I still don't own anyone from BoB (damn!) but Livia is mine.

Oh yeah, my first language isn't English, so incase there is spelling errors and sentences which make no sense, I'm sorry!

Chapter 2 To Go or Not To Go

Livia stood there staring at Sink, Winters and Meehan. This certainly wasn't what she expected. First she thought that she had heard wrong, but when she heard Nixon's comment, she knew that she did hear right. They really expected her to join the Easy company when they jump to France. Livia was so stirred that only one thing came to her mind, and it was the fact that she had never jumped out of the plane.

"But I can't jump…" Was the first thing she said.

"Don't worry. First Lieutnant Meehan and Lieutnant Winters will teach you. And Winters told me that you know how to handle a gun. You may need that skill." Sink replied.

That was true, Livia knew how to shoot with a gun. Her father and both brothers were eager hunters and also she had hunted with them from the age of sixteen. Naturally it was different to shoot with a military gun than a hunting gun, but she had trained shooting with a gun together with Easy in Aldbourne and done rather well.

"Like I said, you can say no and stay here in Aldbourne." Meehan commented watching straight to Livia's eyes. She got the feeling that he wanted her stay in Aldbourne, but she guessed it was because he was worried about her.

"Can I… Can I think about this?" Livia asked quietly.

"Of course. But I need your answer tomorrow." Colonel said.

She wasn't given too much time to think, but at least she could think it over the night. She just nodded and asked then.

"Can I leave now?" She wanted to get away from these men who were all watching her sorryness in their eyes, specially Winters and Meehan. Nixon was just staring at her, he hadn't really understood yet what really was happening.

"Of course." Sink said.

Livia turned to the door and opened it. She felt lightheaded and strange, like this all happened to someone else and she was just observing it from the distance. When she closed the office door behind her, she heard Nixon's bark.

"Are you all gone mad?"

Somehow Livia managed to wander back to nurses barrack and sat down on her bed. She was alone in the room and happy about it. She stared at the opposite wall for a moment and thought about what she was just asked to do. She understood that she could decline, but she wasn't sure if she wanted to do it. She knew that it was risky to leave with Easy, but the truth was that she didn't want to leave the guys, she liked all of them too much and if she would stay in Aldbourne she would worry constantly over them. She thought that maybe leaving to France was the best thing to do. Her thoughts were interrupted when the barrack door opened and she saw Matilda and one of the other nurses, Kate, entering the room. They both saw her flustered expression and Matilda sat next to her on her bed.

"So, what did Sink want?"

"He.. They… They asked if I would jump with Easy to France in five days." Livia blurred out.

"But… Why?" Matilda seemed shocked.

"I don't really know. Maybe because I'm their nurse… But I don't really know why me."

"What are you going to do? Do you have to accept it?" Always so practical Kate asked.

"I don't know what I'm gonna do. I can say no and stay here in Aldbourne…"

"Of course you'll stay here." Matilda said with confident tone. Then she watched her good friend closely and continued. "Or are you really thinking of going with them?"

"Yes, Matilda. I'm thinking that too."

Livia saw that Matilda didn't really understand it, but she wasn't in mood to explain her why she even thought of going to France with Easy.

"What about your parents? What will they say?" Kate asked. It was a good question. Livia knew that in case she decided to go with Easy she couldn't tell her parents, not directly to their face anyway. They were worried enough over Paul and Colin, and if she decided to jump to France, they would do anything to prevent her. Livia knew that her parents would rather lock her up to some dark cellar than let her leave.

"I need air." She said standing up from her bed. She felt like the walls were squeezing her and she certainly needed fresh air.

Matilda and Kate watched after her both shaking their head when she left the barrack. Livia wandered around the yard amelessly for a moment avoiding every soldier she saw. Finally she found herself near by the headquarters just when Meehan, Winters and Nixon were coming out of the building. The redhaired lieutnant was the first to notice her and when he called her, she stood and waited them come to her.

"Are you alright, miss McMillan?" Meehan asked. He always addressed Livia like that despite everyone else in Easy called her by her first name.

"Of course she isn't. Considering what she heard 30 minutes ago." Nixon barked before she had the change to speak.

"Calm down, Lew. We heard loud and clear what you think about Sink's succestion." Winters said. Though Livia hadn't heard what he said, she could guess it pretty well. Lewis Nixon was one of her closest friends in Easy and she respected him very much. Livia guessed that Nixon had made clear what he thought about this proposition, which had just made to Livia. But she also knew that what ever he had said to Sink, Meehan and Winters wasn't because Nixon didn't like her. Livia was pretty sure that Nixon was just worried that something would happen to her.

"I don't know… I'm rather confused about all this." She sighed.

"We all understand it. If you want to talk about this, you can always come to me." Winters said watching straight to her green eyes.

