Chapter 2: Holly's past resurfaces
Holly's point of view.
The school gates loom,my feet frozen to the ground. I'm shivering. Is it fear or the cold, harsh winter winds? Concentrating on putting one foot in front of another I slowly walk up to the innocently looking exterior of the building.
Out of the corner of my eye I can see Mrs Layton my progress manager and head of year. I quickly scurry into the building. Shit! She's seen me."Holly March" she bellows in her frosty ice cracking voice. "Yes miss?" I reply terrified. "You're a failure your grades have plummeted, I've had way too many complaints about you dazing off into your own world. You have a week to redeem yourself or your sister will be called. A disgrace to the March family!" "DO YOU UNDERSTAND?" She roared. "Yes miss." I squeaked.
First bell rang, my heart quickened, my breathing increased rapidly. My chest tightened. I couldn't breathe. "Holly?" My friend called. Before I knew it there were teachers surrounding me and children staring. A paper bag was waving in front of my colour drained face. "Breathe slowly." I could vaguely here the nurse saying.
10 minutes later once I had calmed down I returned to my normal lesson. People stared, I ignored them and took my seat at the front. "Are you okay?" My friend whispered. A quick nod of the head reassured her. Focus Holly focus I thought to myself. I couldn't. I was tired.I was scared, I was ashamed to be the failure, the useless all these words circled my thinking. I needed to get out. I couldn't talk I desperately wanted my sister but I was to scared to open up . The only thing I could think of the one thing I needed was trapped in my head.
My fists clenched at the idea, I was weak. Maybe just maybe this once. Then I would talk. Step 1 " Miss can I go to the toilet please?" "Okay just this once." She answered. Step 2 I legged it out the school grounds. Once safely away I changed being careful not to draw attention to my self.
That's when I headed to the off license.
Thanks for every one who has read the previous chapter and I hope you read this one too. I am very grateful for any reviews. If you have any ideas then please pm me I would love to hear them. Janny do have Emma but she is going to be about 12 months old for when I add them into the story ( for the person that asked) If I get 10 + reviews will update tomorrow if not updates will be Tuesday x thanks again you can follow me on twitter Hollyanna27