Too Late for Love
I'm back with another exciting chapter of Kyle exploring his own sexual tendencies the last chapter was good in my opinion but I hope to make this one better. Again it has sexual themes, angst, suicidal themes, is a slash, and once again I'm not gay. ""means talk means thoughts, except for Kyle whose mind talks ((A/N))
WARNING: I DON'T OWN SOUTH PARK OR ITS CHARACTERS
Chapter 2: Hooked on f&!y phonics
In the Morning Kyle woke up finally accepting his own fate but still a little bit disgusted that he could be this way. He knew he shouldn't be because he knew other people who are gay and they're perfectly happy with it. Kyle guessed it was more the fact with how other people would react to him, such as his parents, Rebecca, but especially Stan. He didn't know how they would take it but he figured they would reject him for it. He knew he wouldn't if Stan told him that he was gay but Stan was a little less understanding. Kyle knew that Stan got mad when Kyle forgot to bring the new Terrence & Phillip DVD when he came over last week. He figured Stan would at least stop being his friend, and that was in the best of scenarios. In the worst, Stan could tell him never to talk to him ever again but yet make fun of him everyday for being gay worse than Cartman does for him being Jewish.
Then it came to Kyle, "What will Cartman do when he finds out? He'll laugh his ass off, and this will just give him yet another thing to rip my ass about. Maybe I should just hide it from everyone. Just act like it nothing's different and everything will just remain the same. Yeah that's it. That's what I'll do. Things are still going to be okay."
"That would be good, but just how long do you think you can put up the charade of being straight when you know you're not," Kyle mind interjected again.
"I can do it, don't worry about it. No one will know until I decide that they know. I'll just wait a month; maybe a year and everything will be fine. Just have to keep my wits about me, act like nothing's different, and no one will suspect a thing."
"Okay, let's just say you can fake being straight, and no one will ever know. But don't they deserve to know, such as… the people that you love; your family, your friends, Rebecca, STAN. Don't they deserve to know? How would you feel if Rebecca, one day, all of a sudden, said that she was cheating on you, but tried to make you feel better by hiding it from you for a year? Wouldn't you feel a lot better in the end, if she just told you right out that she wanted to break up with you because she liked someone else better?"
"I guess so." Kyle was starting to hate when his brain made points that just made perfect sense, of course that was its job. "I guess I can tell her, but I still like her… just not as much Stan."
"So you need to tell her, and Stan, and your parents. I'm not telling you to tell everyone, hell, I know that Cartman will rip on you from now to Kingdom Come. Just tell the important people who NEED to know.'
"I just don't know when to tell her. I mean… I know that it is for the best but I just don't know when to tell her, I still like her and I just feel that she'll hate me and never want to talk to me again when she finds out."
"Has it ever occurred to you that she might just be supportive of you in this decision of yours to be free? I know that she loves you and that love could be used to your advantage so she'll understand that she wants to break up with you."
"I guess I could tell her today or tomorrow at school. I'm just nervous as hell. I mean this decision is life-changing. My mom's gonna fucking freak out, my dad will be probably be fine, Stan will probably never want to be friends with me again…"
"Stop talking and getting ready for school or you're gonna be late."
The Later That DayAfter School
Kyle's mind, "I can't believe you didn't say anything to either Stan or Rebecca! You have got to be the biggest wuss that I know, and that's saying something. You need to grow some balls and tell at least one person within the next twenty-four hours or I'll make you tell someone, and you know I can."
"Fine! I'll call Rebecca, invite her over and tell her in as soon as she gets her! Happy! Huh! Will That Make You FUCKING HAPPY!!!?"
"Yes."
"Good." Kyle angrily grabs for the phone dials Rebecca's number and tries to calm down while it rings.
((Before I continue I need to tell everyone about Rebecca. She is the same as she was in Monkey Phonics except older and more in control of her stuttering. The only time her stuttering gets really bad is when she's mad. The madder she is the more she stutters. This anger issue will come into play later. Also that Kyle's parents love Rebecca almost as much as they love Kyle. If they got married even at 18 his parents wouldn't care.))
"H-H-hello?"
"Hi Rebecca, it's me Kyle."
"Hey K-Kyle. How are you doing? I w-was just finishing my h-homework. What are you d-doing? You want to come over and do your homework?"
"Actually Rebecca I was kind of hoping that you come over here because I have to talk to you about something."
