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Still James's POV

Alright maybe I should've told you earlier, but yeah I'm gay. It's not like I'm a closet case either. I'm pretty open about it. Kendall, Carlos, Logan, Mama Knight, Jo, Camille, Gustavo, Mom, Dad, and pretty much everyone except the people who don't know me. For example the fans don't know. Remember I hate faking.

I used to keep it silent though. It would eat away at me, to the point where I would literally hurt myself. That's all in the past though, now I'm out and open and proud of it.

Which is why Gustavo making me date this girl is pissing me off. Like he knows I hate faking, and here he is making me date a girl I don't know. I mean its bad enough that I have to keep quiet about my sexuality to the public, but now I have to pretend to date a girl and act straight. Yep the world is definitely against me.

"Uh Gustavo," Kendall said speaking up. "I don't think that's a good idea."

There he is, good old Kendall sticking up for me.

"It is a good idea. You want to know why?" Gustavo yelled more than asked. "Because if he doesn't then he will be FIRED!"

Of course I will.

"But Gustavo it's just-" Kendall started to say.

"But nothing," Gustavo yelled in his face. "Now back to rehearsal!"

You see Kendall is the only person who knows how far I went. How badly I'd hurt myself. He actually helped me stop and come out of the closet. This is why he's my best friend. Ok not only for that reason, but part of it. Kendall is nice, sweet, caring, headstrong, funny, smart when he wants to be, confident, strong, and not to mention beyond hot.

Ok fine if you didn't notice, I'm pretty much head over heels in love with this guy. He has always been there for me and I couldn't stop myself. It sucks to be in love with your straight, as the lines on a piece of paper, best friend. The only person who knows is Carlos. I couldn't take it anymore, so I had to tell someone and Carlos was around so I told him. I made him promise to not tell anyone, especially Logan. So far he kept his promise, and I told him years ago. I think it has been three or four years.

"Uh James?" Someone said taking me out of my trance.

"Wh-what?" I said coming to.

I saw that Arianna is right in front of me.

"Oh sorry what happened?" I asked confused.

"I don't know you just sort of zoned out there." She said smirking.

"Oh," I noticed we were the only ones in the studio. "How come we are the only ones in the studio?"

"Well Gustavo wanted us to get to know each other, so he left us alone." She said flashing a smile.

"Ok look, Arianna," I started, might as well tell the truth. "I don't like you."

Ok that came out harsher than I intended.

"Well you don't know me," She said confused and hurt. "So yeah you don't like me yet."

"No not like that," I said. "I mean I'm gay so I won't ever like you that way."

"Oh," She said a little disappointed. "Look I didn't know. All I got was a call from Griffin saying that if I don't go out with this guy he will fire me, and then I won't be able to be a background dancer for Usher, which is a huge break for me. I'm really sorry."

Now I feel really guilty.

"Whoa relax," I said calming her down. "It's alright I get it. I'm not mad ok. It's just that I hate pretending and now I'm being force to do just that."

"Yeah I get it," She said sitting down in a chair. "And it sucks, but sometimes it has to be done."

"Yeah I guess," I said sighing. "But I'm willing to try for the sake of my career…and yours."

Then she smiled again.

"So I have a question," I nodded. "Do you have a crush on anyone?"

I froze.

"Come on tell, I can keep a secret. Wait we can trade secrets, you tell me your crush and I'll tell you mine." She said.

"Fine you go first." I agreed.

"Ok well believe it or not…I have a boyfriend." She said.

"Wait you have a boyfriend and you were willing to do this?" I asked shocked.

"I knew we were going to pretend," She explained. "Besides he knows and is totally cool. Now your turn.

Shit. Oh well might as well tell the truth.

"Kendall." I said.

"Seriously?" I nodded. "Is he gay?"

"No, he has a girlfriend actually." I said upset.

"Oh I'm sorry sweetheart," She said taking my hands standing up. "But you know what? He doesn't deserve you at all. Now let's go to rehearsal."

I just nodded. She doesn't know what she's talking about. It's actually me who doesn't deserve Kendall. I probably won't ever be good enough for him. Even if he was gay, I won't ever deserve someone like Kendall. I'm not that lucky…or special.

So here is the second chapter. Just thank you so much for the feedback I got.

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