since. **flashback** "Daddy!" She yelled as my 3 year old self squealed as she toppled down the hallway on her tiny chubby legs, she squealed and her dad swept her up off her feet and swung around her laughed as she struggled her chocolate brown ringlet splayed around her face. **next day** She stumbled upon the unsteady floor boards falling into a crawl, She went in search for her father, She heard a clutter and went into the room she heard the noise, she saw a single fallen chair in her line of sight but then she looked up seeing her dad hanging from a rope around his neck. "Daddy! Daddy!" She squealed as her sister entered the room lunging at her younger sister throwing the door shut behind her, the little 3 year old me heard sobbing all that night until finally her sister came in and laid down beside her singing softly to her until she fell asleep. **end of flashback.*