letting Ciel's tongue slip inside his mouth while his hands slipped past the younger male's shirt. The pale skin was slightly damp from the wet fabric, and Sebastian ran his hands over the skin, warming it up more.
Ciel hummed in approval as their tongues twisted together. One of his hands tangled in Sebastian's hair while the other one slid further down the back of his shirt, pulling him down closer.
Bodies pressed together, and Sebastian groaned as Ciel tugged lightly on his hair. He ducked his head and started pressing kisses to the underside of Ciel's chin, trailing down the younger male's neck.
Ciel moaned, arching his back slightly and tilting his head to allow Sebastian better access. A hand skimmed lightly down Sebastian's chest before coming to rest on the waistband of his pants. He slipped a finger under the band and traced small circles on Sebastian's hip.
Sebastian's body jerked, not expecting the touch. He shivered and sat up, pulling Ciel with him. If they were going to continue with things, he didn't want to stay on the thin carpet. There was a bed in the other room, about fifteen steps away. "Bed," Sebastian murmured.
Ciel nodded. They exchanged kisses and touches as they made their way slowly to the bedroom. Once by the bed, Ciel climbed onto it, not releasing his hold on Sebastian, and pulled the college student down.
Sebastian's body hovered over Ciel's and he let his hands push away Ciel's shirt, throwing it onto the floor. Warm hands trailed over the cool chest, teasing and tweaking the pebbled nubs until the younger male was squirming underneath him.
Ciel moaned again, his hands working to pull Sebastian's shirt off, wanting to feel skin on skin. His fingers ran over the bare chest presented to him before dipping underneath the waistband of Sebastian's pants once more.
"Ah, Ciel," Sebastian moaned and thrust down into the younger male. The hand was brushing right above his cock, teasing him with light touches that were driving him crazy. "Tease," he muttered, wanting to feel more friction on his length.
Ciel just smirked. He debated about teasing Sebastian some more but decided against it. His hand slid down and grasped Sebastian's length, stroking it gently while his lips sought out Sebastian's neck, licking and sucking.
Sebastian murmured Ciel's name, and he shivered above the younger male. The fingers around his cock were a welcomed touch, and he pushed into the teasing touches even more.
Ciel bit Sebastian's neck lightly, his thumb circling the head before trailing down the base of his cock. He then kissed Sebastian, his tongue prying into his mouth as the fingernails of his free hand dug into the back of Sebastian's neck.
A low hiss left Sebastian's mouth and he tugged at Ciel's pants, wanting them off. The desire to feel skin on skin was too great, and with a grunt of self restraint, he pulled Ciel's hand away from his length.
"Off," he rasped, pulling on Ciel's pants while he quickly worked to get his own off.
Ciel quickly took his pants off, tossing them onto the floor. He couldn't wait to have Sebastian's hands on his body again, and as soon as he could, he connected their mouths once more. His hands traveled down Sebastian's chest, taking his length back into his hand and stroking it.
Sebastian's hand batted Ciel's away as he took both their lengths into his hand, stroking them together. The feeling of Ciel's cock sliding against his made Sebastian hum in contentment, and he sucked on Ciel's lower lip, pausing once to nip it lightly before plunging his tongue back into Ciel's mouth.
Ciel moaned and wrapped his arms around Sebastian's neck, fingers twisting almost painfully in his hair. His hips bucked, pressing his cock into Sebastian's hand. "More," he panted lowly.
Their hips rolled against each, precum slicking their movements and letting them slide against each other easier. Sebastian panted softly and ran his thumb over the head of Ciel's cock, smearing the precum around.
Ciel gasped, arching his back and causing their lengths to rub against each other more. He attacked Sebastian's neck with his teeth and tongue, nipping one second and licking the next. He vaguely noticed the purple marks on his neck and felt slightly proud of the fact that he'd been the one to do that.
A low growl left Sebastian's mouth, and he pushed Ciel up further onto the bed, their naked bodies sliding against each other. "If we don't stop now," he murmured against Ciel's neck. His free hand moved down Ciel's body, stopping at the curve of his ass; a subtle hint as to what could possibly happen.
Ciel's breathing hitched, and he froze. His blue eyes were wide as he stared at Sebastian, the gravity of the situation hitting him. If they continued, they would surely end up having sex. He could tell that Sebastian wasn't against the idea, but he wasn't sure if he wanted to. Time seemed to stand still as he laid there, thoughts swirling in different directions. Should he say yes, or should he say no?
Summoning the courage he needed, he wrapped his arms around Sebastian's neck and kissed him. "Then let's not stop."
