Fukai Fukai Chapter 2:Can't Fight the Moonlight, an inuyasha fanfic

Chapter two

Song by Leanne Rimes: Can't fight the Moonlight

Under the lovers sky
Gonna be with you
And no one's gonna be around
If you think that you won't fall
Well just wait until
'Til the sun goes down

We sat on a cliff, isolated by trees and bushes. Sesshoumaru, who had so generously allowed me to stay with him at his estate, and offered me his assistance in Naraku's downfall, sat under a tree just by mine. We had been out here for hours, even with the sun long gone, we still sat, talking about the stars, and what we thought the different constellations meant. I laughed as he told me a personal story of his childhood, of how his mother would drag him out here and force him to sing to the stars.

"I'm serious Ichiro, stop your laughter! It is not a laughing matter!" Sesshoumaru growled at me. Seizing my laughter I stared up at the sky and smiled.

"I know, my grandfather used to make me do the same thing, saying that someday the stars will give me the strength to defeat my greatest enemy. I have yet to meet this enemy, but when I do, I'll be sure to face him at night" I laughed, looking over at my calm companion.

Underneath the starlight, starlight
There's a magical feeling so right
It will steal your heart tonight

"Yes, well my mother always told me that you are your own worst enemy, and that the only way to beat yourself is to become one with everything around and within you" Sesshoumaru said lightly.

"Really? My father always taught me that a fear is a weakness and that the only fear a person truly has is that of ones self. That we fear ourselves more than anything else out there, just because we can face the things that we see, that we can look at another person and analyze them, but we can not do so with our selves, so we fear what we feel, and the impact that we make upon other people. I guess it's kind of the same as what your mother said" I answered, looking up at the full moon, seeing my fathers face reflected upon its surface.

"No, what your father said is different, for he talks of fear. Fear in itself is a weakness, but the greatest weakness comes from us not totally accepting those fears, especially the ones we believe to be foolish fears.

"What my mother said is that you are your worst enemy. You can not face that what you fear, without conquering the fear of yourself, and then defeating the part of yourself that holds those fears. They work together, but are not the same" Sesshoumaru explained to me.

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
but you know, but you know
That you, can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart
BUT you know, BUT you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight..No
You can't fight it...
It's gonna get to your heart

"I see…I guess I have a lot to learn about myself, and the feelings I hold inside of me…but there is still a long way until death may be considered, so perhaps I will indulge this matter another day…as for now, perhaps we should head back to your estate, it is late, and we should not waste time, we start traveling tomorrow after all" I managed to say between fits of yawns and coughing.

"Perhaps we should wait until that cough of yours disappears, ne? It may become dangerous if your condition worsens" Sesshoumaru stated, staring at me blankly.

"Oh drop it, get up and move your lazy ass, I'll be fine" I growled, getting up and stretching.

"If you say so" Sesshoumaru said, following suit before we started back to the estate.

There's no escaping love
Once a gentle breeze
Weaves a spell upon your heart
No matter what you think
It won't be too long
'Til you're in my arms
Underneath the starlight, starlight
We'll be lost in the rhythm so right
Feel it steal your heart tonight

We left early the next morning, walking north to where I sensed Naraku's presence. We walked on for a few days until Sesshoumaru growled.

"What is it my lord?" I asked cautiously.

"Inuyasha" Sesshoumaru growled, glaring towards a spot towards the east.

As I extended my senses in that direction, I was not surprised to sense the auras of my former friends.

"Is that a problem? Should I take care of them?" I asked, my voice a smooth monotone.

"No, we lure them here, you stay out of sight until I give you a signal or you beseech it fit to show yourself" Sesshoumaru mumbled, drawing his sword and allowing his scent to travel east ward.

You can try to resist
Try to hide from my kiss
But you know, But you know
That you can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight...No
You can't fight it...
No matter what you do
The light is gonna get to you

Sure enough, Inuyasha took the bait and appeared in a matter of seconds. How stupid can one half-breed get? To walk into such an obvious trap! I was appalled to have ever considered him so much as an acquaintance! Staring at Sesshoumaru's graceful movements and listening to his well thought out taunts, I knew immediately that he was trying to force Inuyasha to use his windscar, and see if I would come through and help him. Knowing this, I readied myself for the barrier I would have to place around his form. It was almost time to erect the barrier when Shippo just had to yell out that I was here. Growling, I jumped out of my hiding, pulled free my bow, created an arrow, and let it soar. It pierced the windscar and separated the winds so that my lord and I were not harmed. Before the dust could disappear, I pulled my hood over my face and hid myself behind my master's body. As the dust cleared, I heard the others coughing, and could not help but cough slightly myself. I did have a cold, and Sesshoumaru turned slightly, an inquiring eyebrow raised. Smiling I lifted my head just enough for him to see it, and turned away, trying to hide myself behind him.

