A/N: This chapter is titled after Save Me by Nicki Minaj, I've always liked the concept of it: even though I'm damaged, I hope you're strong enough to save me.

P.S. I will leave the bottom A/N as they were.

D: Disclaimed; any recognizable characters, plots and/or lyrics belong to their rightful owners, any other original plots or characters belong to me.

Save Me

Sam's POV

We were all shocked of the news, we weren't even aware that Seth had met someone else. I couldn't believe what I was seeing, Paul's arm wrapped around Seth's waist as he moved closer for comfort. Was this child theirs? So Seth finally gave Paul a chance, I don't resent them, it's just a shock to know that they would ever be together. The little boy stared at his dad, then over to Paul with a smile. Jared stood next to me with a big grin, then racing over to the little boy and picking him up.

"Come with uncle Jared while the grown-ups talk, okay." The little boy smiled and nodded in approval. "Wanna play a game outside?"

"Logan will be five next month." Seth explained, "and the reason I came back. My mom deserved to be acquainted with her grandson, and Logan deserved to know his dad. But seeing how he's not here, I feel he's going to be disappointed because he keeps asking me when he's going to get here."

"Jacob?" I questioned and he nodded. "But how?"

He shrugged. "I still haven't figured that out, but if Leah hadn't found me in time, then I would've died trying to give birth."

"Care to explain further?" Embry asked.

"When I left, I was an emotional wreck. As you all know. But when I traveled further up north, I realized I was feeling sick, and this was rare being a shifter. I figured I was dying from the heartbreak, but it didn't explain when I would wake up in the middle of the night in my wolf form and go hunting. I would wake up with blood all over me and some dead animal in front of me with barely any meat on it, and a bigger belly every time. I began questioning whether I was pregnant, soon throwing that idea out of the window. I'm a guy for Christ's sake, so it couldn't have been, until I felt him moving, then I was sure of it. I was scared and not sure when I was going to go in labor, or how I was going t have it. Luckily Leah was practicing to become a nurse, so she had some idea of how to proceed, she found me two days before I went into labor and had come to the idea of a cesarean delivery, and that's how Logan was born. Of course then I finally realized that Jacob was the father, he was the only I've ever had relations with, and it still bothers me that I have to tell him that we have a child together, especially since I still haven't forgiven him."

"So Jake's the dad?" I murmured in disbelief.

"Are you and Paul?..." Embry stuttered.

"Yeah," He gave Paul a smile. "Three years now."

They looked so in love, so in sync, like this time someone did save him. I watched as Seth moved in closer to Paul for comfort as he continued to explain his journey throughout the five years.

"When I birthed Logan, I almost died, Leah did everything in her power to make sure I could heal, that I could recover from the amount of blood loss." He then placed his hand on his sister's, she half-smiled. "I was never under full recovery, and I demanded Leah to take care of Logan if I ever did die. Even though the situation was unbearable for the both of us, she agreed that she would take care of him as her own." I could still see it bothered all of them because by this time they were all wiping the tears from their eyes. "I eventually did heal, and Leah refusing to leave my side, we were striving to survive, I could never seem to keep my strength up, and I seemed to be holding them back. We stayed in the forests of northern Alberta in Canada, living off the natural foods and sheltering in the caves above a small abandoned reservation. I didn't even know the date of Logan's birth, but I hadn't stopped counting the days. So around a year and half later when were finally settling in fully, Paul was nearing, I and Leah were catching on the scent." He smiled up at Paul again. "I though Jacob sent him, I thought he was trying to bring me back, so we ran. Of course Logan was frightened, and I just wasn't ready to come back here, but Paul eventually found us." The memories still bothered him, but Paul held him tighter and kissed his temple. "Boy I was wrong…" Seth chuckled and wiped a tear, "Paul pleaded that he help me, make sure I was safe, me and Leah. Until he met Logan, he insisted on being there for me. Refusing to leave Leah, Logan's side or mine. So I let him, and found myself that the love he claimed for me years before Jacob was still there, that he still cared for me, and I realized that he deserved the chance."

Emily being the emotional pregnant wife of mine began crying softly as we continued to listen. She was smiling at the couple, wrapping her arms around my back as she giggled mixed with sobs.

