Author's Note: Okay so I obviously suck at one shots since everyone wants me to continue this story. I will continue the story but it might be a slow start since I still don't know what direction I want to go in. This chapter might feel all over the place and I'm sorry about that. I do plan on having more flashbacks to there past relationship. Well here's the next chapter, I hope you enjoy it.
The next morning Dianna awoke to the beaming sun in her face, she rubbed the sleep from her eyes as she sat up in her bed. She looked over to the corner of her room looking at the bags she packed last night after Lea had left. If it wasn't for the fact that it was so late she would of headed back to New York last night after everything that happened. Lea coming over to ask all about a song? That wasn't like her. She must have wanted to come and see her, she knew Dianna was singing to her. She just had to know. Dianna sighed as she got out of bed and went to the bathroom to jump into the shower. The events of last night just wouldn't leave her thoughts, Lea confessed that she never stopped loving her...she still had feelings for her. But she has Matt, she has a boyfriend. Could Dianna really believe that she never stopped loving her when before Cory's sad departure from them, they were discussing marriage. Lea was going to marry Cory because of how deep their love was, and now she's with Matt and seems so happy. How could she say she never stopped loving her?
It didn't matter though, Dianna finally needed to take the final steps into officially not allowing Lea to have such a strong hold on her. She was going to be to focus on her career and on her happiness. Lea was doing amazing without Dianna around and now it was Dianna's turn to be amazing without thinking about Lea. Once she finished getting ready she called a car to come around and pack up her things. Before she headed to the airport however she wanted to stop by the lounge once more to say goodbye to Becca. She arrived at the Silhouette Lounge and headed to the bar smiling as Becca waved at her.
"Hey Di, what can I get ya?"
"Hey Becca, and nothing I just wanted to say bye."
"What? You're leaving already? You just got here."
"Yeah I know, but I start filming real soon and wanted to get settle in New York before we started. I'm sorry I couldn't stay longer Bec, but you know I'll be back next year."
Becca smiled, "Yeah I know. Okay give me a hug and please stay in touch."
"Will do," Dianna smiled and gave Becca a hug. As she grabbed her purse she felt someone tap her on the shoulder. When she turned around she looked right up at Matthew and her stomach turned to knots.
"Dianna. May I have a word?"
All she could do was nod as they took a seat at a near by table top, Matthew smiled warmly but Dianna could see something was wrong.
"What can I do for you Matthew?"
"It's about Lea. She came home late last night and I could tell she was off. Most importantly she smelled like vanilla, just like you do now. Now I'm not going to confront you or ask questions. I'll wait until Lea is ready to discuss that on her own terms with me but I do have a favor to ask you."
Dianna didn't speak she just looked at Matthew who continued, "I want whatever is going on between you two to stop. If it's just a friendship you want to rekindle so be it, but only a friendship. Lea is my girlfriend and I love her very much. That being said I will fight and overcome any obstacle I have to, to be with her. I just want you to respect our relationship and keep whatever it is you two have as a friendship and nothing else. Is that understood?"
"I understand completely. I don't want to come between you two. She seems happy with you and I don't want to take that away from you two. She does love you Matthew, I can see that. And I know you don't want to ask questions but I'm sure it's running through your mind so just to give you peace of mind. No. We did not sleep together, we got into a slight argument and in the heat of it all I kissed her. It was wrong of me and we both know last night was a mistake. I respect your relationship with her, I really do. Now I have to leave, I'm heading back to New York. You two enjoy your time here." Dianna smiled warmly and got up leaving the lounge. Once she got into her car rental she let out a deep breath and told the driver to take her to the airport where she boarded a flight straight to New York City.
Lea had woken up to an empty bed and found a note on the table beside her from Matt saying he went for a coffee run. She smiled and headed into the bathroom to take a shower. As she washed herself she began to think of what had happened last night with Dianna. She didn't know what came over her. Saying all those things to her, that kiss...Lea let the hot water hit her face and began to wash her hair.
