Harboured Feelings Chapter 2: I Hate You, Snape, a harry potter fanfic

Harboured Feelings

Chapter 2

BellatrixBlackLovett – Snape

Lovettodd - Bellatrix

Bellatrix fluttered her eyesopen the next morning, remembeing all that went on merely hours ago, and suddenly felt sick to her stomach. She sat up in her bed, streched, and decided she had to go take a shower. The thought of her and Snape made her cringe. It was Snape for merlin sake, someone she had hated for as long as she could remember. She hated the idea of him any where in her presence, let alone.. what happend the night before. She slowly stood up, and started walking to her own bathroom, limping slightly. Holy hell, what had happend?

Rolling over in his bed Snape smirked. He sat up and rubbed his head, that sick smile still on his face as he remember what he'd done. Throwing back his covers he crawled from his pit and walked towards the windows before opening them leaning over them, breathing in the cool harsh air. Snarling he turned round to look at his back, cringing to see claw marks and stab wounds in his bare flesh, he'd make Bella pay for them.

She grabbed a black towel out of her vanity drawer, before slowly undressing, starting the water to her shower. She noticed the deep teeth marks and strenches of scratches along her neck, her hips, and turned her body to notice even more along her back. Her breasts were bruised with sucktion marks, and the bruises and scared on her inner thighs, told a story of their own. She shreiked, picking up her bottle of lavender purfume, and whipping it at the mirror.

He had done what no man ever had! He had owned Bellatrix Lestrange...maybe not for long but he'd done it and he was doubtless he'd do it again sooner or later. He had to; he lusted for that woman too much. As he changed he looked over his bare body, claw marks, bite marks and the odd bruises in the worst place possible that pained him. Changing we went downstairs to eat, yet he found he couldn't touch his food; his mind was on her too much. Sighing he got up and pulled on his long cloak, maybe he'd be better off doing something for his new Master.

She stepped into the shower taking the bar of soap in her hand, scrubbing her body untill it was raw. She hated feeling this utter humiliation she had never felt before. it was almost as if she was for once in her whole life.. owned by a man. Well, one thing was for sure. it would never happen again, she couldn't stand it, and she wouldn't.

Suddenly his left arm, his dark mark, burnt. He was being called, the Death Eater's being called..Bella being called. He groaned knowing he'd have to face her again, she was sure to be annoyed with him. Picking up his pace he wrapped himself deeper into his cloak, maybe he could get her again? Own her again. Control her again. Laughing to himself he pulled out his wand and spun on the stop before appearing in front of the location were his Master was placed.

Just as she was finishing changeing, she felt a sharp pain in her arm. It was the Dark Lord.. calling them. Damnit, she would have to face Snape. Well, she would have to one day or another. She would just ignore him.. ah, perfect plan. Act as if nothing happend between them, what-so-ever. She smirked to herself. Aside from being mysterious and beautiful, she was quite a genious if she did say so herself. With a swing of her wand, she was at the engagment.

Turning to move he saw Bella appear not far from him. Shit, he couldn't face her not yet at least. Pulling his hood over his head and walked past her, trying not to be noticed and let himself into a small, rundown house. The stink from inside wrinkled his nose, the smell of rotting flesh. Covering his breathing holes he moved further in the house, looking behind to see Bella come through door. God, what would he do? Making up his mind he turned and grabbed her, pushing her into the wall ''Well hello there dear Bellatrix.'' He smirked into her face. He would get her again.

She looked at him with fury. "Greetings Snape." She said casually, chin up."Can I help you?" She asked. "Or, do you want to let go of me?" She grunted, stomping on his foot with her high- heeld boots. "I reckon the dark lord's arrivel any moment now. So, I getting in bowing position. I sudjust you do the same." She sighed coldly, walking away from him.

''Bowing position?'' he called, smirking lightly ''Right up your street.'' Sighing he pulled off his coat, rubbing his foot before walking into a dimly light room, looking around to find some whimpering, bloodied bodies cowering at his Dark Lord's feet. As much as he wanted this, to be a Death Eater, there came something that he hated..this was one of them. Moving towards his Master he bowed before backing away. He smirked watching Bellatrix bow down too, taking in her looks, her beauty before moving around to stand next to her.

She looked at him, grinding her teeth , before hissing. "What is your deal, Mr. Snape?"Still keeping her eyes on her fire in her eyes, by now she would reckon would be noticeable. "I must admit I'm quite a fan of space, and your ever so rudley violating it!''

