Running in the Rain

Magnus Point of View

I was curled up in a ball on my couch crying like there was no tomorrow. I hugged a picture of Alec and I close to my chest as I lay sobbing pathetically over a boy who broke my trust and my heart. Chairman Meow was furiously butting his head against my foot that was dangling of the edge of the couch. Poor thing probably wanted fed.

I sat up and ran my hand under my nose and gently placed the picture on the couch before getting up to feed Chairman. Once the cat was fed I began to make my way back to the couch that has been home to my pathetic sobbing for almost four days now. Only, just before I sat down my door bell rings. Cursing whoever has interrupted my pity party I gingerly made my way to the door. I flung open my apartment door to see a sobbing Izzy on my doorstep. She stepped forward and collapsed into my arms.

"He's hurt bad Magnus, real bad. I know your mad at him but please help him! Help him Magnus! Don't let him die! Oh God, Don't let him die Maggie!" Izzy was frantically clutching my pyjama shirt and sobbing into my shoulder.

"Who's hurt, Izzy?" though I had a sinking feeling in my gut that I knew exactly who was hurt.

"A-Alec! He hurt himself Magnus, he hurt himself! Please help him! Please!" she was shaking me more than I already was myself. I nodded once and Izzy began to pull me out of the apartment.

We flew down the steps and out into the pouring rain heading for the Institute. Me in my pyjamas and Slippers and Izzy her Shadowhunting Gear. We arrived at the Institute and raced down the corridors trailing water as we went. We reached Alec's bedroom, a room I knew well, and were greeted by the Solemn face's of Jace and Maryse. I shoved past both of them and into Alec's room. It was just as had last seen it, bed made, tidy, and sparse of personal belongings except from the picture on the nightstand. The picture of us.

Alec was no where in sight and I assumed that meant he was in the bathroom. I hastily made my way there fearing what was to come. Inside the bathroom Alec lay on the tiled floor, curled in a ball, a note in his hands. I didn't notice the blood at first but as I drew closer I saw that it flowed freely from cuts on either wrist. I knelt down and grabbed a wrist in each hand and began to chant.

Very slowly the cuts on Alec's wrist began to heal and the blood began to slow. I hadn't realised I was crying until I noticed the drops of tears falling onto Alec's too pale face. I gently brushed the silky black hair off his beautiful face and picked him up off the cold floor to lay him in his bed.

I looked up and noticed that each Lightwood had begun to leave, now knowing that Alec was going to be ok. Izzy was the last to leave and thanked me with a weak smile and a kiss on my forehead. Alone now with Alec I began to sob more intently, realising how close I had come to losing my precious little shadowhunter. As I gently shifted Alec over a little so I could lay down with him the note in his hands feel free. Curious I picked it up and began to read.

Dear Family,

Please don't be mad at Magnus, this isn't his fault. I brought this all on myself through my own stupidity and Insecurity. He had every reason in the world to break up with me and I do not blame him for this. When I am gone though, could you please tell him how sorry I am for what I did to him and tell him that even though he hates me I still love him and to not blame himself for my death. I'll love him always, forever, but I cannot live with him not loving me anymore and so iv taken the easy way out, to spare me the pain of knowing he doesn't love me anymore and that I caused it.

I love you all, don't forget that, and I love you too Magnus.

Love Alec.

Despite what Alec had written in his note, I did blame myself. It was all my fault as I hadn't realised sooner how insecure Alec had felt. I was the reason that Alec nearly died, that I had almost lost him.

The groan from my right had me glancing up and into the most glorious pair of blue eyes. I sighed in relief at the sight.

"Am I dead?" Alec asked.

"No Alec, you're not" I smiled at him gently and brushed his hair back from his face.

"But I must be, you're not mad at me" he frowned in confusion.

"I stopped being mad, Alec, the minute I left that tunnel and realised I had made the biggest mistake in all my 800 years" his eyes had started to glitter with unshed tears.

"Im sorry, Magnus. Im sorry for being selfish and trying to take away your immortality" a silent tear escaped Alec's eye. I brushed it away with the pad of my thumb.

"Hush now. Its over. Its all behind us now. Lets just move on. Now budge over so I can lay down next to you. I don't plan on letting you go for a while yet" he smiled up at me and budged over. I lay down and pulled him firmly against me, assuring myself he was still there.

"Oh and Alec?"

"Yes Magnus?"

"If you ever try a stunt like this again, be sure I'll kill you myself" Alec chuckled and slowly began to drift off. I waited until I was sure he was safe and asleep before following him into slumber.

So I wrote this at 1 in the morning because I was suffering from insomnia :/ its probably really rubbish but review anyway and let me know what you all thought of it x

Hannah L x