The next day I woke up were so warm... no, hot fitted more. Slowly I opened my eyes, everything I saw looked somehow blurry. As I tried to get up and laid the blanket aside I felt how I became suddenly so cold although I could not stand the heat under it any more. My legs and arms felt also somehow powerless. I would have to lay down in my bed once more. If there would not be this horrible cough.
2. Capter: "A lovely family"
But she would come if I would be late for breakfast. And I did not want this.
- Tock tock - Squeak -
"Hey, mornin´ my little angel. Is something wrong? You will be late for school, please hurry up." She was unpredictable. One moment she cursed you like hell and another moment she was like a mother should be - lovely, helpful,worried about you.
"- Mother, I (cough)... feel so- warm. But I- (cough) but I get so... cold. Am I- sick? (cough)"
A cold hand touched my hot cheek. "Dear God, you´re glowing! You´re so- so... We´ll go to the doctor now-! Can you dress youself?"
"No, please... (cough) don´t go to the doctor..!" I could not see this scene again. "I just- (cough) have to get some sleep(cough), ... really." I showed her a nervous smile. Everytime she went to the doctor they spoke really of her. What a good mother she would be.
"You must´ve felt already uncomfortable yesterday. Why haven´t you said anything-?" As long as everyone thought she would be a great person she did nearly everything. Like giving people money so they would just speak positve about her.
"- I- (cough) did not want to... worry you..." But it was your fault. You wanted me to help you alone in the cold. And although she is convinced that she is such a wonderful person I know how people are amusing about her behind her back. Because she believes you could buy´ friends. She does not know that she is bribing people. Real friends do not need any money to like you.
"Okay then- how about a nice cup of tea? Fruit tea, you like it." She was so nice now, helped me back into my bed and covered me up. "Don´t worry, I´ll be here for you. Just get some sleep my dear."
- Kiss -
She really kissed me on my left cheek. She did that not often. I would enjoy this short time of being loved...
My eyes closed quickly. Everything was so exhausting, even thinking. During my sleep she must have been in my room again, as I woke up I saw this cold cup of tea standing on my nightstand. Sun was already setting and the entire house was quiet. I felt a bit better now but not fully recoverred when-
- Squeak -
"Uh, there´s my brave little sun-!" A tall man in an white lab coat and long black hair had entered. He was a really friendly person, not as my mother. "As I heard you got a mean cold. Say, how do you feel now? I hope I didn´t wake you up."
"It is okay father, I feel better now. Mother was really nice to me." "That´s great. You know, I would be so sad if there´d be something that put a strain on you. You can tell me everything." Because of that I love him really much, but there is something that is a real problem.
"But for now I have to get some sleep too. Good night, my sunny-!" My father has a really exhausting job in his lab. Sometimes he does not come home, but everytime he is at home he is so tired I cannot tell him anything. In the morning he is leaving for work so early I never had the chance to speak to him.
As he had left my room, mother does enter too. "Your father was really worried as he heard you were sick. Are you better now? I tried not to disturb your sleep..."
"Yes mother, thank you very much." She is somehow disappionted. "Don´t be so shy, you can call me Mary. You forgot, right?" The smile in her face is a bit scary. Because if I call her Mary in times she has her special moments´ when she says so mean things to you... she simply freaks out. How I would dare to call her Mary´?
I am just careful. In this rare moments when she is a real mother- I just forget how horrible she can be. I cannot be angry with her. Because she can be so lovely. I know she really loves me, and I want to be loved.
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Annotation:
Hey, hello. It´s me again. And now: what do you think? Is it terrible? There aren´t people like this Mary´? I am writing implausible? Maybe it seems so. Just wait a bit more. The more I wrote down the more I feel better somehow - I do hope so.
So thank you for reading this...