"Who was that!" Inuyasha shouted, waving his hand in front of his face, trying to clear the dust.

"What, you resolving to minions to do your dirty work for you now, Sesshoumaru?" Sango yelled, her slayers mask covering her mouth and nose.

"Usually this Sesshoumaru would not bother to answer your questions, but since I believe it best that you are warned, I will tell you. The person you just saw was one of my soldiers, my best man, and personal "Body Guard" Ichiro. He has only been in my troop for a week now, but as you can see, he is quite the loyal young officer" Sesshoumaru stated. If you ask me, it almost sounded as though he was bragging about me being there.

"Since when do you need a "personal body guard"?" Inuyasha asked.

"Never really, but I do need to give him a proper title, and besides, he is a close friend and I need a reason to keep him around" again, a bragging tone lifted Sesshoumaru's usually baritone voice to a higher, happier level.

"Well, why is he hiding if he's such a great warrior?" Sango asked.

"Ichiro, you may come out now" Sesshoumaru grumbled, rolling his eyes at their questioning. Coming out of my hiding place, my hood secured over my face, I glared at the group I had once considered my second family. Inuyasha, trying to identify me by scent, sniffed the air, coming as close to me as an inch from my face until he finally gave up.

"Man, you got a pretty good scent concealing spell on you; I can't even detect a hint of your power!" Inuyasha exclaimed. Bringing my hand up to my head, I hit it slightly, trying to get the ringing out of it.

"Do try to lower your voice half-breed. My ears are ringing" Sesshoumaru growled, punching him in the stomach and away form my person.

"Besides, he does not associate with low lives such as yourself. You especially since you destroyed his village" He growled, hovering over his form.

Don't try, you're never gonna win, oh

Underneath the starlight, starlight,
There's a magical feeling, so right
It'll steal your heart tonight

"Destroyed his village? Saved it from a demon that might have knocked him into a few buildings, yes, but actually destroyed his village? That is very much impossible!" Miroku stated, walking over towards Inuyasha.

"Oh, it is quite possible, I was there after all. There was a priestess along his side as well. A dead priestess" I stated my voice calm and smooth. It was nothing like my usual squeaky voice, the one they were so accustomed to.

"A dead priestess? Is that perhaps why Kagome's left? Or was it because you destroyed the well? For all we know you might have destroyed his poor village too!" Sango yelled.

"Must you be so loud slayer? I am but a human, but even to my humble ears, your tone is enough to leave them ringing!" I growled.

Blushing, Sango apologized for her rude action, and turned to Inuyasha, starting to beat him up with her boomerang. Looking towards Sesshoumaru, he nodded and we took our leave, not wishing to "disturb" them any further.

You can try to resist, try to hide from my kiss
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart,
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it

"You proved your loyalty to me today. You were ready enough to jump out and take anything my half-wit; half-brother could have thrown at me. I am thankful to you for that, and I take much pride in calling you my friend and soldier" Sesshoumaru stated as we walked north wards once more.

"It is my duty and pleasure to protect you my lord. If it is within or out of my power to do so, I would do anything to keep you safe. Besides, I have a score to settle with your brother, and I will settle it" I growled, my hood still covering my face.

"Indeed you shall. But first, we shall find Naraku, who helped in the destruction of your village" Sesshoumaru stated. Within one week, he had become my closest friend. I hated to admit it, but I was glad that he found me on that cliff. With him, I had seen things far more beautiful than I could have ever imagined existed. I believe that if things keep going in this direction, I may just tell him who I truly am! But there is something that troubles me…why would he be so willing to take me in like that? And why force me to face Inuyasha? Better yet, why was he so nice to me? Why didn't he just kill me? Why do all this, just so I can help him bring down Naraku? Did he know? And if yes, what does he truly want from me? And why did I sense Gina's presence near the clearing? Thinking this makes me wonder what happened to Rin, and why she wasn't at the castle. And where was Kikyou? Did they truly abandon me? Sighing, I took off my hood and massaged my forehead.

"Sometimes I believe you think too much, Ichiro. You are constantly massaging your forehead. Are you sure you are up for this trip? Perhaps we should rest?" Sesshoumaru asked, stopping so I could catch up.

"No, no, I'm fine. Really, we don't have to stop. I guess I just have a lot on my mind. Please, let us continue for a while. We can rest when the last rays of light have left the sky" I mumbled. I guess I didn't sound very convincing though, since he looked as though he was going to sit down and pout, but he didn't, continuing on, though keeping his eye on me.