''What's my deal? Oh nothing, I thought I'd just stand here nothing wrong with that!'' he smirked, looking at the bodies on the floor ''Well, your space was put to a good cause the last time I saw you.'' Licking his lips he lent into her ear ''Now I just know that even you Bellatrix Lestrange can slip up, like putty in my hand. And for that matter, I quite like it.'' He moved closer to her, wanting so badly to ran his hands all over her back, trying to slim down the pulse in his lower half as he breathed in her musky smell.

She sighed and rolled her eyes. "Snape.. I thought I made myself clear last night. It ment nothing, and I ordered you to forget about it, banished you from talking about it, and yet you continue to talk. Tell me, do you wish to see day light again? If so, I sudjust you back off, and get over what ever you think we are now, because we are nothing. Merely acquaintances, and we wouldn't be at all if it wasn't for the Dark Lord choseing both of us, you and I both know. So, back off me!"

He shook his head and moved behind her, looking around before he trailed his finger up her back ''Oh no Bella, you can't stop me, you can't take that memory away as much as my might try.'' He moved his body closer to hers his eyes wondering at the bodies making him gag slightly ''Anyways, no matter what I shall get you again Bella, even if I have to grab you now and take you..I will get you again.'' Maybe he was pushing too much but he was, if anything, starting to like her temper and fiery ways with him.

That was it. She turned around, sharply slapping him across the face. "You will not tell me what you are to do with me, nore will you threaten me again!" She whispered loudly. "I am not your toy! And if you think you will have me again, I strongly advise you to get to know the reality, the facts. Would you like me to refresh your memory?! I hate you ! And we are nothing! At all, done deal, the end!" She sneered with anger. "I'm not sure what's so damned hard to understand with that statement, and i'm not entireley sure why you think it's a good idea to piss me off, and think you can play games. Your obviously not educated in what I could do to you, but your days of figureing out just that are numberd I'm sure."

Holding his cheek under his hand he sniggered before grabbing her arm and pulling her from the room. The bitch wouldn't get away with that! She'd bullied him since he could remember and now it was his turn for payback. Slamming open the back door he kept pulling her, wondering what to do before smirking and heading for the forest. If she really was the great witch she made herself out to be then she wouldn't pass on a duel ''Well Bella.'' He said slamming her into a tree and pushing his hand against her throat ''Let's get one thing straight shall we. Yes we may not be together, as such, but you'll just come crawling back for more..and either way I shall have you again.'' Suddenly he locked his lips with hers, sighing against her mouth before pulling back and hitting her face ''Now that was for what you just done to me.''

Angered greater than ever, she gasped, spat in his face, and braught her knee up between his legs, before sniggering. "How many Bloody times do I have to waste my breaths telling you, Snape? No one fucks with me!" She kicked his side as he lay on the ground. "No one.." She made to run away.

Coughing he grabbed her leg and slammed her to the floor before leaning over her ''I will fuck with you Bella!'' he snarled into her face ''You just don't get it that some people you will have pissing bow down to, and one of them is me!'' he grabbed her hair before pushing his lips against hers and grabbing her leg with his spare hand. He'd have her there and then and she wouldn't be able to do a thing about it. He picked up his wand and placed it against her head before pushing his body against hers ''Bow down for me Bellatrix.'' He whispered.

"Fucking cheeky bastard!" She muttered. "I hope you rot in Azkaban." She felt down for her wand, and noticed it wasn't in its usual location. hesitating, she looked around, and seen it laying on the floor of the forest, so many feet away from her. Shit, she was fucked. literally. She decided it would be wise to continue her big-bad-witch act, regardless on if she had her wand or not. "And If I don't.." She whispered.

''If you don't then I shall make you.'' He whispered running his hands under her skirts ''Anyways I'm sure you'll be in Azkaban long before me sweet, you seem to making yourself public since the last meeting. The point of being a follower of the Dark Lord is to not get caught! Idiot!'' He grabbed her neck lightly and pushed his face right next to hers ''Like I said Bella. Bow down for me.''

"I rufuse!" She spat, feeling less and less sure of herself. Now how the hell was she supposed to get out of this one?. "Why don't you just leave me alone Snape.. huh?" She sighed, feeling powerless. "I'm not interested.. honestly, go abuse someone else!"