Sebastian's eyes widened slightly and he couldn't stop the soft groan that left his mouth. He didn't think that Ciel would agree to his thoughts and for a moment, he looked at the younger male, searching for any signs that proved otherwise.
Seeing none, he leaned down for another kiss. The body beneath him squirmed and arched against him, wanting more contact to know that this wasn't a mistake.
Ciel opened his mouth to allow Sebastian's tongue entrance as his nails scraped at Sebastian's neck, angling his head to deepen the kiss. His hips bucked up against Sebastian, desperately wanting to feel pressure on his cock.
Their cocks brushed against each other, creating the friction that they sought, and Sebastian shuddered at the feeling. He broke their kiss to lean over and grab the lube that rested in the drawer next to his bed.
Slicking his fingers up with the slippery substance, Sebastian lowered his hand down to Ciel's entrance. He brushed over the tight hole, teasing Ciel and letting him get used to the feeling.
A gasp echoed in the room, and Ciel's nails dug harshly into Sebastian's neck. He closed his eyes, willing his body to relax. It was slightly uncomfortable, and he squirmed a bit, wishing to just be accustomed to it already.
Muttering soft words to Ciel, Sebastian pushed the first finger in. His other hand found the younger male's length and started to stroke it, distracting Ciel from the odd feelings that came with such an act. He nipped at Ciel's earlobe once before trailing down the pale column, littering Ciel's skin with small marks.
Ciel was experiencing discomfort and pleasure at the same time, and his fingers trailed down Sebastian's chest, leaving red lines in their wake before traveling back up to tangle in Sebastian's hair. He yanked him down for a kiss to further divert his attention from the finger up his ass.
Tongues twisted around each other as Sebastian's finger pushed in and out. Another finger was added to the first, and Ciel gasped in Sebastian's mouth. Blue eyes were wide and they stared up at him.
"S-Sebastian..." Ciel moaned. He kissed the older male again as his muscles tried to expel the fingers. He gritted his teeth, accidentally biting Sebastian's tongue in the process.
Sebastian hissed, and his head jerked back. Blood pooled in his mouth and the taste of copper coated his tongue. He swallowed the thick liquid before lowering his head again, kissing Ciel hard and pushing his tongue back into Ciel's mouth.
Ciel's tongue twirled around Sebastian's, trying to soothe the bite he had received. By now, he had forgotten about Sebastian's fingers as his hips bucked, causing their lengths to slide against each other. They both moaned into the kiss, and Ciel trailed a hand down Sebastian's chest, tweaking a nipple and rolling it between his fingers.
An appreciative moan bubbled from Sebastian's throat and he nudged Ciel's legs apart further, allowing his fingers to slide in deeper. They hooked and curled, determined to find the one spot that would make Ciel scream.
Eyes flying open wide, Ciel arched his back as Sebastian's finger brushed against a sensitive spot. He gave a small cry of pleasure, his hand curling into a fist and scraping against Sebastian's chest. "Ah, S-Sebastian," he gasped.
"There we go," Sebastian purred and pushed a third finger into join the first two digits. They rubbed and teased the spot, making Ciel's cries grow louder and louder. The younger male squirmed below him, tossing his head back and forth, and Sebastian lowered his head to nip lightly at a hard nipple.
Ciel latched onto Sebastian's hair, yanking hard and pulling a few strands loose as waves of pleasure washed over him. He panted heavily, feeling a familiar heat course through his body. He moaned again as Sebastian's fingers continued to brush against and stroke the spot.
Sebastian leaned away from Ciel, removing his fingers as he did so. The cool air around the room made him shiver, and he wished to be pressed up against Ciel again. The younger male blinked up at him, eyes wide and questioning as Sebastian covered his length with lube.
"You sure?" He asked, one final time.
Ciel regarded Sebastian for a moment, then slowly nodded. "Yes, I'm sure." His fingers twitched forward on the blanket, wanting to reach out to Sebastian and pull him close. He missed the feeling of Sebastian's fingers inside of him, but as his gaze traveled to Sebastian's cock, he was sure that it would be ten times better.
Shifting forward, Sebastian kissed Ciel gently, and his cock brushed against the stretched entrance. Arms wrapped around his back while legs curled around his waist, drawing him even closer. Sebastian pressed his hips closer, his cock pushing past the ring of muscles slowly.
Ciel let out a low moan, nails dragging across Sebastian's back. This was unlike anything he'd ever experienced, and while it definitely felt strange, he couldn't deny the fact that it also felt good. His legs tightened around Sebastian's waist as he pushed in completely.
