The Termination Complexities: Chapter 2
*a/n Hello guys, I'm back! Miss me? I love all of your reviews, thanks a bunch! I may or may not have seen any spoilers for the coming episode… but I promise you this story now does not follow the show; it's only from my pure imagination. However, the characters are real. The struggles are real. The ruins are final. Without further delay, here is the next chapter!
To the outside world, Sheldon's actions were just silly and foolish. After all, the world is a very judgmental place. But get into Sheldon's mind, and his actions were not silly or foolish at all. His actions indicated heartbreak.
Two years. It had been nearly two years since Sheldon's highly irrational decision had been made, and the consequences had caught up with him a long time ago.
Something changed in Sheldon that night. If he believed in such nonsense, he would have stated that he officially had nothing to live for. But he didn't. And he was better off without her, right?
Most nights were spent in his room, lying on his bed with his knees curled up to his chin. Sheldon was not a very emotional person, but even he couldn't deny that he had cried the first few times when he felt loneliness grab at him from the darkness.
Tonight was no different. As Sheldon laid in his bed, with his Thursday pajamas on even though it was Friday, he could hear his friends all having pizza and chatting happily with one another, as if he didn't even exist anymore and his emotional pain wasn't evident at all. The only difference was, despite him straining his ears to hear, one very distinctive voice was missing. It had been for nearly two years. He should be used to it by now.
Sighing deeply, Sheldon nuzzled his face into his blanket, trying to push back the knot he felt in his stomach. He had given up eating with the group a long time ago. All they did was question him about how he was 'holding up without Amy' and every time someone reminded him, that knot was always present in his stomach, growing stronger each and every time he allowed himself to think about it. Perhaps that's why Amy had also given up eating with their friends.
Even with his Vulcan hearing, Sheldon could not hear what his friends were talking about, nor did he care. However, he soon realized that he couldn't hear what they were talking about because everybody had left. With everybody gone, it looked like Sheldon was alone with his thoughts once again.
Deciding to reminisce in a ritual that he and Amy had once done together, Sheldon pulled himself out of his bed and slumped his way into the kitchen, slowly and carefully putting the kettle to a boil. Indeed, all his friends had left. He briefly wondered how long he had been in his room for, before dismissing the thought.
Looking around, Sheldon found his laptop. Turning it on and booting it up, Sheldon wished Amy hadn't blocked him on FaceBook. He innocently wanted to look at her pictures, to remember her features, and what used to be his.
So, he did what any logical person would have done. He hacked into Leonard's FaceBook account.
Sheldon merely assumed that the reason Amy was still friends with Leonard was because they never talked. It was reasonable to assume that she had forgotten to delete him.
Scrolling through Amy's profile on Leonard's account, Sheldon saw nothing too important. That is, until he came across a post that happened to catch his eye.
It's been almost two years, and not a day goes by that I don't think of you.
Sheldon's heart fluttered and his chest ached as he read her post over and over again, committing each word to memory and reading it in her voice. The more he read the post, the more he felt his eyes burn and the more he longed for Amy's presence. It took all he could to not comment on that status, telling her how much he missed her. The only reason he didn't was because he was on Leonard's account. If he did that, Leonard would surely know that he had hacked him.
So, with a last read and a meaningful last look at her profile picture, Sheldon signed out of Leonard's account and powered down his laptop. Just in time for his tea to be done.
"Come on Amy," Leonard had pleaded to Amy earlier that day, his eyes soft. "What's so bad about just coming over for a bite to eat?" Amy had tried to hard to cut off contact with everyone. And she succeeded, except with Leonard. She had to keep her mouth shut; he would decidedly tell Penny every word she said.
Honestly, there really was only one reason why Amy could not and would not go to their apartment and eat with them. It just hurt too much.
"I've been busy," Amy lied through her teeth, looking sheepishly down at the ground. Ever since she had stopped being friends with Sheldon, she had a serious problem of talking to people.
If Leonard were to compare the two, he would have said that he thought Amy was doing far better than Sheldon was doing. Clearly he hadn't been on FaceBook.
Amy's life had been considerably worse than it had ever been in her whole entire life. Sure, she had been bullied and friendless in her adolescence and teen years, but she finally had friends, and she never expected it all to be gone so soon. The realization hit her like a slap to the face whenever she thought about it.
"Well, I'm sure Penny would love to have a girl's night sometime." He continued, lazily wandering by her side through the discount store they were both currently in. Amy sighed internally; there was no escaping the blonde goddess.
"I don't know…" Amy told him skeptically. She wasn't sure how long she could hold out talking to Penny about her problems. Surely she wanted to talk about Sheldon with her, and she wasn't sure she could keep the tears in check.
"Are you sure? From what I hear, she's got wine and chocolate." He made a pretty compelling argument.
However, Amy wasn't going to give in that easily. The though of being a mere feet from Sheldon initially gave her butterfly's, but if she allowed herself to further think about him, the butterfly's would turn to increasing pains in her stomach and it made her wants to scream out into the darkness, desperately wishing for Sheldon's arms around her. She knew it sounded foolish, but she was in love. She couldn't help it.
"You do make a very compelling argument…" Amy reluctantly agreed. She had to admit, adrenaline flowed through her body when she thought about the possibility of seeing Sheldon again. Perhaps they could become friends once more…?
But it wasn't a good idea. Those feelings, Amy just couldn't keep her feelings down long enough to actually show Sheldon she was fine. Surely he was fine; she hadn't heard anything from Leonard, at least. Maybe he refrained from telling her, just so he wouldn't hurt her…?
Eyeing him skeptically, Amy tried to figure out why Leonard wanted her to go so badly to Penny's to hang out with her.
"Alright, fine, I'll go." Amy said out of pure weakness. She only hoped that after nearly two years of not being in contact with any of her friends except Leonard, that things wouldn't get all weird and awkward.
*a/n I'd really appreciate some feedback guys, did you like this chapter? Would you like me to continue? Let me know! (: