Chapter 2

I heard the gasp that they let out, then the disappointed sighs that followed soon after

"How long" Kevin whispered, I just kept staring at the ground not making eye contact

"How long Demi" he yelled trying again I finally looked up

"Since I was 11" my voice broke and I felt the tears weld up in my eyes

"It was right under our nose the whole time? No one ever caught you?" Nick asked

"No" I whispered, I looked at them once more Nick and Kevin giving me the sympathetic looks and Joe just staring at the J I carved into my flesh

"Don't" I mumbled moving to cover up my wrist again the sudden movement made them jump back

"Stop, don't stare at my wrist's or look at me like that, you guys don't know what it's like okay? You weren't made fun of everyday of your life always someone wanting you to be perfect, but perfect doesn't exist! You don't know what it's like for you sister to be a fricken model and your mom a cheerleader you don't know what it's like to hear your parents fight and your mom scream from your dad finally hits her then moves onto you because you're not as pretty as your sister, you don't know what it's like for your mom not to be able to look at you, you don't know how it is to have to be strong never show weakness to not have anyone there for you ever" I just felt a pair of arms circle around me pulling me close to their chest

"I'm so sorry were supposed to be like family I'm supposed to be your big brother and I didn't even notice that you have a problem" I heard Kevin's voice sooth me and I felt Nick rub my back

"I don't have a problem, please don't tell anyone I can stop ill stop please don't tell anyone" I sobbed into Kevin's chest

"I won't tell anyone" I heard Nick say still rubbing my back

"Me either" Kevin whispered into my hair I pulled back from the hug and looked at the one guy I hope this would affect a little to show he still cares about me somewhere but nothing he stared at his phone with a bored expression and that killed me

"I'm going to go run it under some water I'll be right back" I said giving up on Joe caring walking to the Bathroom, but the walls are paper thin and I could hear every word the said

"Joe" Nick whisper yelled followed by silence and a loud smacking noise

"OW!" I heard Joe Voice whisper yell

"What is your problem?" Kevin asked I'm Guessing Joe

"I just…don't want to be here" Joe replied harshly

"Don't you care?" Nick asked the million dollar question

"Care about what?"

"The fact that the girl you've been all crushed out who was your best friend cut Joe let's forget she was your girlfriend up until 2 hours ago" Kevin yelled

"Joe, do you even care?" Nick finished up for Kevin

"She's going to keep doing it No matter what we say so? Why waste my breathe how do I know it's not just for attention?" I was finished washing my wrist by now and right when I was about to get out there and defend myself I heard my name over the loud speaker

"Demi Lovato please report to the stage for sound check…thank you" Great Sound check I walk out of the bathroom and the boys all look at me I throw my bloody hoodie over to the couch and grab a new one

"I got to go so you can stay here if you want I don't care but I'm leaving Bye" I said closing the door behind me not once looking at Joe, when I reach the stage I see my band already tuning their instruments I jump up and get ready to practice before I knew it practice flew by and I could hear the crowd screaming with excitement but I was writing it was my other outlet in the world writing about Joe, my new found pain, helped as I go on stage the fans chant my name I look up at the signs with my name or certain songs like don't forget

"How's everybody doing tonight?" I ask into the mic I scan the crowed arena and see the flashes of people taking my picture the fans lift my sprit up and I'm singing my heart out 110% at the end I decide to sing the new song I just finished about Joe

"Hey, how would y'all like to hear a song I just wrote?" the crowd went wild screaming louder than before I smile

"Alright, this one's called Fix a Heart and I hope someone relates somewhere" I say into the mic before I turn to my dumbfounded band I grab a guitar and wave them a signal as to just stand by as I began the beat

It's probably what's best for you
I only want the best for you
And if I'm not the best, then you're stuck

I try to sever ties and I,
Ended up with wounds to bind
Like you're pouring salt in my cuts
And I just ran out of Band-Aid's
I don't even know where to start

'Cause you can't bandage the damage,
You never really can fix a heart

Even though I know what's wrong,
How can I be so sure
If you never say what you feel, feel?
I must have held your hand so tight,
You didn't have the will to fight
I guess you needed more time to heal
[ Lyrics from: lyrics/d/demi_lovato/fix_a_ ]
Baby I just ran out of Band-Aid's
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can't bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart

You must be a miracle worker,
Swearin' up and down,
You can't fix what's been broken, yeah
Please don't get my hopes up, no no
Baby, tell me how could you
Be so cruel?

It's like you're pouring salt on my cuts

Baby, I just ran out of Band-Aid's
I don't even know where to start
'Cause you can't bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart
Baby, I just ran out of Band-Aid's
I don't even know where to start

'Cause you can't bandage the damage
You never really can fix a heart
Oh no no no no
You never really can fix a heart
Oh no no no no
You never really can fix heart

You never really can fix my heart

I turned and looked out to the side of the stage all of the Jonas family was there and they had big smiles on their face well except Joe

"Thank you guys, you're a wonderful audience and I love you all so much, now here are the Jonas Brothers" I yelled into the mic as the boys walked on stage I walked off I knew I would have to go back on to do on the line and wouldn't change a thing but right now in this moment I forgot all my pain and heartache I forgot the fact that my families more than 1,000 miles away and Both of my best friends Joe and Selena have washed their hands with me. For right now I was just coming down from the high of preforming and all the love I got from the fans and that would make me better if only for right now

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