You can try to resist, try to hide from my kiss
But you know, DON'T you know that you
can't fight the moonlight
Deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart,
But you know, but you know that you
Can't fight the moonlight
No, you can't fight it

Finally night arrived, and I caught myself nodding off, slightly. I guess the trek had done more to me that I thought it would. Oh, well, I had nothing to worry about. Sesshoumaru sat on the other side of the fire, looking up at the sky. Looking up, I thought I saw slight resemblance to my older brother. He had perished a long time ago, along with my father. Now that I remember it, I could just see my brothers smiling face, looking down at me with his black hair up in spikes. He had taught me archery, and just remembering him hurt. He had been my best friend, big brother and favourite family member. Sighing, I turned my head away from Sesshoumaru. I had not remembered my brother in a long time now, but I guess it's better to remember now than not to remember at all. He was the real Ichiro, Kage Ichiro Higurashi. That was his full name, but I just went by Ichiro, since that's what I had always called him. Sighing again, I looked up at the stars and let images of my childhood flood my mind. He was in every one of my memories, if it was him in person, or his soothing voice telling me something in my mind. Yes, my brother had always been there for me, and I would never, from this day forth, forget him again.

"Achoo!" It was Sesshoumaru.

"Bless you" I stated, not really paying attention to what was happening.

It's gonna get to your heart...

Song by S Club 7: "Never Had A Dream Come True"

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I was dreaming, I had to be. This could not be real! There stood my brother, just as he had before he and father died.

"Ichiro" I whispered quietly, and jumped into his arms, tears that I knew must have bee streaming down my face, falling. I couldn't believe it, my brother was back!

"Hey, hey, what's wrong Kags? Why are you crying like I've been gone for half your life? I was just out to get some milk with father!" My brother asked, looking down at me with those big blue eyes that the two of us shared.

"I had a horrible dream big brother! I dreamt that you and father died, and that you left me here all by my self, and I went back in time and I met this really mean jerk and, and…" I never finished. I was crying to hard.

"Oh, come on Kags, it was just a dream. It wasn't real! See, father and I are fine! We're alright, now stop crying. I would never just leave you behind like that! Besides, why would I? You are my favourite little sister, and being here with you means so much to me! I would never let you get hurt!" he whispered, soothing my fears with his calm voice.

"Promise? Do you promise that you would never leave me behind like that?" I whispered, looking up at him with watery eyes.

"I promise. I promise with my whole heart and soul that I would never, ever leave you behind like that. And to prove that, why don't you come with me and the guys to the movies? I'll make sure nothing happens to you, and you make sure nothing happens to me, okay?" he asked, he truly was back. Nodding my head yes, he helped me get ready, put me on his motorcycle, and we were off. We watched on adult movie, and one kids movie, so that I would not be so scared anymore. We then went to the park, where he pushed me on the swings, in the middle of the night! Then, he took me out for some fast food and took me back home, where he carried me to my bed, kissed me on the forehead, and tucked me in. The next day, he took me to school, and promised to pick me up afterwards. He did, with a custom made leather jacket and helmet just for me!

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

"Now do you believe that I would never leave you hanging?" he asked, helping me up on his bike.

"Yes! Thank you Ichiro! You're the best!" I shouted turning and hugging him. I was only in grade five, but he truly was the best.

"Of course I am! Now remember Kagome, I love you no matter what, okay? Don't ever forget that. And no matter what, remember that I'm always with you, okay?" he asked, looking down at me. We were suddenly at our house, beside the tree. He was kneeling down beside me, looking me in the eyes.

"Why big brother? Are you leaving!" I asked, he wasn't going to leave me was he? He promised!

"Only for a while. I'm graduating soon, and I'll have to go to collage. The collage father is sending me to is far, far away, so I won't be able to see you for a while, but I will be back, and then I'll spend every second with you, okay? And we'll write letters to each other, and phone! It's not like I'll never be around anymore! It's just for a little while!" Ichiro whispered, holding my shoulders so that I don't go running.

"You promised! You promised you'd never leave me behind! You promised on your heart and soul! Why do you have to go!" I cried, he promised!

"Kagome! I know I promised, but right now it's either I go, or I can never take you out ever again!" "NO!" I didn't want to hear any of it. Ripping myself free from his grip, I ran. I ran away from the shrine, the city, and away from everything that I knew, until I came to a stop in a lone clearing in a forest. There, in the middle, was a broken well, and a teenager stood by it, looking as if she would break down in tears any moment now.

"What's wrong?" I asked the older girl. She looked familiar, as though I had seen her before.

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be 'cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

She looked up at me surprised.

"This was my only way back home. I will never see my family ever again!" she cried, breaking down and sobbing. Wiping my own eyes, I walked forward and hugged her shaking body.

"I won't see my family ever again either! I ran away and got lost" I whispered. I held the sobbing girl until she fell asleep. Pulling her into the safety of the trees, I curled up by a tree and fell asleep too. The next thing I remember was coming too in a soft bed and big brown eyes staring down at me.