Sebastian stilled once he was fully sheathed. Soft pants fell from his mouth as he struggled to keep his still and not start thrusting like crazy. Ciel trembled beneath him, his body growing accustomed to the new feeling, and wetness formed underneath blue eyes. The unshed tears were lapped away, and Sebastian's hands stroked down Ciel's sides, trying to ease his mind.
Ciel stared up at the ceiling, trying to control his breathing as his grip tightened on Sebastian. He felt like an idiot for almost crying, but in his defense, it did hurt. A couple of seconds ticked by, and Ciel closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Opening his eyes, he glanced at Sebastian and offered him a tiny smile. "You can move now," he whispered.
Nodding, Sebastian pulled out slowly, moaning as Ciel's body gripped him. He thrust back into the warm heat, and Ciel's nails dug deeper into his back. Sebastian was sure that the marks would be there for a while but he couldn't bring himself to care.
"Ahh," Ciel moaned. The pain was slowly dissipating and being replaced by pleasure. He leaned up, connecting their mouths. His body shivered as Sebastian thrust in again, and he gasped into the kiss, fingers grazing Sebastian's back. He thought that he was making his back bleed with all of the scratching he'd been doing, but Sebastian hadn't complained yet. If anything, the pain seemed to spur him on.
Sebastian's hips snapped forward, hitting Ciel's prostrate and drawing a loud cry from him. He grinned and continued thrusting at the same angle, making Ciel moan and clench around him. The noises only served to spur Sebastian on, and he continued the harsh pace, determined to hear more of the sweet sounds.
Ciel began to meet Sebastian's thrusts, moans and unintelligible words spilling from his mouth. He nipped at Sebastian's lip, then plunged his tongue into his mouth. A hand trailed down the red-eyed male's chest, scratching lightly as it did.
"Violent," Sebastian hissed and watched as a bead of blood bubbled across the surface of his skin. It dropped down onto Ciel's chest when Sebastian thrust forward harshly, making Ciel toss his head back in pleasure.
Ciel let out a cry. "Sebastian!" He resisted the urge to drag his nails against Sebastian's skin, instead choosing to pinch and rub one of the hardened nubs. His tongue swept over Sebastian's neck, licking and sucking. A hard thrust caused him to shudder, ecstasy overwhelming his senses. "Sebastian..."
"That's it," Sebastian purred and reached down to grasp Ciel's length. His hand pumped the hard cock in time with his thrusts, listening to the younger male's voice grow in pitch. Sebastian could feel the familiar heat coiling through his body, and he stroked Ciel faster, determined to make him come.
Ciel threw his head back, crying out Sebastian's name as he came, the substance coating his and Sebastian's stomachs. His heart was pounding wildly, and his breaths were coming in short spurts. He moaned as Sebastian continued to thrust, having not yet reached completion.
A low moan left Sebastian's mouth as Ciel clenched around him, making it almost painful to thrust. His hips jerked wildly, his rhythm lost as his own orgasm started to take over his body. Sebastian's body tensed briefly before he pressed against Ciel, biting his neck harshly as he came inside the younger male.
Ciel yelped as Sebastian's teeth dug into his neck, wincing at the sudden pain. He wrapped his arms and legs tighter around Sebastian, pulling the college student closer. His fingers threaded through Sebastian's hair, and he pressed a kiss to his cheek.
Sebastian panted heavily into Ciel's ear and his arms trembled, threatening to give out on him. He tilted his head to the side and nuzzled Ciel's neck before shifting to the side so he could drop down onto the bed. Arms reached out for Ciel, pulling the younger male closer to him, and Sebastian started pressing lazy kisses to the pale skin.
Ciel was content to lay in Sebastian's arms, eyes closed as his heart rate and breathing slowed down. He was now glad that he hadn't stopped earlier. Granted, he'd been apprehensive about the whole situation, but now that it was over and done with, he knew that he would make the same decision again.
Snuggling closer to Sebastian, Ciel idly traced circles on his chest and sighed. "That was..." He struggled to find an adequate word to describe it. 'Nice' and 'fun' just didn't cut it. 'Mind-blowing,' 'incredible,' and 'fantastic' all came to mind, but he wasn't sure if they were too strong of words to use.
"Wonderful," Sebastian murmured and draped his leg across Ciel's, pulling the younger male closer. He felt Ciel shiver slightly as the heater kicked on, blowing air across their cooling skin. With a small grunt, Sebastian reached down to the grab blankets, shifting around awkwardly to pull it up and over their bodies.
"Mm," Ciel agreed, closing his eyes. Sebastian's chin was resting at the top of Ciel's head, and he could feel every breath the college student took. He suppressed a yawn, fatigue now setting in as the adrenaline rush faded.