"But Kyle, my father would never allow me to go over to your house unsupervised."
"Then have your dad come too, but I just have to talk to you alone and it's very very important. Okay? Please, can you do that for me?"
"Okay, I'll a-ask him, and if he says y-yes, then I'll call you back to tell you I'm on my w-way." Rebecca was stating to sound a little worried. "Is there something w-wrong? You sound kind of upset or a-angry."
"No, I'll explain everything when you come over, don't worry about it right now. And if you don't come over today than I'll tell you tomorrow at school. I would just really prefer to tell you this here."
"Okay, I'll ask my f-father. I'll make sure he k-knows that it's important as w-well."
"Thank you. Bye.""Bye. Love you Kyle."
Kyle hated that she said this, even though he normally does like it when she says it and he even has said I love you back on numerous occasions. It hurt him to say it back this time because now it felt like he was lying, which in a way he was. "I love you too."
///Rebecca's POV\\\
Kyle hung up the phone with regret in his voice that bothered Rebecca to some degree although he said not to worry until she got over to his house she knew she would because that was the kind of person she was. She thought what in the world could he possibly have to tell her that would make him sound so worried and down. She pondered the reason while she went to ask her father about going to Kyle's house.
"Father?"
"Yes, Rebecca. What is it?"
"I was w-wondering if you could take me over to K-Kyle's house. There is something he has to t-talk to me about."
"I'm sorry Rebecca, but the answer has to be no. I will not allow you to go over that boy's house to do God knows what. I know what he wants to do to you, and I don't think I could take it if I let you go down that path a second time."
"But F-Father, he sounded really upset, and he says it is r-really important. He also said you could s-stay if you felt uncomfortable. Please let me go Father."
"Well, I guess if I can stay then it would be alright, but no more than an hour. We have to get back for your studies and dinner."
"Thank you F-Father. I'll call Kyle and let him know I'm on my way" As her thoughts ended with her trying to get to Kyle's house they reverted back to what it could possibly be that he needs to talk to her about.
Maybe he just wants to apologize for that little squabble we had last week. Wait; if it was just that then he wouldn't need to tell me at his house. It must be very bad if he doesn't care that my father's there. So what could it possibly be? Her mind went to worse things, until she thought of the worst possible thing he could say to her, and that one thing could be that he cheated on her. My God what if that's it, what if he cheated on me? she knew that she couldn't get mad at him about it until he actually said it, but she knew he could at least prepare herself for it. Well, if he did at least he's going to ask for forgiveness and maybe we can both forget about it… but what if it's worse then that? What if he wants to break up with me for this other girl? She was starting to panic and realized why Kyle said not to worry about it until she got there. She picked up the phone and dialed Kyle's number.
///Kyle's POV\\\
Kyle picked up the phone as it was ringing, finally calm after he followed his own advice that he told Rebecca about not worrying until she got there. He knew he should be stressed but ever since he put down the phone earlier he had found it a lot easier to get calm. He realized the first part of what he needed to do was over and now it was going to be a little easier to relax.
When Kyle talked into the phone knowing that somehow Rebecca had convinced her father to let her come over.
"Hello" Kyle said to Rebecca on the other end of the line however the voice that came on the other sounded nothing like his present girlfriend.
"Hey Kyle" said Stan "You doin' much right now?"
"Stan... What's goin' on with you?"Kyle, now lost of his stability, almost started stuttering like Rebecca does at the voice of the boy he now loves.
"Nothing really special. Cartman called with another plot to get ten million dollars and wants to involve us again."
"What is it this time, another thing that he claims has never been invented but has been for a least twenty years?"
"No not this time. I think this time Cartman has about lost his mind. He wants us to help him make… I can't even say it."
"What is it? Boy band again?"
"No we've done that three times and all three times failed. This time Cartman wants us to help him make… a porno."
"…"
"That was my exact same reaction."
"When will Cartman finally admit that he's gay?"
"That was my exact same second reaction. But Cartman said in his normal fatass voice that we wouldn't be in it together we'd convince girls to be in it and we would be the male roles."Now that Kyle had heard all this, he had calmed down to his own feelings and grown upset with Cartman's even more outrageous scheme. "We're 14. Isn't that illegal?"
"Boy, we must be telepathic with these reactions, that's just about exactly what I said. So Cartman replied, "That's exactly the point. Do you realize how many perverts there are out there who would pay large amounts of money to see that kind of thing?""
