The ride to Andy's apartment was made in silence, as Sam pulled up to the front entrance he noticed that Andy had fallen asleep with her head against the window. "Andy, wake up you're home now"
"Mmmm" she mumbled
"Andy you gotta wake up so I can put you to bed" he said softly amazed by how beautiful she looked sleeping.
Stirring slightly Andy mumbled "sure thing Sam" bringing a smile to his lips.
"Andy.." He said more forcefully this time causing her eyes to fly open. Making their way out the truck & towards the stairs Andy realized she had more tequila than she thought she did. Grabbing hold of Sam's arm nearly falling over her own feet again, Andy felt a sense of relief at having him here now.
Making their way into Andy's apartment Andy asked Sam if he wanted to stay for a drink.
"McNally you have had enough to drink you need to go to bed & sleep it off" Sam said surprised at her ability to hold so much liquor.
"Oh just one Sam" Andy cooed moving towards him.
"No McNally."
"Just one Sam" she repeated closing the distance between them even more.
Before Sam could answer Andy pushed him into the back of the door crashing her lips to his. For half a second Sam's lips started to respond to hers before his mind shut them down pushing her away with more force than he had intended. "So this is what you have been up to with all your dates while I was away?" Sam said breaking the silence that was more than a little awkward now.
For the second time that night Andy's hand streaked across his cheek this time with enough force to shock even him.
"Get out!" Andy screamed at him pulling away he saw the tears begin to well up in her deep brown eyes. "Get out now" she screamed louder & made her way towards the kitchen. Sam stared at her with disbelief at his own words as he turned opened the door & walked out slamming the door behind him.
Sam lay in bed unable to sleep. "Fucking smooth Sammy" he mumbled to himself pissed at having let his anger at lover boy pawing Andy at the club get the better of him & taking it out on her.
Getting out of bed he made his way downstairs in the dark to the kitchen in search of the whiskey he knew was waiting for him. Grabbing the bottle & a glass he plonked himself down on the couch & poured a stiff shot & drank the lot in one sip.
Pouring a second he remembered he hadn't checked his phone since he got back & knew Sarah would be mad if he didn't let her know he was back. Running upstairs to retrieve it from his lock box he couldn't help but think of the mess he made of things with Andy. Sitting back down on the couch taking a sip of the amber liquid in his glass he silently cursed himself. This was not the way things were supposed to go. Not what he had planned on.
Switching his phone on he was surprised to find he had fourteen missed calls & twice as many texts.
Opening the missed calls he saw that four were from Sarah just checking up on him & two were from Oliver & the remaining eight were from one number, Andy's. An amused smile played across his lips as he went through the texts. A few from Sarah & the rest were from Andy & voicemails from Andy.
Opening the text's Sam saw some were from the night of the blackout.
- I'm sorry
- Are you awake
- can we talk please!Listening to the voicemail's Sam heard the voice he loved to listen to
- " I'm sorry... we need to talk... Umm.. Call me"
- "where are you?... I know you're probably pissed at me... I...uh... I broke up with Luke... Please just can we talk...?"
What? Sam was now reeling with shock at the last voicemail left the night of the blackout, Andy had broken up with Luke, was it because of what happened? And after tonight & him saying what he did how did she feel now?
Pressing the third speed dial on his phone he knew it was the only way to find out. Voicemail.
"Shit" Sam cursed of course she's still sleeping it off its three am you idiot. Text will have to do then.
Andy, I'm sorry I didn't mean it! I got your text' & voicemail's from the night I left, can we please talk?
Hitting the send button Sam knew he'd have to wait until after noon for a reply on that.
Andy woke feeling like she had been hit by a bus. Sun streaming through the windows told her it was late in the day. As she lay debating whether to stay in bed or get up memories of the night before came tearing back into her mind.
Tequila's & beer's, dancing & laughing with Traci, Sam showing up, Sam carrying her out & dragging her home. Her jumping Sam & Sam basically calling her a slut. With that thought tears soon began to stream their way down her cheeks. Feeling sick at the thought she knew she had to talk to Traci.