"It was then when I realized I could probably move on with my life, being happy with Paul and Logan and Leah. So that's exactly what we did. I somewhat regret letting Logan know that Paul wasn't his dad, but I wanted no secrets kept from him, and somehow I believed he knew, he always asked me who his real dad was and he wanted. I was planning to break it to him when he was old enough, but it slipped overhearing a conversation between Leah and me. So because he was asking me all of the time, I decided to return before he began resenting me." He cleared his throat, "he still looks up to Paul a lot, and still calls him papa, but he still asks about Jacob."

"So what do we tell the little guy?" Leah asked.

Seth shrugged and looked out the front window to watch his son playing catch with Jared on the front lawn. "I guess that his dad is away for awhile and just hope that Jacob comes back."

"He will babe." Paul rubbed his arm and gave him another kiss on his head. "He will."

Jealousy didn't seem to be laced in any of Paul's words of comfort, just compassion and love for Seth, something I never thought I would see in Paul. But Seth has always had that effect on him; Seth was always the one to calm him. Paul was tamed, actually he still is, and Seth is the reason for it. Was I wrong to assume that maybe Paul and Seth were meant more for each other, that they were more in love than Jacob and Seth?

Seth's POV

I admit I was nervous of explaining the entire situation, but it they seemed to understand, gladly. So after the introductions to the pack and Logan, I began getting Logan ready for bed. He still asked me where Jacob was, and honestly I told him that he was travelling, well not the exact truth, but close to it. When he was coming back? I let him know we didn't know, but in hopes soon.

It felt great to be home, almost like nothing changed since I left. It was kind of surreal that it's the same as I left, not surprised, but I figured something subtle would at least change.

I watched as Paul softly snored to my side, am I happy? Of course, Paul has been so supportive of me for the past three years, and I practically owe him my life for everything he's done for Logan and me. So I promised him that I would always be there for him whenever he needs me, excluding one factor. I do feel guilty for denying him this, but he does want his own child with me, and he's asked me more than once. The problem is, I can't find myself to go through that again. So I hope one day he understands how I feel about it, and doesn't judge me for it.

As I lay curled up into Paul's arm, I can't help to think if we would stay. He said it was up to me; he would go with Logan and me wherever we wanted, as long as he was with me. But I also want it to be his decision to, not only mine. I don't want to drag him everywhere and anywhere I please, it doesn't seem fair to him. The question though that keeps running through my head is if I want to keep running, what was I running from now? Sooner or later I would have to face Jacob, I just had to be ready for it and get through it.

I find myself doing this a lot lately, thinking until I became to exhausted to continue to ponder on the ideas. Paul says I think way too much, that I don't live for the moment, and always living in the future planning everything before hand. But I've always been organized and that's just something I can't drop, it would bother me too much. Even Logan is on a schedule, and I synced mine to work around his. Of course Paul and Leah bug me about it, but I guess you can say Logan's manners have benefited from the rules. I've done the best I could as my mom did, and I have no regrets… but then again I'm arguing with myself at two in the morning.

I could attempt to close my eyes, but the one thing bothering me, the constant bickering in the back of my mind that I tried ignoring is keeping me up. Jacob, and where he is. He knew how pissed off I am with him, so why would he go look for me? The feeling was never there after the bullshit went down. It still fumes me to this day to think about it, but the memories are permanently etched in my mind, tattooed in my memories. After five years of me gone, why did he go looking for me? What was his purpose of searching for me? Maybe he has another secret he has to tell me? Because everyone knows the asshole is full of them. Most likely impregnated that slut. Fuck if he did, there is no way in hell Logan will call them his brother or sister, I won't allow it.

"You're still awake babe?" Paul muffled.

"Yeah." I whispered. "I can't shut my mind off."

"Penny for your thoughts?" Paul smiled and wrapped both of his arms around me.

"I just can't stop thinking why Jacob would go looking for me, it bugs me that he would make that attempt." I muttered.

He grumbled and cleared his throat. "Why wouldn't he?" I wasn't sure if I wanted to know what he was trying to say, "Don't get me wrong love, he probably went looking for the same reason I did, we were worried. Maybe that's all, he just wants to know if you're still alive."

"Probably made the excuse to get away with that tramp." I grumbled in assumption. I admit I was being stubborn, but the hatred for 'Her' is still there since the day I caught them.

"Seth…that's not you to dwell on the past." I knew it annoyed him whenever I would complain about this, which was hardly, but it still bothered him. "You have to move on babe, I'm here, Logan's here, you sister, your mom, and now the pack. Jake is most likely missing you like crazy."