"Where am I?" I asked my voice hoarse from having cried my self to sleep.

"You're in my Daddy's house! He found you and Kagome and brought you here!" a small girl with a small side pig tail, and big brown eyes stared at me.

"I'm Kagome!" I said, looking at the girl who was sitting on my stomach.

"Really? Your name is Kagome too?" the girl asked. I nodded, so the girl I saw was also a Kagome. Strange.

"You know, you really must be more careful as to where you chose to fall asleep, young girl. You could have gotten hurt" I screamed. There was my brother with long white hair, golden eyes, and sharp talons and markings on his cheek and wrists. Covering his ears, he looked surprised and annoyed, and let out a growl, causing me to scream even louder. Soon almost every servant or person in the place I was being kept in was at my door, starting. It wasn't until the girl from the night before came and soothed my fears that I stopped screaming.

"What did you do, Sesshoumaru? How did you make her scream like that? The poor thing!" the girl shouted, poking him in the chest. Sesshoumaru? His name is Ichiro!

"His name is Ichiro!" I protested without thinking. He raised an eyebrow.

"That is my second name" he stated, he sounded almost exactly like Ichiro, but his voice was too cold to be my brothers.

"Where am I? I want to go home. I want to go to my brother and tell him I'm sorry! I want to tell him that I'll write to him when he leaves and tell him that no matter where he is that I will always care for him! I want to go home!" I screamed.

"Do you know which village you came from?" it was the "older" Kagome.

"Tokyo" I stated, okay, so it wasn't exactly a village, but it was where I came from.

"Tokyo?" she looked speechless. Even the whispered word of my home city was breathless.

"Yeah, you know, big sky scrapers, huge apartment buildings, large schools, lots of shrines!" I said, what, they never hear of Tokyo before?

"What's your address?" the other Kagome said.

"Um…I live on Sunset Shrine. It's a really popular shrine, in the outskirts of downtown. Grandpa says it's been around for centuries…and big brother says that grandpa is a senile old fool!" I said, looking somewhat brighter, maybe I could get back home after all!

"What's your name?" she asked.

"Kagome!" I said.

"You can't go home. The only possible way I could get back was that broken well…and the Sunset shrine, I live there. My brother, he said that kind of stuff about my grandfather too, but he died, when I was about your age. In a car accident. He and father were pulled out of the ruins just in time for him to say my name one last time! I-I hated him for years, for wanting to leave me. I blamed myself, because I had ran away that day. He had told me he was going away for schooling and we wouldn't see each other for a while. When I came back, I was just in time to see them crash. I ran to them, and shouted his name, but he could not hear me. When I pulled him out, he just looked through me and whispered my name. Oh god, you have to get back before that happens! Go back!" the girl shouted. And I ran, I ran away from the estate, from the silver haired look alike, from the older Kagome, the servants and guards, from the forest and all the way home. There I stared at the door, and just as it opened, out came Ichiro, bag slung over his shoulder, eyes heavy, and head down.

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No, no, no, no

"Ichiro!" I shouted, ran to him and hugged him. I cried as he moved and hugged me back, whispering words of sorrow and comfort. I knew I was keeping him so moving my head from his shoulder I whispered the words I had vowed I would say to him If ever I saw him again.

"I'm sorry Ichiro, I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have run away like that. I should have been happy for you, and accepted the fact that you would leave. I knew would have to leave soon anyways, but I didn't want you to go, but I understand that you have to go now, and go study so you can have a proper job. Just please be careful, and write everyday! Okay? And don't forget me!" with that I pulled out a chain that I had kept from a young age and handed it to him.

"Don't forget!" I shouted as the picture started to fade…

"I won't! I promise!" that was the last time I ever heard his voice. He died in an airplane crash that night. He never did send me a letter, but a survivor that had sat close to him had said that he was looking at a picture of me, and writing me a letter.

I woke up then, cold sweat streaming down my face. I knew that was not the way it went. He died in a car crash a year before his graduation, and father had died with him. I never had the chance to say that I would always care for him, and I never could give him the necklace I had wanted to give him. I did run away from home for a few days, but I had only been in a shed downtown. I never saw myself crying at the broken well, and Sesshoumaru never picked me up from the forest floor where I had laid crying for three hours! Looking around camp, I found my self alone, with Sesshoumaru missing. Was that perhaps a dream too? But before I could answer that, Sesshoumaru appeared at the other side of camp, carrying a pile of wood. Looking over at me he dropped the wood and jumped over the fire towards me.

"Are you alright? You were wallowing in the dirt as though a pig! And you had a very high fever. I almost thought about bringing you back to the castle, but decided against it. You really should have told me that you weren't feeling well, we could have stopped sooner!" he growled, pushing me back onto the furs I had been sleeping on. I sighed nodded and fell back into unconsciousness.

I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you