Hello again :)
First of all thank you to those who faved or left their opinion *deep bow* and to those that read it and decided not to leave me anything still thank you ^_^

Well this is Bubbles chapter.

"Sometimes you need to destroy your own happiness, to reach your full potential. And the people we leave behind on such a journey, will remain our scars till the end"

Bubbles:

When I was a child, the world was a big playground.

I got excited by seeing a rainbow or getting at ice cream on the way home from school.

Or feeling sad when the sky turned gray and dreaming about another life,while looking at the moon and the stars.

Now...its gone...

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection, baby
To be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

Your going back to Townsville? -Mike shouted at me when I told him that evening.

Yes, I need a change of scenery...- I mumbled softly while trying not to look at him. I heard him sigh and stand up.

Well okay I guess I need to-

I will go alone ! - I shouted louder than I wanted to and closed my eyes in anxiety.

But I knew, I had to do it.

huh? A-alone? w-why Bubbles? - I looked at mike trying to find the courage to speak.

I stood up facing him straight in the eyes.

Alone, because I wont be coming back to you Mike. It's over. This engagement, relationship, is over.

I silently put the ring he gave me on our 2 year anniversary down on the coffee table.

You can't cry Bubbles.

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life

I never liked fighting. Even between my sisters I always was the peacemaker.

So, naturally me and Mike never fought too. Mike is patient and very kind.

We never fought over small things even while living together, we never had drama or trust now...it's different.

We are different.

It has been 5 hours since I told my selfish request to Mike, we've been fighting nonstop for 5 hours.

Remembering all the little things, all the mistakes we made in our relationship and never talked through.

Everything was out now.

And now there's silence.

"This isn't like you" - he mumbled softly. Oh god he's crying.

I closed my eyes tightly. "You hate hurting others" he continued barely as I felt him grip my hand tightly.

"I love you" he said clearly and confident."So, tell me why I need to let go of this hand"

My eyes opened and I looked him in the eyes, they were red and his lips in a tight line.

My chest felt heavy and my whole body was cold.

With a dry trout and my lips shaking, I mumbled the words I've held for so long.

" I lost my crayons Mike"

a tear slid down my cheek as the world chattered around.

It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

After that night Mike went to stay with a friend, giving me the space to pack and leave our apartment.

I wasn't surprised when he left in the morning, leaving only a note.

I knew him for so long.

A feeling of loneliness and our memories make it hard for me to get up every morning.

But I remind myself that this is what I chose for myself.

There is no turning back now.

I already did all the damage.

I need to grow up.

I promised.

You can't cry Bubbles..

The path that I'm walking', I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I havent seen Mike for 2 whole weeks.I dont know if it's anxiety or loneliness but I wanna see him.

I know I have no right to wish that but at the same time it would feel right.

To see him one last time.

But I hope he knows that he never did anything wrong.

He was the best boyfriend I ever had.

But I need to grow up now.

I need to stand on my own.

And maybe...maybe...

someday we will be friends again...right?

You can't cry Bubbles...

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

As I was gathering my last suitcase, more and more I'm reminded of my life with him.

Our High school album,our prom, our anniversaries...everything is in the past...

This is too hard.

He was my best friend, my lover, my partner.

And I trew him away...

You can't cry Bubbles...

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my
Valentine

In a week all the things were gone.

All our furniture.

All his things gone.

Everything is gone.

This apartment will have a new owner soon.

All that's left is me.

I was standing in the middle of what used to be our living room, when I heard the door open...

Mike...

Bubbles You can't cry!

Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers
And share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside

Time stood still as Bubbles was frozen at the spot not looking at the figure standing in the doorway.

"Hey" rang the echo of a familiar deep voice.

Bubbles flinched at the sudden echo. Like she could feel all the pain he was going trough now.

"Hey" she said back, still looking at the floor.

"I can't send you off with a smile" he said

"I know" she whispered

"That's why I want us to say goodbye here...in our home" he's voice broke at the last looked at him then without thinking twice.

And yea...Mike was pale and there were bags under his eyes.

And his eyes red and watery, even now. She could feel herself wanting to cry at this moment too.

But Bubbles You can't cry !

"I'd like that" she said trying to smile and turning to face him.

Mike looked at her too.

"I still love you" the words hit her like nails.

"I know" she said back softly.

They started to walk to each other they didn't touch.

They went past each other and now they stood at each other places back to back.

"This is it then" Mike's voice broke. He was crying.

Bubbles started to open the then stopped.

"Mike,

I'll miss you" she said softly,

"Thank you, for everything".

and ran down the stairs crying...

"I'm sorry.."

I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

Well that's the second one...I'm not entirely sure I'm happy with this one as with the first. Tell me what you think?

Next one is Buttercup~~Tomorow evening ~~~

P.S If you're wondering wtf is with the crayons thing, you'll have to wait till chapter 6-7 to find out what Bubbles said to Mike that night ^_^