The lonely ones

by tv worshipper

Klaroline story first ever written set after the events of S4ep14 changes from the show .Written to show how emotions can creep up on us and sometimes we don't even know what we want till that person no longer there. Got obsessed with idea that Klaus walked away and left her on the porch how would she feel and move on .Also how would Klaus handle things if he needed to save her.

2. Reflecting On The Pain Of The Past

Getting myself out of bed I tried to shake that dream clinging to me like cobwebs .Three years later and I was still in the same damn bedroom in the same small town and living the same small town life.

It wasn't all bad; I now ran my own business in a sports centre helping teach kids how to ride horses. . Yes I know not exactly the typical life of a vampire but after years of pain facing all the supernatural threats it was a good thing. Also was on the town committee events board and yes even ran Miss Mystic Falls every year.

Thank the god it only took place once a year so I didn't have to walk past that lake, past that house and past that bench feeling memories of a day at the time had seemed so unimportant in the times to come. That didn't stop the memories from visiting me every day torturing me of the moments I spent with Klaus. Memories at the time I didn't even want I was just trying to distract him so my friends could kill him or moments he forced upon me like the 1920s dance.

Somehow that didn't matter to my heart they were now imprinted in my soul and my curse for not even trying to process my feeling for this man at the time .It was all so overwhelming I thought Tyler was the one I wanted he needed me to be strong he always claimed and he made me feel like the old me again before the Salvatore's ever came to our town and changed our life's forever.

"God Caroline get a grip of yourself "I whispered to myself in the mirror .How many times had I stared in this mirror over the years growing from a confident self obsessed girl into the person who I was now .I searched so hard to try and find that strong confident person people said they saw in me that Klaus said he saw in me. I wasn't strong I was so weak I wanted so much but didn't even know where to begin. Before Klaus I might of thought that this was the life that I had it all what more did I need but now his words would always ruin whatever I did as long I stayed in this small town life.

Sometimes I would just sit for hours staring at my reflection searching for that person I was back then to search for even a flicker of that light Klaus claimed to see in me. No light ever reached me though all I saw was regrets and failure .what use were a thousand birthday if I didn't even know what I wanted id just sit back and live normal and safe existences lifetime after life time.

It wasn't that I hadn't tried to see the world or take chances I just always got scared or pulled out at the last minute .I even applied to get a job in Britain working at a horse ridding school .They loved me from my interview over Skype and offered me the Job. I accepted I wanted it more than anything. But in a matter of days I began to panic I couldn't leave my mum my friends it was safe it was home they were my family and they were the only ones I had to support me. I'd lost so much over my short life had seen my friends and Elena's family slowly destroyed one by one. Slowly creeping fears began to swamp me in a Tidal wave of doubt I wasn't ready for this, what if my friends needed my help and I was in England .My mum was so lonely she worked too hard and I was all she had to come home too . For weeks I struggled in self doubt so scared not knowing what I should do. Like most things in my Teenage life fate came into play and bought heartache my way.

My mother got shot when she was trying to stop a robbery in the general store. Even though she had survived the shooting it had destroyed all my hopes in leaving .My mum was all I had left in this Town now and she was the last of my family, she needed me here. There were many exciting jobs I could do in this town I convinced myself and that's the road I took. Staring at myself one last time I whisper "another normal day again" how many more would be coming my way I didn't know but I knew was another day further from finding the courage to leave this town. "Caroline" my mum called "I left you breakfast on the table probably won't be back before your asleep love you Hun "Then the door slammed shut and it felt like another part of my courage was being shut off with it .Little did I know that today would be the day where fate decided to pay me another visit .