Grabbing the front of her corset line he laughed in her face ''Refuse all you like Bellatrix it is still going to happen. And you want it to just as much as me.'' He lay onto her more so she couldn't move, smirking as he lent down and kissed along the top of her chest line before tugging slowly at her corset before ripping at it till it fell down under her breasts ''That's better!'' he smiled before pushing his tongue along them.

She felt herself flush. "You know damn well it isn't true.." she muttered, trying despratley hard to free her arms. "Your such a damned horny pervert," she wrenched. "Get the hell off me!" She tried to push him off her, but he was too strong. "Your skum! I hate you. for fuck sakes, you fucking moron!" She was so angry now, he was again proveing she was week, and proveing to do exactly what he said she was going to do, despite he reluctance. She wouldn't have this not again..

He shook his head not bothering to take him her words as he fully took off her corset before leaning his head against her bare chest before looking up to her ''Oh do hush Bella. I maybe a pervert but I'm doubtless you'll join after a while.'' He smirked before he let his teeth play with a plump breasts, toying with them lightly, he'd get her after sometime..she wouldn't want to be owned once again. Running his hands up her skirts he played with her through her underwear before smirking ''Why dear Bella, your wet already!'' he laughed lifting up his fingers.

She whimpred. Shit. he had her. But she wouldn't give in that easy. "My ass I will join.." she whispered. "You may be able to make me play your sick games.. but you can't make me enjoy it!"

''The more for me then.'' He sniggered before running his hands over her breasts then down to her skirts which he began to slowly easy off. Course he'd have her, he always did to begin with..she wasn't refusing anything, she'd given up.

She lay there, as she felt her clotheing become less and less, trying to figure out what to do. The way she saw it, she had two choices. Lay there, and make him feel powerful while he had his way with her, or, make an effort to reach for her wand, and the later was sounding more and more suitable by the second. In a flash, she shot up on her feet, and ran to the other side of the forest, retreaving her wand, and pointing it towards Snape.

He laughed and laughed at her as her wand faced him ''How silly you do look Bella!'' he sniggered pointing at her ''What you're going to kill me whilst your half naked? Well, that's a first.'' He stood up and walked around her ''See the thing is I really don't get you Bella. One minute your gagging for it the next you want to act the big Death Eater who bends over to anything the Dark Lord says.'' He sniggered before pushing his own wand into her back ''Now no one likes a two-faced person.''

She laughed coldly and flushed, "It's nothing you havn't seen before, so in all honesty I don't realy give a fuck. It's funny you should say no one likes a two-faced person, because no one likes a hypacrate either!" She spat. "And yes, i'm willing to do anything for the Dark lord, unlike you, I cherish my posission in this group, and will do anything in order to stay put." She sighed and looked down. She then continued in her oh-so-irratating baby voice "I could kill you Snape, but then, where would the fun be in that?"

''Ohh Bella. Such big girl words, yet they seem funny slipping from your mouth. You're totally worthless and yet oddly I seem to like that about you. I have no idea why. I mean I could kill you too, but you're pointless to me when you're dead.'' He run his hands round and grabbed both her breasts ''Now you see since you own my lower part Bella I think I may own these, you don't really need them for anything.''

"For fuck sakes Snape, you never know when to quit!" She yelled. "crucio!" She called. Smirking to herself when he fell on the ground. "Leave me alone!, fuck! I'm not jokeing with you, I will seriously kill you!" She sounded very serious, something she never thought she could be. "I swear to you.."

Coughing into the floor he frowned ''Kill me then, won't be my loss!'' he groaned and lay on his back, the pain still screaming throw his body ''Go on Bella. Do it!'' he looked at her, locking his eyes with hers. He smirked a little, his eyes flicking over her breasts before he titled his head back, breathing lightly.

She glared at him. "Here I have you, laying on the ground, at my feet, with death looking you in the eye, you still seem to think I want you?" She scoffed. "Now, I knew you were some-what smug, liked playing my games.. and atemptign to defeat me, and failing to the extream i might add." She paused. "But never in my life have I thought of Serverus Snape as dumb. She scoffed and put her want saftly tucked away, kicking him in the chest with her boot. "Untill now."

''Like I said Bella, do it!'' he laughed again and again, wanting to make it get to her. Standing up, rubbing his chest he walked towards her, his arms open ''Though I don't think the Dark Lord will be too happy that you killed one of his Death Eaters.'' Moving closer to her again he made his lips hover above hers, smirking once more ''Not to happy at all.''

