When she got the message she knew it was over. When he got her message he knew it was over. They both knew it was over. Post 1x18 because I'm a bitter ChuckBlair fan.
Disclaimer: Nope don't own them, if I Did, Chuck and Blair would be frisking in Tuscany by now.
I fucking hated the ending, and I am still in my bitter zone.
He's Over….maybe.
You will come back a changed man.
Chuck looked distant when his father said that…. it kept on echoing in his brain. He didn't want to give up his lifestyle he's always had since he was a kid, he was comfortable in his zone. He was comfortable being The Chuck Bass.
The person who loves booze, smoking and multiple women. He liked that lifestyle, it made him feel in control, it made him feel free.
It made him Chuck Bass.
Chuck took out his phone and typed a message that he knew he would regret.
When he got Blair's message:
Ok, No rush
B.
He knew it was over. No xoxo's, no love B. It was blunt and forward. He closed his eyes as he turned around to take the flowers. Blair understood him. She knew what he meant, and he knew she would've. If she didn't, then Blair Waldorf didn't know him at all.
That's why he loves Blair. She knew him the best. She understands him. Knows he'll never change.
He'll only ever love one girl, whom he knew he couldn't please. He will always wander, because that's who he was. He will always be pulled into temptation because that's just what he's made of.
What's love? Chuck Bass didn't know exactly, he's never been in love before so what does it consist of? What does it mean? Chuck just simply jumped into the notion of 'loving' someone he didn't actually know what it meant.
Chuck was slowly freaking out.
It was the first time he was thinking about shit like this.
He's Chuck Bass. He didn't stick to one girl, never has, never will. His father was saying things that made him sound like he was owned. Chuck Bass doesn't belong to anyone. He was no whipped idiot; he didn't like being owned by people. Chuck Bass was a man on his own.
You don't belong to anyone.
Blair knew what he was made of when she said that. She knew what she was getting herself into. They both knew the consequences….
Whatever he did will affect Blair... He hadn't this problem before. He could booze, smoke, sleep with anyone he likes and he wasn't hurting anyone when he did it. But being with someone meant, hurting the person he was with too.
Could he control himself? Chuck Bass had high sex drive... Would he give into temptation? Would he party till the next morning and forget he has a girlfriend and sleeps some random girl? It was Chuck Bass's lifestyle; it's imprinted in him to do so. Even if he does it, would he feel bad?
They both knew each other very well, that's why they were perfect for each other. He knew, she knew it.
He completed her and she completed him…
However they couldn't be together because Chuck is who he is, and Blair was someone who wanted more out of him. And Chuck Bass couldn't give that to her. He could give her one sweet week. He could give her a one-week holiday in Tuscany. But after that, he will continue to hurt her.
When he threw the flowers into the trash, he knew they have come to a mutual understanding. Even though Chuck's heart was hurting, even though he knew he was doing something he didn't want to do, but he had to do in order to pump out the feel of Blair out of his veins…
And move on without her. He loved her that much to know he couldn't make her happy or fully commit to her. He might not know exactly what love meant, all he knew was that he did. He was scared and insecure, he didn't have much faith in himself and Blair didn't have any in him either.
Until he pulled himself together, stopped being an immature brat, he knew he couldn't keep her. He didn't want to keep her in this horrid mess of his. He didn't want to pull her into his world where he knows he'll keep on hurting her. He didn't want to let go of his life just yet.
You're only young once.
He had to let her go now, before they were both in too deep to get out. It was still early for her, so she wouldn't be affected as much as he was right now. Letting her go was the hardest thing he's ever done, but he had to. He knows he was going to suffer making this decision.
He didn't think he could change for the better or for her... He loved his lifestyle too much. He was comfortable being Chuck Bass.
Someday, someday maybe he will change for her….
"Amelia." He gave the blonde a sexy smirk.
He smiled when she talked, such a pretty blonde woman, but not as beautiful as Blair… he shook that thought out of his head. He smiled when she asked who he was.
"I'm Chuck Bass."
Someday. He might try and change.
Maybe if she came back with someone, looking happy and has erased Chuck from her heart and mind will he then realize what he's lost.
Maybe much sooner than later than he thinks…. And it will be at that moment, Chuck will find out what love really means, the hard way.
XXX
A/n: Chuck Bass, I love you. But you have to suffer, and go through barbs and wires and beg on all fours to get Blair back. And I know you will because you love her.