But I froze. I couldn't do this, I wanted to so bad but what if Brittany thinks it's wrong and doesn't want to be my friend anymore. So I thought about it as she rinsed off her long blonde hair. I think I would rather have her as a friend then ruin that with this. I started to turn back to my shower. I felt so sad that I didn't go through with it but I was glad that I didn't do anything that could potentially ruin our friendship. As I got into my shower cell I was so wrapped up in my feelings that I slipped on my soap and screamed as I fell to the ground. Before I knew it Brittany ran over to me and lifted me up but we both fell. She was still holding me as our naked bodies touched; my back against her boobs. This felt so right!

"Santana are you ok?" Brittany asked worryingly.

"Yeah I'm fine." I couldn't tell if Brit was enjoying this so I started to stand up but slipped and fell face first on top of her; our boobs touching one another's. I looked down at our dripping wet naked bodies touching. I still couldn't tell what Brittany's reaction to all of this was, so instead of her thinking I did this on purpose I stood up, grabbed my things, and quickly stumbled out of the showers. I felt myself about to cry, I was so ashamed that I like touching Brittany like that. I know for the past couple of weeks I've been feeling these feelings for her but I never thought I would act on it, or have the opportunity to act on it. I've thought that Brittany might hate me for it, except at that moment in the shower when she smiled at me and I was about to tap her on the shoulder. But the thought of her possibly hating me for it took over and stopped me. I quickly dried off and put my clothes on and exited the locker room; I didn't want to see Brittany again today because it would be awkward, but I know I will see her tomorrow and as much as I don't like talking about my feelings, I know I would have to eventually.

(BACK TO PRESENT TIME.)

"Brit I have to tell you something." I groaned.

"Yeah?"

"You know at the beginning of this school year when we saw each other naked and I slipped on top of you?"

"Oh yeah, I understand, you already told me that we both just slipped on the soap and that you were ashamed of it."

"I actually liked it." I said and Brittany just looked at me with that same motionless face of hers. "At the very beginning of this year, sophomore year, I started getting feelings for you, sexual feelings. That all was an accident in the showers but I rather enjoyed it. And we have been having sex since then and you already know I enjoy that."

"Do you love me?"

"I'm not sure about my feelings, I know I love you as a best friend and I enjoy whatever way we spend time together. How do you feel about it?" I asked as it got more awkward because I hated this; talking about my feelings.

"I don't know; I know I love you as a best friend too." Brittany said and hugged me. I hugged back as a smile graced my face.

"Well that's all I wanted to tell you. And don't mention us having sex to anyone again."

"I think Lord Tubbington knows, he reads my diary."

"Whatever."

"So sex isn't just something that makes you feel good?" Brittany asked.

"Not with you it's not. I enjoy it a lot more with you and that's because it's not only a physical act with you, it's an emotional one too. And don't ever tell anyone any of this because I will deny it so nobody thinks I'm soft." I said and we both giggled. We hugged again and left the locker room.

"So that first time didn't just happen, you wanted it too?" Brit asked.

"Brit, what did I just tell you?"

"You're not soft?"

"No, not to talk about it in public."

"Sorry."

"It's ok… but yes." I said and smiled at her and she smiled back. As we walked down the hallway with smiles on our faces I thought of our first time together sexually.

(FLASHBACK TO A COUPLE DAYS AFTER THE SHOWER INCIDENT.)

I haven't really spoken to Brittany a lot since the shower incident. I would just nod and say hi as we walked by each other or when we were in Cheerios practice. I was so embarrassed about the other day and I definitely didn't want to admit out loud that I enjoyed it. I was just afraid what everyone else would think. That's what I came to the conclusion of; I wouldn't know how to tell my parents or my abuela or I would be afraid that everyone would hate me. I know that not everyone accepts gays and lesbians; I mean they should but not everybody is accepting. Anyway, Brittany invited me to her place to study tonight, so that's where I'm on my way to now. I got there and Brittany's mom invited me in and I went up to Brit's room. She was in the shower so I sat on her bed and waited. A few minutes later she came out of the shower and walked into her room. Lord Tubbington followed her and he was wet. I looked at the cat in amazement; does Brittany take her cat in the shower with her? I found myself actually becoming jealous of the cat. I shook my head to get that thought out of my mind and as I looked up I saw Brittany taking her towel off. I looked away quickly pretending to be uninterested.

"Brit, you know I'm in here?" I said with my back turned to her, wanting desperately to see her naked again.

"Oh yeah, I just thought you saw me naked the other day so why should it matter anymore? And you know how glasses fog up from the shower… well my eyes do that sometimes."