She looked at him. With thoes dark dangerous eyes, so very unreadable. "Well, I'm sure once he's found that you practically violated me," she paused as she looked away. "He would deam it only appropriate." She gave him a bitter look before continuing. "But it is all to risky, so maybe I should just notify him, and he can do the rest." She smirked at him, and raised an eye brow.

''I doubt the Dark Lord will bother picking up after you.'' Leaning in closer he trailed a finger over her cheek bones. Those eyes, so dark and powerful. If anything they pulled him towards her more, he wanted to know what her eyes had seen. Smirking he too raised an eyebrow ''But, at the end day, you'll be the one in trouble..with your future husband.'' Licking his lips he ran another finger over her collar bone, sighing harshly.

She grabbed the hand on her face with her own. She sighed. "Do you ever give up?" she breathed as she pushed him into the tree, crashing her lips with his. She quickly moved to his trousers. "How do you think i feel, ?!" She all but yelled. "This is wrong, I know it is, but you, your just so- Damn you!"

''Course I don't give up.'' He muttered before pulling her face up to his, kissing her harshly, biting at her soft flesh. Sneering he ran his hands up her back, clawing at her it lightly before deepening his nails into her skin ''I doubt you want me to give up too Bella. And maybe it's not as wrong at it seems.'' How he loved the way he could play her about. It had to mean something, right?

"You know damned well I do, Snape" She squeaked out, whimpering when she felt hit nails. "That hurt you little fuck!" She gasped, before going fo rthe laces of her dress. "You wanted to do this, so enough with the Bull Shit." She pushed him down and straddled his waist, she felt up his muscular stomach and chest, with her slender fingers, pressing her hips to his, while still fully clothed.

Laughing cruelly he went for her skirts, tugging at them. She lied, she wanted him too. Just as much as he needed her. He let out a tiny moan as her cool finger ran over him and her hips rolled against hers. Grabbing her hair and yanking her neck down he kissed her again and again, one of his hands coming round to cup one of her breasts.

She let a noice escape somewhere between a gasp and moan. "Have I told you how much I hated you, Snape?" She whispered breathlessly, needing him, now. She went to his trousers once again, noticing that all-too-familiar buldge in his pants. She tugged at his belt, and un-did his zipper, exposeing his rock-hard-member.

''And have I told you that I hate you more?'' he sighed before pushing over her, making sure her back slammed into dirt below before moving his mouth over her lips lightly, making their way over her neck to her breasts. How he pulsed for more, needing more, as he lent down and licked over her breasts, sucking her nipples into his mouth, moaning lightly as he ran his hands once again to her skirts, pulling them off fully.

Already she felt her heart racing. With a growl, she grabbed his waist, forcing him towards her. She hissed when she felt his skin against hers. She then pushed him back, diving into his face, devouring his mouth with hers, again, and again. "On the contrary," she breathed. " I hate you more than anything."

Kissing her back he gripped onto her tighter and tighter, squeezing deep into her hips. His breathing had become ragged and harsh. Grabbing her breasts in his hands be squeezed them tightly, running his fingers over her nipples, smirking against her cheek ''Whatever you say dear Bella.'' He groaned, pushing down onto her chest.

She gasped and tillted her head back, before giving him a sour look, and biting deep into his neck, as powerful as possible. "Don't get smart with me.." She panted. "I know how to fuck with a man's head." She gave an evil smirk.

''And a man knows how to fuck you!'' he snarled as she bit into him, raising his hand to hit her but pulling back. Why did he do that? He should've beaten her for that. Leaning over her more he sighed and wrapped her soft hair around his fingers before leaning in and kissing her lightly. His hands finally got off her skirts leaving him to run his hands up her open legs, teasing her through her underwear.

She sighed and looked up, with plead in her eyes. "I know.." she whispered softly.. "then," she kissed up his neck, then stopped at his ear, before sucking his ear lobe. "show me."

Tilting his head he leaned over her, kissing her lips lightly, making sure he covered every part of her beautiful, ruby red lips. He was becoming soft, and if he wasn't mistaken so was Bella! He ran a finger over her cheek before moving to kiss down her stomach, becoming harder and harder by the minute.