Reaching for her phone she switched it on to find a missed call & two texts.
Missed call 3:07am Sam.
Text from Traci- call me when you rise & shine I want details! Love u xxx
Text from Sam- Andy I'm sorry I didn't mean it!I got your texts & voicemail's from the night I left, can we please talk?
Feeling her anger at Sam rise & without thinking Andy sent a reply-'NO we can Not talk! NO text's NO calls, NO Talking! Leave me ALONE!'
She threw the phone down next to her on the bed after sending it. Flopping back down on her pillows Andy let the tears roll freely & her whole body was shaking with the sobs now filling the room. Grabbing the phone she sent another text. Can u come over? Now? I screwed up big time & now I have a broken heart xxx
On my way- 20min xxx came the reply.
"Hey Sarah, miss me?" Sam asked her smiling at how he knew he didn't have to ask.
"Sammy you're back" she shrieked with delight at hearing his voice.
"Yeah, last night. How's the kids & Dave?"
"They're good, you in one piece?
"Yeah all ship shape! So did you miss me?"
"Funny little brother! Every time you disappear I just about have a coronary!"
"Yeah well you know me, always after the excitement, shit Sarah I'm on the house phone & my cell just got a text hang on a second will you?"
Sam put the phone down & went in search of his phone hoping it was the text he'd been waiting for.
Picking up the phone again he smiled at his sister's foot now probably tapping on the floor. "Stop tapping your foot" he teased into the phone as he opened his text.
"Funny Sammy you're grumpy Sammy tod..."
"Oh God, what have I done!" He suddenly shouted into Sarah's ear.
"Sammy what's wrong?" "Sammy!"
Sam stood in silence staring at the text reading it over & over trying to see if he was seeing right-
Sam NO we can Not talk! NO text's, NO call's, NO talking!Leave me AlONE!
"Sammy what's going on?" Sarah was shouting at him.
"Uh... I..I...Sarah I... Just screwed up the only chance I had & I don't think I can fix it this time." Sam said with defeat in his voice.
"McNally?" Sarah asked barely in a whisper.
"Yeah...wait how did you know?"
"Sammy I'm your big sister & I have never heard you talk about a woman they way you talk about her, you always find a way to bring her up in a conversation. You should see your face when you talk about her, your eyes light up & you always smile. What did you do?"
"Long story short I got back last night & heard she was out having drinks so I went to the club she was at. I just wanted to see her! She had this guy all over her & I picked her up carried her out & took her home. She then jumped me & I basically called her a whore for doing it. Fuck! How could I have been so stupid! She left me voicemails the night I left after we kinda made out & she got spooked & ran. She left her boyfriend that night & I know it was because of me. Then I apologized about last night & asked if we can talk, she said no & told me to leave her alone." Sam said rushing over the memories of all things gone bad for them.
Gasping Sarah said "Sammy you did not! How could you? And she left her boyfriend? You love her don't you?"
"Yeah I do & now she hates me & I don't blame her! Shit shit shit! What am I going to do, how will I fix this? Any suggestions? Besides the obvious suicide on my part?"
"Sammy don't you dare talk like that! You can survive months with drug dealers & junkies but one woman tackles you in an alley, turns your life upside down & you can't handle it? She really got to you didn't she? My little bro has been whipped!" Sarah said laughing at how one woman had finally broken through her brother's fortress wall & stolen his heart.
"Sarah, you're not helping here" he growled pinching the bridge of his nose in utter disgust at himself.
"Okay okay I'm sorry! I'll come down. I'll be there in say three hours on the bus. Maybe I can help but in the mean time you better start sending flowers & chocolates & keep apologizing. Go get your girl see you later" she hung up before Sam had a chance to reply.
Picking up his cell he opened Andy's text & sent a reply- Andy I'm so sorry for what I said, it wasn't meant that way! I was mad at that guy for putting his hands all over an obviously intoxicated you. I really want to talk please call me Hitting send he hoped her phone was on.
Traci sat with a very tearful Andy on her bed trying to help her feel better. "Oh Andy, I'm sure he didn't mean it the way it sounded! He just got back from the UC op & was probably tired & irritated & the look on his face when he saw lover boy all over you was defiantly jealousy!"