Sebastian hummed lowly and burrowed further into the blankets. Heat surrounded them and he sighed softly, letting the warmth take him away into a dreamless sleep.
February
Sebastian: 24
Ciel: 21
Ciel stood in front of Sebastian's front door, fist poised to knock, as it had been for the past ten seconds. He couldn't bring himself to knock, though. Lowering his hand, he leaned his forehead against the door. He could do it. He had to.
Taking a deep breath, he rapped on the door.
The door open, revealing a flour covered Sebastian. He looked slightly annoyed, and in the background, Soot mewed loudly. "I don't know why you insist on knocking," Sebastian stated, brushing some flour off his shirt. "You have a key, and you can come in without knocking."
"I know." Ciel smiled at him, but it was strained. He rubbed his sweaty palms on his jeans and walked inside when Sebastian stepped aside to let him enter. He hesitated, then slipped off his shoes, even though he didn't plan to be there very long. "Did I interrupt?"
Sebastian shook his head. "Soot was being playful earlier and decided to pounce on my bag of flour. I was chasing her around the apartment." He looked towards the cat who was grooming her face. "She seemed to think it was a game." Even though Sebastian looked annoyed, his tone gave him away, showing that he couldn't stay mad at the cat.
He turned back to Ciel. "I'm almost done with this new dish and I need someone to test it for me," he stated, gesturing Ciel to the kitchen. "You can tell me about your classes while it finishes cooking."
Ciel shifted his weight awkwardly. "Actually, I have to go in a few minutes. I just stopped by because I...I have something to tell you." He chanced a look at Sebastian's face, seeing the confusion present there. He looked down.
Sebastian cocked his head, eyebrows furrowing slightly. "Is everything okay, Ciel?" He asked. This wasn't like the younger male, and concern sparked in Sebastian's chest. "Everything okay at home? No one hurt?"
Ciel shook his head. "No one's hurt. Everyone's healthy. I just..." No, he couldn't say it. There was no way.
Memories of the day before flashed through Ciel's mind, and he remembered those three little words that he had almost spoken after they'd had sex. His fist tightened, and a determined glint appeared in his eyes. He had to say it.
"Sebastian, I...I can't see you anymore." The words tumbled out all in a rush, and Ciel wondered if Sebastian had even understood the mumbled mess. He stood still, waiting for his reply.
Sebastian's body stiffened, and he looked carefully at his lover of three years. "What?" He asked slowly, mind trying to make sure that it heard everything correctly. He didn't think that the younger male had been unhappy with their relationship; other than the occasional requests to do something public, which were all turned down quickly. Sebastian's lips quirked slightly. "Is it your parents?"
"Partially," Ciel stated. "They still don't know about you, but I can't commit to a relationship like this anymore. Sooner or later, someone is going to find out, and then it will be all over town. I can't let that happen, Sebastian. With Phantomhive as my last name, I have to be careful with what I do. One little stray comment or action could spell the end of the influence that my family has." He gazed at Sebastian, pleading with the man to understand why he was doing this.
"I see," Sebastian said stiffly, even though he really didn't. They had been through this conversation before, time and time again. It was hard for Sebastian to wrap his mind around such a notion, since he had raised himself for the most part, and he couldn't understand why a family wouldn't be supportive of such a thing.
Still, Sebastian had kept his silence on the subject, figuring that it wasn't his place to comment. After all, he really didn't know anything about families after all. But it still didn't make things easier for him.
He cocked his head. "You said partially," he finally said after a moment of silence. "What's the other reason?"
"The other reason is that I myself can't allow this to continue, Sebastian," Ciel said smoothly. "I shouldn't have let this happen in the first place. That first day I came here, I should have walked out after telling you that I didn't need you as a tutor anymore. It wasn't fair to you to string you along like this."
Red eyes hardened, and Sebastian ignored the stinging pain that filled his body. He leaned back against the counter and regarded Ciel coolly. "I don't believe that," he stated. "You have plenty of self control, and if you really didn't want me all those years back, you never would've kissed me first. You would've walked out instead of staying."
Ciel's resolve wavered as he stared at Sebastian. His body craved his touch, and he wanted nothing more than to rush over there, hold onto him, and never let him go. He stepped backwards, distancing himself from the red-eyed male. "You're right. I do have self control. And that's how I'm able to do this now, what I should have done three years ago." Turning his back, Ciel began to walk to the door. His heart pounded in a rhythm, go back, go back. He ignored it.
His hand on the knob, he hesitated one last time. Looking over his shoulder at Sebastian, he gave him a sad smile. "Good bye, Sebastian."
And with that, he was gone.