Edward's P.O.V
How can I be so stupid? Why didn't I talk to her just now? She'll probably think I already forgotten about her which is impossible for me! If only she knew how I feel about her. After all, she is part of the reason why I wanted to come home so badly, aside the other reason. I shook my head to clear the thought of my past. It was never good, I had no good memory being in that stupid boarding school. Whenever I'm down, I will look at Bella's picture 'cause that's the only thing that would keep me sane.
And of course one day it went missing, I was positively sure I put it in a book where I usually pretending to read at night so my roommate won't find out about it. But, unfortunately, it was not there. I search everywhere around the place and still nothing. I went nuts. Then, people started acting strange around me, even my roommate –Paul and his friends. I shudder at the thought. I don't want to remember any of it. At first, I'd begged my parents to send me back home but they won't listen. So, I stuck there for a few years having to go through all those painful experience they did to me.
But, then last month, I found Bella's picture back. I was happy and frustrated at the same time, 'cause it was in Paul's wallet. All these years he happily watched me suffer with everything they done to me and that's when I decided to pay back. When he got out of the shower, I launched myself at him. I didn't care to think of anything at the moment. I punched, kick, and hit him with metal stick as much as I can, ignoring his painful scream. That's how I went through all those fucking years from him and his friends and now I threw it all back to him.
Unfortunately, someone heard his scream and went to see what's all the commotions about. That's when they saw me, hitting Paul with a metal stick until he fell unconscious. I haven't realized his blood was all over me until I stopped. He didn't die though –unfortunately, how I wish he did. He just had to stay in the E.R for a very long time –that's good enough for me.
After that, they send me to the headmaster's office. The headmaster –Mr. Maccintosh had decided to send me back home to my family. I was thrilled about it. Why couldn't I done this a few years ago, by now I would probably at home with my family and Bella. Although, as much as I love my parents, I hate for what they had did to me. I was never agreed to go to a boarding school in the first place but they forced me, they send me there with all those monsters! Plus, they send me far away from Bella, the one girl I truly Love since I was a kid.
Ring!
The last bell rang snapping me out of my thought. I decided I'm going to talk to her as soon as possible. I want her to know that I still care for our friendship, even though I want more than that but I wasn't about to scare her away by telling her my true feeling.
I ran as fast as I can to the parking lot. If I see Emmett then I see her. By the way, I never thought Emmett would be that huge, muscular. I mean, when we were young I was pretty much taller and bigger then him but now –woahh. I wonder what he d been eating this past years.
When I reached my new Volvo car, I only saw Alice and Jasper standing outside the passenger door, cuddling with each other. Sigh.
Why can't I be like that?
Why can't I be with someone like that?
Why can't I have someone like that?
Why can't I be with Bella like that?
Sigh.
I looked around to see any sign of her or Emmett but none of them are there. I quickly approached to my siblings.
"Alice! Where is she?"
She looked confused at first then, "Oh –you mean Bella. Her and Emmett already gone home. Emm and Rose got in a little fight that's why they head early today. Why? You haven't talk to her?"
I shook my head and ran a hand through my hair.
She must've hated me for ignoring her.
She must've thought I already forgotten about her.
Alice saw my expression and knew instantly how I feel. She placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Don't worry, lil bro. You will talk to her, soon. After all, we 're going to their house later."
That made me smile a little.
"But, first, we're going to Seattle to borrow some movies. I figured we'll probably end up staying there till the night anyway. Hey, where's Rose?"
Just as she said, Rose came out of the school, running towards us.
"Hey, guys. Sorry I'm late. Has anyone seen my baby?" she asked, looking around to search for Emmett.
"He leave early today, Rose. sorry. But, no worries, we're heading to their house anyway. Now, com'on!"
With that, we left school and head over Seattle. We'd borrow about 15 dvds and after that , I drove us to Bella's house. Oh my! Why did I suddenly felt sick in a stomach? Am I nervous? Why should I? It's just her, Bella, the girl I'd love since I was a kid.
Okay, that didn't help anything at all.