"How could he say that if he didn't mean it then?"
"We all know Sam has a temper Andy maybe he was having a bad day?"
"That does not justify him calling me a whore!" Andy said tears starting to well up in her eyes again.
"Okay you're right but you can't mope around here all day! Take a shower & get dressed we'll go have some retail therapy at the mall & head over to the Penny for dinner & drinks. It's Saturday & Leo is with Dex until tomorrow night, & the Penny will be busy & you sure need to do something to keep your mind off this thing, now scoot!" Traci said in her best motherly voice.
"You're right, I guess I better hurry its three pm and the mall closes at 5" Andy said jumping up with new energy from her friends pep talk.
Twenty minutes later they arrived at the mall for just that- retail therapy when Andy realized that she needed to call her dad & check on him. "Shit, Trace can I get lend of you're phone I need to call my dad & it seems I left my phone in my bed" she giggled as she asked.
Sam decided that while he waited for Sarah to arrive he'd take her advice & try to get Andy to talk to him as she was ignoring his last text. Deciding this time to call he dialled her number, her phone rang before it went to voicemail "Mcnal... Andy... I'm sorry about what I said. Please can we talk? Call me!" He left the message hoping that the pleading in his voice would convince her to call.
An hour later he still had not heard from her & was still waiting for Sarah to arrive so pacing a hole in his kitchen floor he called again-"Andy...please call me! We need to talk! I'm coming over so you better open your door" he left the message & went in search of his keys.
Ten minutes later he was banging on her apartment door making the neighbours peer out their doors curiously. "Andy open the door" he bellowed louder than was needed.
"She's not there you know" her neighbour said clearly annoyed by the noise he was making.
"Oh.. Did she leave?"
"She left about a half hour ago" the old lady said before slamming her door closed. Calling Andy again as he exited her building he was now more worried about her than he had been most days on the job. "Damn it Andy where are you? Please call me I need to know you're okay, please." He pleaded to her voicemail again. Well better go wait for Sarah he thought climbing in to his truck & pulling away from the curb.
"See i told you retail therapy is the best!" Traci told Andy satisfied that her friend had forgotten about the sad events of a few hours ago.
"You're always right that's why I love you so much" Andy agreed as they made their way into the Penny for dinner & drinks. Ordering beers & steaks with the bartender they made their way over to their usual table in the corner which they were glad to find currently empty. Soon they were chatting over their purchases & munching on their steaks & sipping their beer's happy with enjoying their time together.
Sam heard Sarah pull up & opened the door to be pulled into a tight hug. "So good to hug my little brother in person" she exclaimed as she let him go. Seeing the sadness in his eye's she knew she didn't need to ask but did anyway "she still not answering you is she?"
"Nope" Sam said as they went into the lounge & sat down.
"I'm sorry Sammy, but as long as you're breathing there is hope & a chance" she said her heart breaking for the sadness she saw in his eyes.
"Don't give up Sammy; if you feel that strongly about her just don't give up!"
"I don't feel strongly about her Sarah, I am completely head over heels in love with the woman, I can't think straight around her & I can't think straight when she's not around! I can't sleep & I can't eat & I feel like I have blown the absolute last chance I had with her. Hell, I can't even find her now or get her to answer my calls!"
"Have you told her?" Sarah asked now with a wide dimpled grin on her face at seeing her brother fall to pieces over a woman for the first time ever.
"How can I tell her when I can't find her?" Sam stated the obvious pinching his nose out of frustration.
"Right, sorry! Let's go get something to eat & talk about how to get you your girl! The Penny still open?"
"Yeah, it's only a little after 7 now We have to go out, coz I don't have anything here anyway"
Soon they arrived at the Penny & as Sam held the door open for Sarah he locked onto the murderous glare of one Officer Nash leering at him from the Rookie table. Nodding a hello Sam & Sarah made their way over to the bar & took a seat ordering dinner & beers.
"Shit Andy, we've gotta go NOW" Traci squealed as she barrelled through the bathroom door to find Andy.