A Cat's Misery

"We have to get you out of here." I said as I pulled him hard against me, the floor shaking beneath us as Eden rumbled again.

"No, Train," He whispered against my neck as his hand rose and pulled my face away so that we were looking at one another. "You have to get yourself out of here."

"I can't leave you," I shook my head pathetically. "You'll be fine; we just have to get help."

He smiled calmly as his fingers stroked the side of my face.

"You're too weak, Train," He said softly as he studied my eyes. "I've made you weak."

"No," I shook my head. "I just can't leave without you. I need you with me."

"I never thought I'd hear you say that," He laughed quietly before wincing at the pain it caused him. "But I could never live with myself if I knew I was the reason you died."

"Dammit, Creed," I yelled, feeling like myself again. "What if I want you to be the reason I die?"

Silence fell around us as he stared up at me with a bewildered expression.

"What are you saying, Train?" He asked slowly.

I turned and looked away from him, trying to hide my tears…trying to hide everything.

"Just," I took in a deep breath. "Just let me save you."

"You already have," He took hold of my face and looked up at me with strong eyes. "Now it's time I saved you."

I shook my head as tears fell down my face, my strength gone as I realized what I was facing. I was losing him and for once there was nothing I could do about it.

"You'll be fine without me," He replied calmly. "You always have been."

"No." I shook my head pathetically.

"Promise me you'll keep on living?" He asked suddenly. "Promise me."

I shook my head again, tears falling.

"Promise me." He urged and I could tell he needed to hear it.

"I…" I took in a deep breath, repressing a sob. "I promise."

I screamed as I flew up from my pillow in the middle of the night. I couldn't slow my heart as my chest heaved, images from a past not so long ago running rampant through my mind.

I ran my fingers through my sweaty hair as I stared forward into the darkness of night. My heart raced as fast as my mind, making sleep something of the past.

This night was like so many other nights. Screams, whimpers and thrashing. It was all so natural now, as if it were something I had always done ever since I was a small child. This was my life now, but the problem was I had to make it through it alone.

I gazed around the empty room as my eyes adjusted to the dark space. A chair sat in the far corner of the room with my blue jacket hanging over the back. Hades sat in its holster on a small desk that was shoved in the opposite corner. A small closet took up one of the walls, its flimsy doors closed, concealing what little possessions I owned.

I sighed as I stared down at the sheets covering my legs. I was so alone here, and at times it was how I wanted it to be. Yet part of me missed the life I had once lived-the life before Creed had left me.

I threw the covers back and swung my legs over the edge of the bed, my toes brushing across the cold wood floor. I stood slowly, my body feeling weak and unstable as I shuffled across the room and opened the door.

"I should really go to sleep." I muttered to myself as I rubbed at my tired eyes.

The small apartment I now rented was almost identical to the one I had lived in while I was a member of Chronos. It was small and barren, only the necessities decorated the boring walls and floor.

I stood at the sink and leaned hard against the counter, my eyes focused out the small window to the moon that hung low.

For an instant I was back in the room I had been locked away in at Creed's mansion. The window was there with the bay seat and the easy access to the roof. The bed lay in the center, both ominous and welcoming. So many things had happened there and now I wanted them all back no matter what.

I had hated him once. I had wished him dead, but now all I wanted was for him to be standing in front of me as he once had. I wanted him to say my name again, to hold me again, to even hurt me again. I didn't matter what he did as long as he was here with me…like before.

"Creed," I almost whispered as I stared up at the night sky. "I still miss you."

I felt tears burn in my eyes as I blinked quickly, refusing to let them fall. I had been like this for over a year now, unstable and unable to cope. Creed was gone, I knew and accepted that, but it hurt all the same.

I had tried so hard to return with Sven and Eve after the battle at Eden had ended. I had come home, I had tried to adjust and I had fallen apart. They had had no idea how to help me. It was impossible for them to understand the loss I was feeling, it was almost impossible for even me to understand.

I stood now alone and lost. I stood with an empty space beside me that should be filled but would remain empty forever. I had been a part of something once. I had been needed and held onto by someone who couldn't live without me. I knew Sven and Eve cared, I understood that, but it wasn't the same.

I sighed as the moon etched itself into my memory just as that day had. I would stand here alone for the rest of my life. I would rot away in this pathetic apartment and wish it had never ended this way. I would live a life I was embarrassed to live and that was how it would be. I was no longer the Train Heartnet I had once been, and it seemed I never would be.

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Dear Readers!

I'm baaaaaack! I hope you enjoyed the first installment of the sequel to "A War I Did Not Start and Could Not End". I simply couldn't stop writing for this storyline and decided a sequel must be written!

I'm excited to get going on this part of the story. It's going to be very different than the first half; especially since I have a lot less characters to work with (I killed off some…oops).

There will be characters you recognize from the last story. Of course Sven and Eve will enter the story in time as well as a couple of characters you might not be expecting to see.

Originally the story was rated T, but now I've decided to bump it up to M for both language and romance. I plan to update soon, so keep an eye out for that! I'm totally looking forward to reading your reviews and hearing you advice. You were all so helpful to me last time and I'm hoping you will be this time around too. I need you guys!

Well, I hope you enjoyed and I'll see you soon!

Ciao!

Train X3