A/N Thanks for the favs, follows and reviews. It means a lot to me.

Quick note: The first couple chaps will be about the first 24hrs after the shooting. There will be a small time jump around chap 7-9 most likely, but overall this story will be pretty slow paced.

I hope you enjoy this chap. Let me know what you think. R&R

Chapter 2

Lima, 4.08pm

San's pov

The four of us are sitting in a rented car on our way towards the hospital. Kurt is driving and holding Rachel's hand in her lap. Quinn is sitting next to me in the back, squeezing my hand every couple min to let me know she is here. It's keeping me a little grounded.

After my breakdown at the loft, Rachel got a phone call from Quinn. She said she was on her way towards the loft and that she already booked a flight to Lima for the four of us. We didn't even think of that, we were way too wrapped up in our heads, thank god we have Quinn to lead and keep us collected.

We all packed our bags in a hurried daze... Well actually Quinn packed most of my bag because when I found Britt's old Cheerio hoodie, I broke down again...

A harder squeeze pulls me away from numbly staring out of the window. I shake my head to focus on the area around me and notice that we are at the hospital. I swallow thickly as the reality of the situation slowly starts to hit me. I turn my head towards Quinn when she squeezes my hand again.

"We're here. You ready?" she softly asks me.

I look outside at the large building and swallow the lump in my throat before looking back to her and slowly nodding my head.

We all silently step out of the car. Kurt and Rachel continue to hold hands as they walk in front of us into the building. I cross my arms in front of my chest and send a small but grateful smile to Quinn when her hand settles on my lower back.

I keep my gaze lowered to the ground. I hate hospitals. The noises around me all sound weird to me, they are clear but also not clear. It's like that underwater feeling, you can hear people talking but you have no idea what they are saying.

I hear Kurt talk to the nurse behind the desk, I know that voice so I slowly lift my head. The nurse recognizes me since both my parents work here and I have been here a couple times myself. And with Britt…

Sonia's and my eyes connect and she leads us to a private waiting room where everybody else is sitting. Kurt and Rachel immediately run towards Finn who is sitting in a wheelchair with a sling on his arm.

Quinn walks over towards Puck and Mercedes. She hugs them tightly and moves towards the others in the room to give them a hug too.

I keep standing frozen in the doorway. I don't know where to look. A silent tear slides down my face but I quickly wipe it away.

I slowly look around the room. Everybody looks at me with sad eyes. My eyes then land on Mr. Pierce who is holding Britt's younger sister Amy-Linn tightly in his arms.

Mrs. Pierce is standing at a window staring outside while tears slowly roll down her cheeks. Quinn walks towards her to give her a quick hug and hands her a tissue.

"Tana!" a little voice pulls me from my gazing and also from my frozen state.

I look at the 5yr old boy, who is almost an exact copy of his oldest sister, running towards me with his stuffed bear, Billy. I kneel down and open my arms for him to run in to.

"Hey, Nicky." I say softly as I wrap my arms around his little body.

I kiss his head as he wraps his arms tightly around my neck. He kisses my cheek and I can feel everybody staring at us when I stand up with him in my arms.

"Britty hurt." Nicholas pouts up at me. I find a seat and sit down with him on my lap. He moves his head away from me so he can look at me.

"I know buddy. But the docs here are trying to make Britt better." I say softly to him.

"Do you think magic kisses would help?" he asks innocently and I smile a little at him.

When we were younger and one of us got hurt, we would kiss the spot that hurt to make it better. Whenever Nicky got hurt we would do the same, he actually came up with the term 'magic kisses'.

"I wish... But we can try when we see her, we will just have to give her as many magic kisses as we can." I tell him and he seems satisfied with the answer.

He cuddles into my chest and I hold him tightly. I kiss his head and look up at the others. Most of them are staring in shock at me while some just send small smiles at me. I look towards Britt's parents and see Nathan smiling gratefully at me.

Susan walks over to me and sits down next to me. She wraps her arm around me and pulls me into her side.

"Thank you." she whispers in my ear and I look up at her in confusion. She sees my expression and starts to explain.

"Nicky has been restless since we got here, he keeps asking questions that we can't answer... I'm glad you're here. We need you... Britt needs you..." she trails off.

