The sound of the jiggling keys woke Magnus from his slumber. He was still situated at the couch and the television is blaring with some late night show. He glanced at the clock. It's only five minutes before eleven. And Alec just got home.
Alec went straight to their room without even sparing a glance at Magnus' direction. Magnus sighed. Maybe he's just tired. He stood up and turned off the TV. He entered their room and saw Alec removing his tie. Magnus smiled and approached his husband.
"Here, let me help you." Magnus reached toward Alec but the younger man stopped him.
"No, I'm fine," Alec said emotionlessly and walked to the bathroom.
"You want me to heat up some food? There's spag-" Magnus called.
However, he never get to finish what he was saying when Alec replied curtly. "No, Magnus."
"Okay," Magnus said silently. Instead, he changed his clothes into pyjamas and got ready for bed. It was rather a short ritual compared to before. When he got married to Alec, he stopped wearing his glitter. His husband didn't ask him to do so, it was his own decision.
He laid down to their large soft bed and pulled the blue blanket over his body. After a minute or two, Alec emerged from the bathroom wearing his own pyjamas. When Alec laid beside him, Magnus slowly wrapped his arm around his husband only to get it not-so-gently shoved away. Feeling the tears started to well up in his eyes, he turned to the other side and stared to the blank wall. He thought of their early years together, the time before that happened. He remembered the night Alec proposed to him. They were eating dinner together with the Lightwoods since it was Max's birthday. His baby just kneeled in front of him and asked him if he'd like to stay with him for the rest of his life. He was the happiest man back then. But now, he doesn't know. He closed his eyes and let the tears lull him into sleep.
Magnus had never been an early bird but when he married Alec, he tried to rise from his beauty rest early. He wants to kiss his angel good morning and stare at those lovely blue eyes. And that is some serious challenge considering Alec wakes up really early. But today, as Magnus opened his eyes, the blank wall he'd been staring at before he slept last night was still the one that greeted him this morning. He turned to the other side only to find out that Alec is not there anymore. Magnus sighed. If he's lucky enough, he'd catch Alec before leaving.
Since he is lucky bastard, he saw Alec putting on his shoes. Alec noticed him and stared at him after wiping some dust off his shoes.
"You're up early," Alec observed.
"I was hoping to catch you," Magnus smiled. The smile, however, was not returned.
"Why? Do you have anything to say?" Alec said rather coldly. Magnus tried not to cringe.
"Well, I…" Instead of embarrassing himself in front of Alec by saying something stupid, Magnus just gave his Alec a sweet peck on the lips. Alec stared at him blankly afterwards. Magnus looked down and stared at his bare feet like it was the most interesting thing in this universe.
"I'm going then," Alec said, headed to the door.
"Wait," Magnus said. Alec turned back and looked at him. "I love you, Alexander. Always remember that."
Alec said nothing in return. As he made his way out, Magnus thought he'd heard him said in a mocking tone, "You love me now, huh?" He decided that it was just his imagination and proceeded into preparing himself for the day.
After getting back into his senses, Magnus stood up and went to their bedroom. Opening the door, he saw Alec's back facing him. It was shaking and he knew that Alec was crying. He didn't know what to do. Should he sit beside him or should he stay where he is? He decided that the latter might be the best.
"Alec," he called out pleadingly. Alec's back tensed. "Please let me explain. It's not what it looks like."
"Really? I think what I saw was enough. Don't play with me, Magnus." Alec was still not facing him but he saw his fists clench in the sheets.
"You don't understand!" Magnus unconsciously shouted. He didn't mean to scream at Alec.
"That's right! I don't understand! Does he? Is that why you were making out with him in our home?" Alec faced him now. His soft face is now covered with cascading tears.
"It's not like that, Alexander! Let me explain,"
"Okay. Speak then," Alec crossed his arms and gazed at Magnus challengingly.
"I was… we were just…" What does Magnus have to say? He really can't say anything in his defense because it really was his fault. He let his emotions took part in his better judgment. It was unfair to Alec who trusted him for so long.
"What? Got nothing to say, lover boy?" Alec said mockingly.
"Look, Alexander. I'm really sorry. I don't-" Alec raised his hand to stop Magnus from making his speech. Alec sighed and seemed to think deeply.
"I know we were both confused. Let's just forget about this, okay?" Alec stared at him with a tired look in his blue orbs. Magnus smiled thankfully.
Alec never talked to him like before after that. He never touched him again. Alec never kissed him after that. It was always he, Magnus, who kiss the other one. Alec never smiled his heart-warming smile again. Magnus had been searching for the warm love in Alec's eyes he adores the most but it was not there anymore. It was like having Alec but not really having him.
Sometimes, Magnus wonders if Alec still loves him. Everytime he does this, the heavy weight of what he'd done crashes down on him and convinces him that Alec doesn't love him anymore. However, the sweet memories push all the bad backwards and give him hope to move forward. He knows Alec never loved him less after that. He did forgive him, right?
Ragnor is a different story. He never stopped calling Magnus after, but Magnus never picked up. He wanted to change his number but all of the people from the company he is currently working in knew that number. Weeks passed and he soon got tired of it. Magnus was thankful for it.
Magnus is working as an executive chef at a five-star restaurant. He loves his job. This is where he met the love of his life. Alec is an architect of a big company. He knows Alec's workmates and Camille happens to be his best friend.
Said best friend's name appeared on his phone while locking the door of their apartment. He was on his way to work when he saw that Camille sent him a picture. It was Alec. It was Alec kissing another guy.
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