"And how exactly would we convince the girls to be a part of this? Mr. Slave convinced them not to be whores a long time ago, remember."
"Wait a minute? Why are you endorsing this? You sound like you'd actually go along with this. I mean I'm as much of a pervert as the next guy, but if we did this, at least one of us other than Cartman will go to juvie. And we know who's still there. Right? Trent Boyet" ((right spelling?))
"Listen, can we talk about this later? First I need to process all this, and second I'm expecting a call."
"Alright, we'll talk later. See ya."
The second that Kyle hung up the phone it rang again. This time hopefully it would be the person he was expecting.
"Hello?"
"H-Hello Kyle." Said the voice of his now nervous girlfriend. "I've been t-trying to get a hold or you for about ten m-minutes now."
"Sorry Rebecca, Stan called and it took a while for him to say what he needed to say. Then I told him I was expecting a call and he got off."
"O-Okay. Well, my father said that I could c-come over so I should be over in about ten minutes"
"Thank-you. Bye"
"W-Wait, could you please tell me s-something so I can prepare myself to some ext-tent? I may take whatever i-information you have to give me later if I know something about it now."
"All I can say is it has something to do with our relationship and where it's going. I just realized this and feel this needs to be. Please can we talk about this later? I just want to tell you here."
"O-Okay love you bye."
"Bye" Again she said love. This time Kyle didn't even have the heart to tell her the lie that he loves her back. He hung up the phone with that rising lump in his throat feeling like the nervousness he suffered earlier was just the tip of the iceberg. Kyle knew from the way he was feeling now, that he was being naive for thinking that the easy part was now over. It would only get worse from hear. He knew that he had to go tell his parents about Rebecca arrival or they would be more than a little mad at Kyle for inviting someone over without their permission. Even though he already did Kyle knew though this would be just a formality. His parents loved Rebecca and felt that she deserved to be out and about like other teenagers. They didn't want her to like other girls that were sluts but they didn't want her to be a total shut in either, so they were happy that she was Kyle's girlfriend. So that nothing out of the ordinary will happen in their relationship.
Kyle went to his parents to tell them about Rebecca's coming over. "Mom… Dad… Hello?" No response. "Hmm. Must have left while I was on the phone. Wait, there's a note: Kyle, have gone to the True Value for some groceries. We'll be back in about an hour. Love Mom and Dad. P. S. Ike's with us.
"Well that could make this easier or harder."
"How do you mean?" Kyle's mind chimed in his two cents. "I don't see any difference if you weren't going to tell them right now in the first place and they don't already know."
"Well, even if there not in the room with me when I'm telling Rebecca they would still be giving me support. But if they're not here then I won't have to worry about them listening in when I do tell her."
"What it sounds to me is that you're making stupid excuses to cover up even I don't know what. And if I don't that means you're full of bullshit and you know it. But whatever the reason you are lying, it doesn't matter because Rebecca will be here any second." Just as he had finished thinking he heard a knock in the door that he knew couldn't be anyone else but her. Mostly because of the light and nervous knock.
"She's here" Kyle's mind said pointing out the obvious
"And I'm getting it. Stop nagging me." Kyle did as he said and answered the door. And there was Rebecca standing there looking absolutely radiant. Of course Kyle had no idea what exactly had been going on through Rebecca's mind on her way over.
Rebecca Flashback
Rebecca's riding in the car with her father patiently but nervously on her way to Kyle's house. She finds herself thinking again about what Kyle is going to tell her. From what Kyle just said on the phone, she was even more confused than ever. Although now she knew that without a doubt Kyle wasn't cheating on her. He wouldn't be talking about where their relationship is going if he was going to tell her he cheated on her. So what could it possibly be? She racked her mind until she thought of something. What made her think it was something bad? Just because he sounded sore when she first answered the phone? What if it was something good? Something so good that he had an extraordinarily hard deciding it and needed to be somewhere alone to tell her. Or rather… ask her. Could it be? Could her deepest and darkest desire finally come to be? Would Kyle finally ask the question she knew to be legally wrong, but in her heart oh so right? Has Kyle finally gotten the message that she's tried to convey for the past six months? Will Kyle ask her… to marry him? Of course, it had to be that. It all made perfect sense: the nervousness whenever he was around her because he wanted to ask her then but couldn't, acting like he had other plans when he was really picking out a ring, getting a part time job and always asking his parents for money but never seemed to spend any of it. It all drew to the same conclusion: that he wanted to marry her. And now he's going to ask her at his house because he doesn't want to make a big scene. Not to mention he just about insisted that her father come as well so he could ask for her hand. All this thought about marriage made her so happy she was just about shivering in anticipation, so much so that her father seemed worried.
