Disclaimer: Let Her Go is by Passenger and To Aru is by Kazuma Kamachi. And those are not my name.

Let Her Go

He was aware of how pathetic he looked during class the day after she left. He could feel the pitying stares of his classmates when he had his back on them. Even Komoe-sensei laid off on him, letting him zone out during class when normally she would call on him the moment he stopped listening.

He wasn't surprised that Fukiyose was the first to scold him either.

"Kamijou Touma!" she shouted the moment homeroom finished, "I thought you were going to stop Misaka-chan from leaving! Why did you let her?!"

He wanted to roll his eyes at her statement but found that he didn't have energy to do so. "She wanted to leave. Who am I to stop her?"

"Wha—Kamijou Touma, I misjudged you! I thought you were—"

"She didn't even tell me," he stated coldly, his hands tightening into fists, "She didn't even want to say goodbye. Did you think chasing her to the airport would've made a difference?"

Their next period teacher came in, making her unable to respond. But even if Fukiyose did have the time to reply, he knew she wouldn't have been able to say anything.

Shirai Kuroko's attack on him was even more predictable, but nonetheless, she managed to catch him off guard when she drop-kicked him the moment he crossed the gates of his school.

"You useless ape!" the pig-tailed teleporter bellowed as he groaned in pain, "I informed you of Onee-sama's departure so you could convince her to stay. But what did you do?" she roughly grabbed the collar of his shirt and glowered at him, "You just let her leave!"

"She didn't want me there anyway!" he shouted back as he broke away from her hold, "She didn't want me to stop her. She told me herself. What would you have me do?"

"Why you—you moronic, pathetic excuse of a man! Didn't you even try to find out why? Didn't you ask her?!"

"I told you, she didn't want me to convince her to stay!"

"That's not what I meant, you moron! Didn't she tell you why she was leaving?"

He froze. Suddenly, Mikoto's last words rang through his head.

'I'm giving up on you.'

His expression must've given his thoughts away because though Shirai's tone was still furious, it had mellowed down, "Did you even ask her to stay?" he flinched at the bitterness in her voice, "All you had to do was say something. She was giving up on you, but all you had to do was ask her. Didn't you realize that?"

He remained unmoving from his spot even after everyone in the school had gone.

He had never expected Tsuchimikado Motoharu, of all people, to tell him off.

All he could do was hold his aching jaw as he glared at the hybrid magician-esper after being punched.

"What the hell was that for, Tsuchimikado?" he growled.

"Nyah, just thought you needed a wake-up call, Kamiyan," the blonde said with an infuriating grin, "You did just mess things up with Misaka-chan."

He snorted, "When were you ever friends with her?"

"If you never realized, Maika's a good friend of Misaka-chan. Plus, we've done some business in the past but that's beside the point. I'm not doing this for Maika or myself."

His heated gaze never left the magician.

"I'm doing this for you, Kamiyan,"

He frowned at Tsuchimikado's statement, "What?"

"Why are you so broken up about her leaving? Even when Index left, you were never this bad."

"She didn't tell me goodbye."

"You had the chance. But instead, what did you do? You interrogated her about her departure."

"I wanted to know why she didn't tell me," he gritted his teeth, "And she said she didn't want me there."

"You still didn't stop her."

"She wanted to leave."

"Now, Kamiyan, we both know that's not enough to stop you from trying. With your stubbornness, she would've had to fight you just to get pass you," the magician pointed out, "So why didn't you?"

He could see what Tsuchimikado meant. He knew the magician was right. And as he asked himself the same question, he gripped his chest at the familiar emotion he felt when he watched her walk away.

"Did you really not stop her because she wanted to leave," Tsuchimikado asked, "or because she told you she gave up on you?"

He fisted on his hair, realizing what Tsuchimikado—what everyone—had been trying to tell him, why he was so desperate to talk to her before she left, why he had been so hurt that she kept her departure from him, and why he had felt so dead when she was finally gone.

"You know what they say, Kamiyan," his friend's voice told him sympathetically, "You'll only know you love her when you let her go."

And he let her go.

Author's Notes:

I'm thinking of this as a collection of closely related one-shots inspired by songs :DD and wow, angst angst angst.

Not many Kamikoto fans want to admit this but there really is a big possibility of Mikoto giving up on Touma. So basically, I'm showing something Kamikoto fans refuse to adhere: If Touma continues to be an idiot, Mikoto is better off with someone else.

by the way, I'm surprised that most of the reviews see this as Mikoto losing interest in Touma. I mean, to me giving up on someone isn't the same. She didn't lose interest, she just decided that she should move on but hasn't exactly achieved that... oh well, thanks to those who read! :))

this time it's Let Her Go by Passenger. I'd say I like Tyler Ward's cover better but the original is awesome as well. And if you've noticed, I've been taking lines from the songs. I hope that's not illegal though. I mean, posting the lyrics of a song is not allowed in FF I think. But if I do it like this, is it still considered a song fic?

Both chapters were done on one sitting while playing a single song on loop so if it wasn't very good, I apologize XDD but I REGRET NOTHING!

oh well. Thanks to YOU who read this! :DDD

Do you have a good song for me that can continue our story? If so, please tell me! If I like it and it fits, I'll use it for the next chapter :DD

~61wisampa