She knows deep down she will always love Dianna but she knows she loves Matt, he's amazing in every way. That kiss was a mistake..just a mistake and it could never happen again. Now all she had to do was tell Matt what happened..great. She exited the shower and got dressed, as she finished up she heard the key unlock the door and Matt entered with two coffees.
"Morning babe. How did you sleep?"
"I slept okay, didn't like that you weren't beside me," she gave him a quick peck on the lips and took her coffee from his hand.
"I promise not to make a habit of it," he chuckled as he removed his coat and took a sip of his coffee. Lea watched him as he got comfortable on the table and began to use his cell phone.
"Babe we need to talk..."
"Those words are never good. What's up?"
"I-I did something stupid last night.."
Matt set his drink down knowing what she was about to say, "What happened last night?"
"I went over to Dianna's to ask her something and we kissed..." Lea looked down waiting for him to explode with anger or hurt but was surprised to see him take another sip of his coffee calmly.
"Thank you for telling me."
"Wait that's it? That's all you have to say?!"
"I already knew something happened last night and this morning just confirmed it for me."
"How was it confirmed this morning?"
"I spoke to Dianna."
Lea's heart stopped, he spoke to Dianna? When? How did he even know something happened between the two of them? What did Dianna even tell him?
"Stop thinking so hard, you're going to hurt yourself," Matt chuckled lightly.
"I'm just confused right now..."
"When you came home last night you seemed off and you smelled different as well. I know your scent babe, you always smell like lavender. You smelled like vanilla last night and I knew you went to see Dianna so I figured something happened between you two. I'm going to be honest with you, I'm angry but I'm letting this go."
"Why are you letting it go?"
"Cause I get it, when we had first started talking when we weren't official yet. I reconnected with an old flame and I know that feeling of just lust or passion for the person. But just like I told Dianna earlier told, that was a one time thing. If you two will have any type of relationship it will be a friendship. I love you Lea and I'm not letting us go anytime soon."
Lea smiled as she stood in front of her boyfriend and gave him a passionate kiss. She wrapped her arms around his waist and rested her head on his chest. "I am truly sorry Matthew. I never meant for anything to happen but I can promise you it won't ever happen again. I love you Matthew."
"I love you too Lea. Now how about we enjoy our day here?" Lea smiled wide and nodded.
"Yeah definitely. Why don't you freshen up and I can take you to some of my favorite spots here."
"Sounds great." Matt gave Lea a peck and headed to take a quick shower. Lea released a sigh of relief, that was a lot easier then she thought it would be. She was truly lucky to have such an understanding boyfriend, she was so scared she was going to lose him for the mistake she made. Matt was everything to her, he helped her love again. Something she honestly thought she could never do again. But he snuck his way into her heart and has taken such good care of her ever since. She would never jeopardize that again.
Dianna had landed in New York and had finally settled back into her New York apartment in the Upper West Side. She missed the city, she loved the rush of New York, she loved how easily she can get lost in the city. She would start filming in two days for "Hollow of the Land" and she was really excited for this film. As she finished unpacking, she looked at her cellphone and saw she had no messages from Lea at all. She didn't know why she was hoping to receive something from her but she did. Dianna sighed as she set her phone down and poured herself a glass of wine, she needed to stop this. Lea is with Matt, last night was a mistake and she needed to focus on herself. She decided it'd be best to cut ties with Lea permanently... she won't send a text or call or answer any as well. The next two months will only be about her film and after that she'll see what life has in store for her..
Two months later Dianna did just as she said she would, she completely ignored Lea. No calls, no text, no communication what's so ever. Lea had attempted few times to contact Dianna but Dianna always ignored it. It was now the holiday season, Dianna's favorite time of the year and she was feeling great. In those short two months she felt like she had a lot due to the people she surrounded herself with. She became extremely close with fellow co-star Shawn Ashmore who helped her a lot dealing with Lea. Dianna always felt like Lea had a hold over her even after all these years and she hated it. She always thought about their past and if they would get back together and she wanted it to stop. Shawn helped Dianna figure out the root of her problems which was that she always blamed herself for their relationship ending. Dianna always say her faults and mistakes and when Shawn would bring up Lea's faults or mistakes, Dianna would give an excuse for her. Over time though Dianna say that they were both to blame for certain things and she could finally forgive herself for everything that happened. She now felt like the hold Lea had on her was finally broken. It was time for Dianna to live for Dianna and she was excited to start this new chapter in her life.