"Rebecca, are you ok? You look kind of nervous and you're shaking too."
"N-no, I'm F-fine f-father. Just a little anxious to get over to Kyle's house. That's all."
"Okay, it's just you know I worry about a lot. You're my little girl, and you know I've always disapproved of you're going out with that Broflovski child."
As he said this a bad thought went into Rebecca mind. What if Father doesn't let me marry Kyle? It's not like we can elope, we're not old enough to get married without consent. We'd just have to wait until we are old enough. It's only four years. Yes, that's what we'd do. Our love will last the test of time. This was the last thought she had before getting out of the car and knocking on Kyle's front door.
Return to Present
"D-do you want to inv-vite me in?"
"Shouldn't we wait for your dad?"
"Oh. O-Okay. Hurry up F-Father." Rebecca said
"Where are your parents, child?"
"My parents are at the store, they should be back any minute now. Please come in."
"Well if you're here by yourself, then we can't stay too long." Rebecca's father was hopeful that they wouldn't come back so they could leave earlier.
"I understand."
They all went into Kyle's living room and sat down. They sat in nervous silence, Kyle with his giant secret, Rebecca with her thoughts of what Kyle's secret was, and Rebecca's father with his not wanting to be there.
Kyle decided to interrupted the silence because with his mindset of 'it's now or never"
"Sir, could I talk to Rebecca alone for about five minutes?"
"Uh, I don't know. I don't think I should leave her alone."
"I assure sir, that nothing will happen or you can personally kick my ass."
Then Rebecca chimed in, "Please F-Father, just five m-minutes." Her father looked at her with concern and compassion.
"Alright, but just five minutes."
So Kyle and Rebecca went to his bedroom to talk, and as they walked both people got more nervous, Kyle with fear, Rebecca with excitement.
Kyle sat Rebecca down on his bed, while he sat on a chair he pulled up to the bed. Kyle was scared to death at this moment and talked very slowly.
"Rebecca… This is hard to say. And I just have to ask you to not say anything. Can you do that please?
Just to show that she understood and acknowledged him she just nodded and listened.
"I don't know how to tell you this or how you'll react to it so I just need to get it out."
Rebecca listened intently with a less sure feeling and a growing sense of concern.
"I just have to let you know that… I'm gay."
Rebecca sat there, her mind just about broken at the news of this, so she couldn't really comprehend what he said. Her eyes looked almost dead and it wasn't until Kyle started talking again that her mind woke up.
"Rebecca, are you okay? Please say you understand. I just hope with what I just said that you can understand that I have to break up with you." When Kyle stated these words, Rebecca's mind and mouth exploded as if the apocalypse was extruding from it.
"W-What d-do you m-mean y-you're g-g-g-gay. H-How c-could you d-do this to m-me you male anal corn-holer! I c-can't b-believe you could tell m-me that you cock muncher."
"Rebecca, please calm down. I just need you be calm so you don't do anything irrational.
"Irrational? Y-You're c-calling me i-irrational? I call y-you irrational for a-asking me to come o-over here and t-telling m-me that you suck man pole!!! Well I j-just have one thing t-to s-say to you, take-it-in-the-assman! FUCK YOU!!!"
Rebecca then stormed out of the room slamming every door she could get her hands on, and sounding like she breaking a few valuables on her way out to. But Kyle could only sit there gawking at the doorway where Rebecca had screamed out those last words. Not caring about the broken items or slammed hinges and didn't even realize that he should be happy that Rebecca's father didn't take Kyle up on his offer. He was not concerned that his parents were going to come home to the mess Rebecca left and rip his ass about. He was just as dead as Rebecca was with only one thought going through his mind.
"If Rebecca took it this bad, how's bad is Stan going to take it?
Will Stan react the same way? Will Cartman's plot come to fruition? What will happen to Rebecca? And will Kyle keep his sanity at his ever increaseingly bad problem?
Find out next Chapter of "Too Late for Love."
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