When we got there, I park my Volvo next to Emmett's jeep. Okay, deep breath. It's just her. We all stepped out of the car and walked to their house. I can't believe Alice just bust in without knocking the door as if this were her house. Oh-well, it kinda looks like it. We all followed her in and head to the living room. Emmett was there watching tv. Everything still looked the same as when I last saw it, except there's a new plasma tv hanging on the wall. Emmett smiled when he saw us coming in.
"Oh- Hey, guys. I'm sorry, I didn't hear you just now." He said as he looked at each of us, except Rose. She sighed and sat new to him, taking his hand.
"Baby, I'm sorry for what I said before. None of that is what I want either. And, I've decided that we can do it a few times a week as long as we use protection." He smiled and hug her. O –kay, I think I know what they're talking about here and –Ewww!
"That's okay, Rosie. I already forgive you." She smiled a little.
"Then, why are you still upset?" she asked, stroking his cheek.
He sighed. "It's Bella. She was upset about something, when I asked her, she refused to tell me, well, you know her, she's pretty good at keeping secret. Then, we had a little argument on the way home and she ran out to the treehouse. So, I followed her then I saw her crying her eyes out there. I don't know what to do, so I just hold her."
"Baby, you'd done a good thing."
"Is this about those 'Victoria's Gang'? If it is then I swear I'll make them torture to death!" Alice growled. Nobody likes it when Alice gets angry.
He shook his head, "No, it's not. I did asked her about it and she said no. And, I don't think it was either. It's something important than that."
They all turn silence as they figure out what had make Bella turn this sad.
I sighed, "…. I think it's about me." all their eyes flickered to me in confusion.
"Huh? How?"
"Long story short –" I sighed, "It turns out we both had biology together and we sort of a lab partner now but –"
Jasper interrupted, "Did you talk to her?"
I looked down, "No, as a matter of fact I didn't. I didn't even looked at her. All I do was just sit there like an idiot!" Alice scoffed.
"Why did you do that? Don't you know that she had been waiting for you to arrive for so long? She would've thought you forgot about her!" she yelled, putting both of her hands on my shoulder while shaking me. I guess I deserve that.
"….. That's what I thought." I'm an idiot!
"You are an idiot!" Rose yelled. Did I say that out loud?
"Don't worry, men. It's never too late to apologize." Jasper said. He always knew how to calm someone.
"Is she still at the treehouse?" I asked Emmett.
"Uh –yeah, she won't get out of there."
"Then, go find her, Ed."
I nodded and ran to the back of the house where the treehouse were. It was still the same as I remember it. How I missed my childhood memory.
As I walked nearly to the treehouse, I heard a familiar voice –singing.
Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's so long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.
Bella is singing –and someone is playing guitar. I hope there's no one out there but her, and more importantly no guy.
I stopped at the doorway. There she is, singing, with her back facing me so she didn't see me, and she's the one playing the guitar. Impressive! I realized what song
she sang. She's pretty damn good! How I wished the song is dedicated to me.
Yeah when my world is falling apart. When I look at you, Yeah when my world is falling apart, You, appear just like a dream to me. Yeah
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!
Did I say she's pretty damn good? I take it back. Amazing is the right words and, Beautiful.
When the waves are flooding the shore, You, appear just like a dream to me.
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.
After she finished sang, I couldn't help myself for wanting to hug her and let her stay in my arms, so I can finally feel that I'm home.
"That was amazing." I said before I could stop myself.
She jumped when she heard my voice. She looked back at me and blinked a few times.
"E –Edward?"
"B-Bella, I'm really sorry for ignoring you before. It's just that –I was nervous when I saw you sitting there and –" She didn't let me finished. Instead, she interrupted and launched herself at me with a big hug.
"Apology accepted, Edward. I can't stay mad at you any longer."
I felt her smiled. I hugged her back tightly and unwilling to let her go. I buried my face in her hair. She smelled amazing. Everything about her is amazing. I finally got her. I'm home.
"Still the same B-Bella, always a forgiven person." I sighed. "I missed you, Bella. More than you ever know."
"I missed you, too, Edward. More than anything you've ever imagine."
I wanted to burst out in joy when she said that, but instead I just chuckled.
"Don't try to challenge me women."
She laughed, "It's good to have you back, Edward."
I smiled. It's good to have you in my arms again, Bella.