"That's pretty weird." I said awkwardly. "Like Berry weird! Anyway, why was Lord Tubbington in the shower with you?"

"Well when he was a kitten he enjoyed when I used him to wash my back but I can't lift him now so he just stands there. I'm dressed, you can turn around."

I turned around to face her and I felt my heart beat faster. "Actually that's what I wanted to talk to you about." I started to say.

"You can try to lift him next time you take a shower but he is really heavy."

"No not that, about the shower the other day."

"I couldn't lift him then either."

"Brittany just listen." I raised my voice. "I wanted to apologize for the other day. That was all accidental." I said as I looked down knowing that even though it was on accident I still enjoyed it.

"That's fine. It was pretty funny. But you didn't have to feel bad about it; I missed talking to my best friend the past couple of days." Brittany said and hugged me. I hugged her back and stroked her long wet blonde hair.

"I missed you too." I said as I felt myself about to cry. I needed to start something, she was fine with it and she thought it was funny. So I kissed her on the top of that beautiful head of hers. She looked up at me.

"What are you doing?" She asked. Crap I shouldn't have done that, here comes her never speaking to me again.

"I'm so sorry, that was a friend kiss. So let's get to studying."

"I really only invited you over here to talk about the other day and tell you that I missed you… I don't study."

"I'm so stupid of course you don't." I said ashamed and hoping this would change the subject.

"No you're not stupid. I missed you so much and I needed to get you here to talk to me somehow. I know it was only two days, but we talk everyday so that seemed like forever."

"It really did." I said, relieved that it seemed like she forgot about the kiss on the head.

"And I understand that experimentation isn't only for science class." She said and I looked at her. Was she suggesting that she was ok with that kiss? Then she knelt next to me and kissed me on the lips. I was caught completely by surprise but damn it it was the best surprise ever. She stopped kissing me. "So that's what sweet lady kisses feel like?"

"Brittany, what was that?" I asked her but I was thinking why am I pretending that I wasn't in to that. She just basically threw herself at me which is what I've wanted for weeks so why don't I just take it.

"That was called a kiss. And I just did that for fun, I didn't think it would actually be the best kiss I ever had." She smiled at me. I kissed her lips after she said that and damn did it feel good. I didn't even know what to do with a girl. But we laid down on our sides on her bed and made out. I just went with whatever she was doing, and it seemed she was just going along with whatever I was doing. I grabbed her top and took it off and she grabbed mine and took it off. We laid there with our bras and jeans on, still making out passionately. I reached down for her jeans and unbuttoned them and she pulled them down and off. I did the same to my jeans. I then rolled on top of her; our panties and bras the only clothes in the middle of or naked bodies. This felt amazing, better than I could ever imagine, better even than the other day because we were both so into it. I felt her hand reach into my panties and caress my vagina. I moaned and she kissed my neck. I reached down and touched her vagina. Then I took her bra off and let her boobs loose as I kissed them. She moaned as my tongue was on her boobs. We both started to finger each other and we both followed with long loud moans of pleasure. Brittany then took my bra off and motor boated my boobs. This was the most amazing feeling in the world; doing it with my best friend. I'm not going to tell anyone else that, or even her. I'll just pretend that it was just for fun like I do with a lot of the boys. But I'll know it wasn't. I enjoyed this a lot more than I do with boys. I moaned as I put my face into Brittany's shoulders and she moaned as she tilted her head back. We were fingering each other faster and faster as our boobs rubbed up against each other. I was just doing things that I do to myself when I do it by myself. We both let out moans of pleasure as we had our orgasms. We were so sweaty as we made out while we finished our orgasms. Then she sat up and held me as we kissed.

"Shit! That was amazing Brit!"

"I know, I've never done anything like that before. I just thought that might be what was bothering you and I don't want you to be sad." I smiled. I didn't want to admit that that was what was making me upset; not being able to have sex with her, but it made me happy that we did and that she cared so much about me that she would experiment with me. Brittany smiled back and laid her head down on my chest and I held her as we lay naked on the bed. I know no matter what our feelings are that right now we are happy, and that is what I love; Brittany being happy.

I hope you are enjoying this so far! Please write a review and tell me what you think! So sorry but I'm having writers block for this story. I did write some of the next chapter but it's not close to being done. I thought I would try something new so I made a Twitter for this pen name ( WinchesterD82). You can if you want either follow me with your Twitter if you have one or make one for your pen name like I did. I'll follow you back! This seemed like a good way to tell people when I'm working on my stories and when the next chapter or story will be up.