I just nod my head and look down at the little blond boy in my lap. I smile a little when I see that he has fallen asleep.

I keep my eyes on him while my thoughts drift off to Britt...

Sam's pov

I'm pissed. So pissed.

Why did she have to come here? She has nothing to do with Lima anymore, she should've stayed in New York.

I'm even more pissed and hurt by the fact that Britt called out for her when we were in the ambulance...

I'm her freaking boyfriend!

I take a few deep breaths to calm down. This is not the time to be mad. This is about Britt being hurt, she needs us... She needs me...

Nobody else, just me and her family. Santana is not a part of that family anymore.

I stare at the Latina sitting across the hall with Britt's little brother in her lap and her mom next to her. I don't really understand that. Nicholas didn't want anything to do with anyone, all he wanted was Britt but no... Miss Santana walks in and he runs towards her.

And why is Mrs. Pierce holding and whispering things to her? She never came to me since we came here... Neither did Mr. Pierce…

They have never been like that with me, I come to realize. Whenever I went over to the Pierce home, they were always friendly with me but they act differently when Santana is around or mentioned.

I know Britt and Santana used to be close to each other when I first came here but they seemed to have grown apart...

I know Britt misses her but she would never admit that... I also don't know in what way she misses her...

I frown a little as a thought crosses my mind. She couldn't be... No... Stop being ridiculous...

I slowly start to remember how Britt acted around me, how she always brought up San in some way. Even when it had nothing to do with her at all.

I always found that weird. Why would you think and talk so much about your best friend? Wait... Were they even just best friends?

Slowly some of the puzzle pieces start to come together in my head and I realize something that I have been thinking for a while, but have always pushed those thoughts away…

No, they couldn't be... could they?

A few hours later

San's pov

We have been in the waiting room for hours now, some have gone to see Britt but I just couldn't. I don't wanna see my best friend like that.

The doctor came out an hour ago after checking on Britt... There wasn't really any change in her condition. But the words he said shocked everybody. I heard gasps and mumbles but they weren't clear.

Everything just froze but I quickly snapped out of that, I needed to hear everything. I needed to know how Britt is doing. But I'd never thought I would hear those words... Ever... At least not about Britt, my bestie... My... My love...

Doctor Johnson told us about her injuries, Britt got shot in her stomach. I don't remember what organs got hit exactly but they said she had lost a lot of blood.

Some of the gleeks said that they saw Britt hit her head hard on a table and then on the ground when she collapsed.

She went into surgery the minute she got here. He... he said that... her heart stopped twice... They had to shock her...

I thought I was about to pass out when he told us that, her mom's loud gasp and sobs keeps ringing in my head. Those sounds are something I will never forget.

Dr. Johnson told us that Britt is very strong, that she is a fighter. Of course I knew that already, we all did. But... He also said that because she hit her head so hard that her brain started to swell up a little...

He told us that she needed a lot of rest... And to risk less damage to her brain, they decided to put her in a medical induced coma to reduce the swelling of her brain and to give her body time to get stronger.

The words that really broke me were the last things he said: 'She is in a coma, we will start to wake her up slowly in a few days. Her condition is very serious and there might be a chance that she won't remember things or is unable to move certain limbs when she wakes up. There is also a chance that she might not wake up at all...'

After that I didn't hear anything anymore, I was under water again but this time I was also having trouble breathing. I ran out of the room as fast as I could. I ran to a secret supply closet and curled into myself. In here I can cry and sob as hard as I want, nobody will hear me.

I stay here for a long time. The words 'coma' and 'might not wake up...' keep repeating in my head. I shake my head to get rid of these dark thoughts.

I only think about Britt, my Britt... I focus on her baby blue eyes that I used to stare in for hours...

And the way her body moved when she danced, it's like her body is the dance. She was made for it.

But the thing I mostly think about are her different smiles, her special smile she only sends to me... The smile that made me fall in love with her...

I need to tell her... She needs to know but... I don't know if I can see her... All I know is that I can't lose her, she has to be fine.

I really can't lose her, I just can't... I need her...

"I need you Britt..." I whisper to myself as sobs rack through my body and I break down once again...