"Thank you, lieutnant Winters." Livia said thinking that she might very well do that.

Other nurses heard pretty fast about Colonel Sink's succestion and the rest of the evening Livia had to explain them that she didn't really know what to do. She was happy when she heard that at least the nurses would stand by her, what ever she would decide. She knew that they would call her nuts in case she decided to leave with Easy, but the fact was that she didn't know what to do. Other guys in Easy heard about the possiblity about her leaving with them during that night too and George Luz, Don Malarkey and John Martin went to talk with her. All of them asked her to think it through very carefully, because if she decided to go with them, her life wouldn't be easy in the front. They also told her that if she decided to jump with them, every man in Easy would stand behind her and support her. Livia was so touched about their words that finally she had to kick them out of the barrack so that they wouldn't see the tears in her eyes. They had never seen her crying, and she wasn't going to let that happen now.

When Livia went to bed, she couldn't get sleep. She lied awake on her bed for an hour, then she stood up, dressed silently so that she wouldn't wake up other nurses and left the barrack closing the door behind her quietly. She wandered on the yard for a moment and finally she found herself from the door of the barrack where Meehan, Winters and Nixon slept among some other OC's.

She stood by the door thinking should she go and talk to Winters or should she not do that. She decided not to do that, but then the barrack door was opened.

"Livia?"

She watched straight to Lewis Nixon who had come out to cigarette.

"Yes, it's me." She admitted.

"Couldn't get any sleep?" Nixon asked offering her a cigarette and she took it happily.

"No, I couldn't." She admitted quietly.

"I don't wonder that at all. It was quite a news what you heard."

"Yeah, it indeed was."

"Do you know what you are going to say to Colonel Sink tomorrow?" Nixon watched her closely.

"No, I don't know."

"That is a hard decision. I personally think that you should stay there." Nixon said thoughtfully. "It's not that you aren't a good nurse, you are and I like you, kid. But the circumstances over there are different."

Liva knew what he meant and understood that he was worried about her.

"Yeah, I know that I would take a huge risk if I jump with you to France. But I really don't know…" She kept a short pause and continued then. "Luz, Malarkey and Martin talked me about it too. They told me that what ever I'll decide they would respect it."

"Ah, should have guessed that at least Luz comes to talk to you from the minute he heards about this." Nixon grinned slightly. "But you know we all respect and love you, Livia. What ever you do, we will support you."

Livia was getting very emotional again, but then she saw Winters appearing behind Nixon and decided that she wasn't going to cry, not at least on that moment.

"I thought that you were talking here by yourself, so I had to come and check it out." He grinned slighly. "Hey Livia. Couldn't get sleep?"

"No." The blonde watched at him thoughtfully. "I thought that… That if I could talk to you."

"Of course you can. I told you that." Winters said and turned to Nixon. "Lew, if you excuse us…"

"Sure, you're the boss." He said and went back inside the barrack.

Winters came outside and closed the barrack door behind him.

"Do you want take a short walk?"

Livia just nodded and they walked towards the planes in silence.

"So, you have a big decision to do." Winters said finally.

"Yes, I do." She sighed. "Lieutnant Winters, what I should do?"

"First of all, you can call me Dick." He smiled slightly. "And second, you have to the decision by yourself."

Livia smiled to him a little, actually she had called him Dick for a while already, but only in her mind. She wasn't sure if it was appropriate to call him that out loud, but now when he asked her to do it, it was different.

"But I don't have too much time. If I stay here, I'm afraid that I'll regret it. And I would be constantly worried about you guys. But if I leave with you, I'm afraid that I'm only on your way and I don't know how I'll manage over there."

"You should know already that we would look after you. If you come with us, you are one of us. If you stay here, no one would blame you. Maybe staying here would be even more wise desicion." Winters watched her with serious expression in his face. "But I'm sure you wouldn't be on our way over there. I know you can take care of yourself. We all know it"

"I guess I can but…" She gave out a heavy sigh. "If I leave with you, I would be the only woman in the company." It wasn't the first think on her mind, but it was the first thing what came out of her mouth.

"We all know you that well, that we don't think about you like that." Winters realized how strange that sounded to her, so he tried to explain it. "I didn't mean that we don't think you as a woman. You certainly are a woman, I meant that you are already one of us."

"That's nice to hear. I'm really fond of you all too…"

Then they walked back towards the OC's barracks in silence. When they were by the door, Winters turned to Livia.

"Try to get some sleep, Livia. Tomorrow is an important day, what ever you decide to do."

"I will. Thank you, Dick." Livia watched straight to his blue eyes. She had done her decision already, but she didn't tell it to him. He, Colonel Sink, First Lieutnant Meehan and others would hear it on the next morning.