Dianna was walking through the busy streets of New York heading to Central Park needing to take a breathier from the holiday rush. She bought a small hot chocolate and took a seat on a bench right beside Turtle Pond. She smiled as she took small sips watching the ducks swim around in the pond. After another ten minutes of relaxing she heard a soft voice beside her.
"Mind if I join you?" Dianna looked up and saw Lea smiling slightly as she rocked on her heels.
"Go right ahead." Lea nodded and took a seat beside Dianna, she placed her hands on her lap and starred at the pond quietly. After another two minutes of silence Lea sighed and turned to look at Dianna.
"You're ignoring me. Why?"
"I'm not ignoring you. I'm talking to you right now."
"You were ignoring me. I call and texted you wanting to talk and you never responded back. Why? Are you angry at me about something? Did I do something wrong?"
Dianna shook her head and smiled softly as she looked at Lea, "You didn't do anything wrong and I am not mad at you. I just needed to focus on myself for a while, deal with some things. That's all."
"Oh..are you done dealing with those things now? I-I mean can we talk?" Diann giggled and nodded, "Yes we can talk."
Lea smiled wide, "Good. Now I don't want things to be awkward for us anymore so I feel like we should plan a serious talking day to let everything all out. Agreed?"
"Serious talk day?"
"Yes. We need to discuss what happened back in Boston.."
"Okay, then how about we get that out of the way now. When I saw you enter the lounge I didn't know what to do with myself. Yes I changed the song to let you know how I was feeling at that moment. I hated seeing you with Matthew and I was jealous. When you came back to my house I was surprised and happy at the same time. I had missed you so much and wanted to spend time with you but obviously you were there to get answers from me. Then when you told me you never stopped loving me my heart just exploded with emotions. Then that kissed happens and I never felt so happy then in that split second...but we both know that kiss should of never happened. You are with Matt who loves you and I know you love him too. So I decided to take time to fully get over you which I have. I want to be your friend Lea and now I feel like we actually can be."
Lea just remained silent as Dianna spoke, she didn't know how badly she effected the girl before her. She never wanted herself to be a difficult thing Dianna had to struggle or deal with. Once Dianna finished speaking Lea lunged forward wrapping her arms around Dianna neck hugging her tightly. Dianna was surprised by the sudden movement but hugged the brunette back.
"I'm sorry..."
"For what Lea?"
"Everything," Lea pulled back looking up at Dianna, "I'm sorry for making your life more complicated. I'm sorry for breaking your heart in the past. I'm sorry for being so selfish. I'm sorry that I kissed you and probably broke your heart all over again. I'm just so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. You have always meant so much to me and I don't want to lose my best friend ever again. "
Dianna smiled, she had been waiting a while to hear Lea say she was sorry. Dianna took Lea's hand in hers, "I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon."
Lea couldn't help but tear up, she quickly wiped her cheek and jumped onto her feet, "Okay, serious talk is over. Now what are you doing for the rest of the day?"
"Um nothing really."
"No wrong answer. Is your place decorated yet?"
"Decorated for what?"
Lea stomped her foot, "Christmas Dianna!"
"Lea, I'm Jewish."
"I know that silly, but we used to celebrate Christmukkah when we lived together. Don't tell me you stopped?"
"Well..yeah I kind of did. Sorry, " Dianna giggled at the hurt expression on Lea's face.
"Well this year we are celebrating Christmukkah again. So let's go shopping and start decorating your apartment immediately."
"You serious?"
"I'm very serious. Come on." Lea began to walk, more like march, away from Dianna. Dianna laughed as she stood up from her seat on the bench and followed the determined brunette back to the busy streets of New York City.
"This should be fun."