Heh, Like Delic would really be able to sleep that night. He had so much to think about-or so his brain thought. He denied himself the desire to fall in love ever again. It was too much of a bother to bear. He hated the feeling of heartbreak more than anything else-Yet, that's exactly what happened to him before.
He denied his feelings for Hibiya as much as he could. It wasn't going to change anything. He despised himself. 'I don't want to go through that again….Why him? Why did he have to look so much like….' He flinched. '…Psyche…' The only reason Delic was interested in Hibiya in the first place was because of the resemblance. Who knew two people could tear him up inside so much, make him feel so broken.
"Ugh...why?" Delic kept asking himself that over and over again. 'But now, the real reason I want to see Hibiya so much….' He tried not to think about it anymore.
'I don't even think about Psyche anymore….what has Hibiya done to me?' It was true, Delic rarely ever thought about Psyche. His mind was always filled with Hibiya.
He tried not to think about it but his thoughts were all over the place-always making their way back to the princely raven. His subconscious wanted to see Hibiya so much, but his mind was afraid. He was afraid of hurting the raven.
All he wanted was to forget his heartbreak and live without fear. It was horrible, and the only one he could blame…was himself.
"Delic-nii~! I want to introduce you to someone!" Delic frowned, grumbling to himself. He was frustrated by his own memories. "Delic-nii~! This is - and he's my -"
Delic got out of his bed. He needed something to do since sleep didn't seem like an option for him anymore. He put his headphones on and listened to the now playing music. He drowned out life and just enjoyed the soothing sound of music. At least with this, his thoughts disappeared for a while. He didn't have to think about anything. It was relaxing. Well, that is until a certain song came on, making him jump. It was Psyche's song. He quickly ripped off the headphones, throwing them across the room. His face angry with rage and depression. He was only pissing himself off more. He needed out of this constant worry. He hopped back onto his bed, resting his head in his pillows. He hoped he could sleep this time-if he was lucky, that is.
What seemed like minutes but was actually hours, he opened his eyes to see the sun shining down on him. He must've finally been able to sleep. He eyed his clock. It was already passed noon. Heh, good thing he didn't have work today. He sighed and slowly got out of his bed. As he dressed himself, he noticed his headphones he threw, still on the ground. He gently picked them up and put them on. It was a usual morning for Delic. Except for the fact that Hibiya was still on his mind.
"Shit." He cursed under his breath.
He didn't want to leave the comfort of his home, he was pretty afraid of running into Hibiya again. He didn't have to worry about Psyche, though, since he lived in the city, far away from anywhere Delic ever usually travels to. But Hibiya-he lived so close. Delic knew he needed to keep his distance from the raven before he'd do something he'd really regret. And with that, he carefully peeked out of his door, making sure no one was around. He sighed. He walked out of his safe place only after locking his door and double checking that no one was around. It was a pretty nice day, actually. The sun was shining brightly, the weather was comfortable, everything around the blonde seemed pleasant-except Delic. He walked along the same particular path, a frown on his face. He was more worried about seeing Hibiya than enjoying the weather. The path he walked on was long and seemed like it would never end-just like his thoughts. 'Ugh, what should I do today?'
He stopped walking and found a particular tree near him, seeing a shadow under it, he walked up to it, not realizing what he just did.
Delic flinched when he realized what the shadow was. It was the one person who he was trying to avoid as much as possible. Delic calmed down when he realized the other was asleep. He had a peaceful expression on his sleeping face. Delic couldn't help but stare at the sight in front of him, a smile made its way onto his face.
"…So cute…" He regretted letting those words escape his lips as soon as he said them. Hibiya's eyes slowly opened, he smiled softly.
He was obviously still half asleep.
Delic's face still flustered from the smile that was directed towards him. Delic motioned to sit next to Hibiya, he couldn't help himself anymore. As he started to sit down, Hibiya jolted awake, surprised by Delic's actions. Delic stopped in the middle of moving. It was rather awkward since neither one of them were fully aware of what was going on. Hibiya finally broke the unbearable silence.
"…Y-you can sit down, I suppose."
Delic nodded and continued to move and sit down.
"It's a rather pleasant day, don't you agree?" Hibiya looked away from Delic, afraid he was just going to stay quiet. 'Why is he being so strange?' It was only after a few long, seconds before Delic finally replied.
