After Dean death, Sam hasn't been himself lately. Now he wanted to give up hunting and try to live a normal life but then again he already tried that and it didn't really work. He hasn't even spoke to Bobby in over a week since Dean died. Bobby knew how close him and Dean were and knows that Sam needed to be on his own for a little while but hopefully not that long.
Sam walked in the hotel room that he rented. It felt so different now that Dean was gone. Sam was so used to two single beds and going out and letting his brother flirt with any girl he saw at the bar or went out just get some food to eat and would say something sarcastic at any god given moment. Now it just silence. Every single day.
Sometimes Sam wishes that he could go back in time before Dean died and went straight to hell to find a way out of his deal. Ruby, well she was now just to damn confusing for Sam to whether or not to trust her. All she was tell Dean that he couldn't be save and when Dean final day came she goes and tells Sam that he could save his brother and everything. She was just so confusing that he now doesn't know if he should start believing in her or to even listen to her either.
He sat down at the edge of the motel's bed trying so hard of dealing with his brother death. After that night at the family house where Lilith was posessing Ruby or Ruby body host he felt hopeless and loss after seeing Dean bloody body on the floor after he got torn up by hellhounds.
Since that night Sam felt guilty as ever. Never finding a way to get Dean out of his deal and the fact that he let his older brother down and got killed and went straight to hell. The fact that he promise his brother no matter what he was going to try and save him from his death wish with nothing to stop him. A part of him felt that there proberly isn't a way out of Dean deal and that he couldn't be saved. Did Sam listen to that part though? No he didn't listen to it. All he kept having in his mind that he can try and save his brother no matter what happens or what gets in the way, nothing would stop him even Dean if he tried to stop Sam.
He knew that all the other hunters proberly got the news by now that Dean Winchester was dead or if they watched the news and learn that him and Dean fake there deaths after the whole police explosion back in Colorado (A/N that where the police station was in Jus in Bello, right?!). Either way Sam is still trying to cope with his lost. No one would proberly understand what he going through anyway.
Sam went up to check his cell. He hasn't talk to Bobby for a few days and he knows that Bobby was proberly worried about him and called him a few times and left him some messages.
He put in his password and to only to receive one message. Surprised? In a way but didn't show it though. But it was from someone he least expected though.
Jamie. He hasn't heard or spoken to her since Jess died. In matter of fact he hasn't really kept in contact with anyone that he made friends with at standford at all. He listen to her message and laugh. She sounded so nervous and he could tell that by her voice.
He then took the phone away from his ear and decided to call her. In a way she was kinda another person he could talk to when he couldn't tell Jess anything even if it was important, maybe to him he figured that she would understand him better like always.
He dialed her number and rang three times before she picked up. "Hello?" it was her on the other line for sure.
"Hey, Jamie. It Sam..Sam Winchester" she put a little smile on her face, happy that he called her back.
"Hey Sam. How long has it been? A year or two? God it been awhile" she sounded really excited to hear from him. "Yeah, it has. I just listen to my messages and when i got to yours i figured what the hell I'll just call you back cause i miss you and haven't really heard from you in awhile, so" he felt a little awkward but in a good way though.
"So where are you? I really wanna see you and catch up and stuff" Jamie said feeling happy that he called her back. Sam can't lie to her or to himself that he was actually happy to hear from her as well.
"I'm kinda at Lorance, Nebraska working on a few things but after I'm done maybe I can come and see you...wherever your living now that is" he said.
Jamie kinda laugh at Sam. They haven't seen each other in a while and he proberly didn't hear about her parents and other things. "I'm at the moment in Labyrith, Iowa. If you getta chance I would love to see you again Sam. I miss you" she tells him over the phone.
"Yeah, i miss you too" he said before hanging up on her wondering what he going to tell her what he been up to since they last saw each other before Jess's death.