For two months Amanda sat alone in her apartment, now empty of any kind of life. She was alone, and it was her own damn fault. She wanted to make it up to Olivia, but how could she fix this?
"Oh my God!"The words repeated in her own head in her own voice. The instant she heard that voice she realized everything was going to fall apart. She has made a stupid decision and it was going to cost her everything. Emily immediately jumped and began franticly looking for her clothes, Amanda pulled the sheet around herself."Liv!" she yelled in surprise. Add she turned around to see the horror on her girlfriends face, she felt sick. She could never explain to her what was actually going on."Amanda.." her eyes didn't even look at the other woman, Emily, a woman she brought home from a GA meeting. She was focused on Amanda, and her lack of clothing.She sat at her desk every day for two months. Watching Olivia how more and more depressed. They'd shared everything- well obviously not everything. Amanda had a secret. A fetish you might say. One she could never ask Olivia to oblige her after the horrendous things she had been through. "How long?" Olivia asked, eerily calm although there tears streaming down her face."Liv I swear it's not what you think." Amanda defended, but in reality it was what she thought. She had walked in on her with another woman. In their bed. In their apartment.
She watched as Olivia pulled open the top drawer of her desk, presumably looking at the plane ticket she had bought. Fin of course had told her that Olivia was leaving; he was afraid if she left and Amanda didn't know things would only get worse, much, much worse.
She watched her face fall, she didn't want to go.