"Yeah, it is."
Delic was quiet as could be, he was actually afraid of saying something he'd regret to the raven. So many different thoughts circled his mind, something might have slipped out.
"…Are you alright?"
Hibiya finally turned and looked at Delic's face, who blinked absent-mindedly at the raven's question.
"H-huh? Yeah, I'm fine. The weather's just so nice that I spaced out." He feigned a smile and lied through his teeth, which was actually extremely obvious. Hibiya nodded slowly and continued to try and converse with the strangely silent blonde. Delic would give simple nods or simply say "Yeah".
Hibiya finally couldn't take it anymore. He moved so that he sat in front of Delic.
"What's your problem?" He didn't usually talk like that. He was refined, but the blonde was always making him act differently against his own will. Hibiya was pissed.
Delic blinked, shocked by Hibiya sudden outburst.
"W-what?"
Delic was confused. Had he done something? Hibiya continued to glare at him.
"Tell me what's wrong!" He demanded, clutching tightly on the blonde's shirt. Delic flinched from the touch. 'No…don't do that! Damn it, I don't know what I'm gonna do if I accidentally look into your eyes…those…beautiful eyes...' He looked away to avoid eye-contact as best he could. But Hibiya wouldn't let him, he grabbed the blonde's face, his hands cupping the other's cheeks, pulling them closer to his face. Their faces were only inches apart now.
"Look at me!"
Hibiya yelled at the blonde, who stared with wide eyes at the face in front of him. Delic was frozen stiff, he was glad though, there was no telling what he could do. It took him a few moments before he could do anything. He finally leaned into Hibiya's touch, making the other flinch. Delic closed his eyes-a smile on his face. It was comfortable. He didn't want to move. Hibiya's movements finally caused Delic to open his eyes, still leaning his head on Hibiya's hand. The blonde stared at the other. 'That's right…this isn't Psyche…not at all. This is Hibiya. They're so different from each other…I…-' His thoughts were cut off as Hibiya spoke to break the silence.
"…You're acting strange…what's wrong?"
"…Nothing…" Delic smiled a truly happy, soft smile.
Hibiya looked at the ground.
"Liar…." He stared at his hand that was no longer on Delic's cheek, but now hanging in the air, entwined with Delic's. Hibiya didn't even question it.
"I'm fine…really." Delic tried to reassure the raven haired prince, but failed since Hibiya just wouldn't believe him.
"Why won't you just tell me…?" Hibiya had a sad tone in his voice, making Delic feel guilt stab his chest.
"Hibiya…" Was all Delic could manage to say. He wanted to tell Hibiya everything so badly…but he just couldn't muster up the courage to do it. How could Delic tell him that Hibiya was the reason for all this? How could he tell the raven that he was in love with him? Hibiya would just laugh and walk away. There's no way he'd love him back….But at least Delic had come to terms with his feelings. But he'd die before he could tell Hibiya that.
'Then that you shall….'
Delic twitched. What was that voice? Delic shrugged off the tiny voice he heard as the wind. His face filled with confusion and a bit of fear, not that he could tell.
Hibiya as concerned.
"Delic, you're acting weird…"
Hibiya really wanted to know what was going on in Delic's mind. He wanted to know why Delic was acting so strange. He wanted to…help…? It was making him worried. But…didn't he hate this man? Didn't this idiotic flirt always sexually harass and annoy him? It was true…but something about the blonde…drew him in…he didn't know what it could be…but it was definitely something. Hibiya pushed all his arguing thoughts away, his concern and worry overpowering all of them.
Delic sighed with hesitation.
"Do you…really want to know?"
Hibiya flinched. He really did want to know…but he was a bit nervous at the same time.
"Y-yes…please…tell me?" His grip tightened on the blonde's, making Delic smile.
"Don't take it back then."
Hibiya was about to say something but was cut off when Delic swiftly pulled the smaller into his chest gently. Running his fingers through the beautiful raven hair in front of him, he made sure Hibiya couldn't see his flustered face. His other arm was wrapped around Hibiya's waist, holding him tightly.
"…I love you."
Augh...
I'm really slow when it comes to updates, oh my god...
I promise I'll try and update quicker! . Damn writer's block...
Anyways, thank you for my first review~3
And uh...I hope you enjoyed chapter two~ :3