"Not that I care, but yeah you're probably right."

Okay maybe I was being a little aggravated on the whole situation and blowing it out of proportion, but the fact that my ex is searching for me in god knows where, kind of makes me wonder his reasons. I can't help but to be confused, to think about it. Am I wrong to still have love for him, to be afraid to fall out of love of Paul because I miss him? I'm afraid that one day that whatever I worked so hard to forget Jacob, what he did to me, will be wasted the moment I see him. I'm so afraid I'll not only forgive him, but also go running in his arms and leave Paul broken hearted.

The day Paul found us, I was afraid. I was afraid that Jacob was not far behind, that Paul would practically drag me back with him, no matter what Leah would say, he would still do it. I always known Paul to be the angry type when it came to the pack, but never act out on it on me. I knew it was possible, well actually… I figured it was possible that I was no exception to his disagreements, which he wouldn't resist to have a screaming match with me. But that was never the case, not once since I been around him that he actually shouted at me. He got angry with me, but never to the point where he yelled at me. But he cried when he saw me, something I would never expect from the hothead. He fell to his knees and held me for who knows how long. It was uncomfortable at first, but I couldn't help but feel sorry for him.

He kept telling me how happy he was to see me, to see that I was safe and sound. That Leah was taking care of me. I was ready to ditch and run, but he pleaded for me to stay, to let him talk. So I did. I listened as he explained his journey to look for me, how he searched the rainiest towns and reservations, then coming across an old couple that saw me pass through Jasper Alberta, that's how he knew I was close. And that's how he picked up our scent, how he ran like a maniac until he met us on the run and blocking us from crossing the Clearwater River. The moment he pulled me in and never let me go.

He asked me about the boy hanging onto Leah, curiously staring at the man we were running from. It took me awhile to convince Paul that Logan was mine, which I think he wanted to believe that I wouldn't still be somewhat attached to Jacob. But since then, it's been pretty much smooth sailing. I even quit phasing seeing how I don't feel it was necessary to, and so has Leah. But Paul refuses to give up something that he sees as a gift, and insists on it to protect us if we ever need it.

But now my decision to quit has become questionable, and I keep thinking that it might have been a bad idea to put my son in danger because I gave up my gift. After returning to the land of vampires, where they feel it's the best place for a sanctuary, I don't really want Logan anywhere near here.

"Seth? You should get some sleep, you know Logan is gonna be restless to get to know everyone tomorrow." Paul moved in closer to me, pulling me against him then kissing my neck.

"Yeah I know." I guess it always helped when Paul held me. I always fell asleep quicker when his arms were wrapped around me.

"Daddy! Daddy! Can I go with uncle Embry to the beach I want to go swimming." Logan barged in and jumped on the bed, speaking a mile a minute.

"Logan, son, don't jump please." I winced my eyes to adjust to the light. "And no, we still have things to do."

"Like what?" He complained, "I want to swim."

"We have to go move our stuff to the house." It was the truth.

Apparently Sam and Emily have been keeping Paul's house up to par, and I decided we would move in with him. So that would most likely take most of our day. And the fact I had to eventually introduce Logan to Billy, as much as I've been wanting to avoid it, I figured its best to tell him before word gets to him first.

"Let's get you dressed boy," Paul lifted him in the air and played the usual airplane game.

I walked downstairs to find my mother slaving over the stove cooking breakfast. Leah was still sleeping, and as much as I envied her, I needed to complete a few errands before I brought Logan over to the Black's.

"Coffee hon?" Mom asked, before I could answer she poured me a cup.

"Thanks." I sat at the table and gave her a smile.

"It feels good to have my babies home, I missed you guys." She chuckled.

"I know, I'm sorry for leaving mom, I just couldn't take it." I tried holding the words back, but an apology needed to be said.

"I understand Seth, but please at least call if you guys leave again." She wiped a tear that I haven't even noticed fell down her cheek.

"I promise."

"So…" She sat across from me. "What are your plans today?"

"We're going to start moving our things to Paul's." I answered.

"And…" She waited.

"Yeah I know." I muttered. "I'll bring Logan over Billy's after."

"Good." She walked to the cupboard and placed a plate out in front of me. "Now it's time to eat. LEAH, LOGAN, PAUL, BREAKFAST."

It did take all morning to finally settle into Paul's, and Logan has been nothing but helpful. So the moment I was dreading came sooner than I hoped.

Time to go see Billy.

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