Her breath quickned, and her chest heaved as he got got closer and closer to her. She tried to hold back a throaty moan and failed. She watched closley as he trailed light kisses down her was getting all to passionate, and she wasn't sure what to think of it.

He stopped as he reached her underwear, pausing lightly before kissing over the top of the material. Kissing the inner of his legs he looked up before sliding down her dark knickers. Sighing he lent down again and kissed her all over her entrance, wrapping his fingers round hers.

She closed her eyes before snapping them back open, when she felt his hot breath on her entrence. "What- what are you doing?" She asked, her cheeks uncharacteristicly flushed. She looked at him with question in her eyes, she felt embarassed, and she hated it.. she had never felt it before.

''Why Bella, don't you want me to do it?'' he muttered, looking up at her for a few moments before going back to kissing her and after a while letting the tip of his tongue join in too. He ran his heads over her legs, pushing them gently apart, moaning against her.

She moaned, and gripped onto the trees on either side of her with her nails, scrapping down the bark. she squeezed her eyes shut, and let her mouth dangle open, resisting a "More, do it more!" She gripped onto his sholder. "No, its just-'' she was cut off by her own deep sigh.

Smirking he let his tongue trail over her, licking at her folds before pushing into her. He whimpered, gripping onto her legs wanting more and more and he began to lick around her, lapping up her fluids causing him to groan loudly his lower half screaming for more.

She moaned again arching her back, this time digging her nails sharply into his back, she started to pant, quite heavily, and felt like she could release any second, infact, she didn't know how much longer she could hold back. She didn't care for Snape at all, but, she should tell him. "Snape!" She gasped out "I think I'm gunna-"

Looking up he pulled away from her, panting lightly before shaking his head ''Oh no, not yet Bella.'' He whispered kissing her again before moving himself between her legs before sliding deep into her, gasping out loud as he began to move deeper into her.

She was so close already, that this sensation was close to unbearable. She didn't know what to do, infact all she could was grip him tight, and move with him. The bliss, it was certainly taking over her body as he became deeper and deeper. For a breif second, she thought she might pass out.

Breathing heavily he held her, moved deeper into her once more his pace quickening. His eyes rolled into the back of his head as he became closer and closer, wanting to fill her up so much. Sweat crept off his body onto hers making her body become slippery helping him even more.

She gripped his sholders and drove her hips into his, with every thrust he gave, screaming in pleasure. She knew this was coming to an end, and she wanted to make it last for ever. She pulled in and kissed him hard on the lips, while still moving her sweat-covered body with his.

He kissed her back, licking along her lips as he pounded into her. Her screams, her pleasure pushed him over the edge making him scream out till finally he burst inside her, his fluids rushing into her making him push deeper into her more wanting this never to last. With his Bella.

She screamed the loudest she had, and jumped slightly when the black birds flew out of the tree, as she reached her destination. She lay limp for moment, catching her breath. She looked around the forest, feeling slightly light headed. She looked at Snape who was practically collapsed on her, never in her life thinking this would ever happen, that this would ever become of their hogwarts hatred towards one another.

Panting heavily Snape shut is eyes tight and held onto her waist, not wanting to move, not wanting to go back to the life he knew. Shaking his head he tried to push such thoughts from his head, it was him and Bellatrix for God sake! They had to hate each other, not be like this. Whimpering he looked up to her, a weak smile on his face as he leaned back from her, catching his breath.

She lay for a moment, with snape practically collapsed a'top her, she thought again, how all their petty disputes back as children, never in a million years would she think this, right here, in the middle of the forest, drenched in eachothers sweat, would become of it. It was absurd! She almost laughed, almost. She looked up at him, and gave a weak smirk. "If I didn't know any better, I'd say you were getting soft on me."

''You wish.'' He laughed crawling up to kiss her lips lightly before falling back onto her body, his arms and legs weak and heavy. Slowly he turned so his back was on her stomach, looking around for a few minutes, taking in what had just happened ''And it wasn't all me going soft, thank you!''

She was silent for several minutes. "Well.." she paused. "I think we, ah-, we should really get back soon.." she trailed off. "And get off me" She chuckled, pushing his sholders forward and sitting up.

''Maybe we should..guess we're wanted.'' He smiled at her before getting up and slowly pulling his clothing. He turned to look at her as she too got dressed, watching her with his baring eyes. Smirking he went behind her and chuckled ''Guess we're still to hate each other then?'' he licked his lips before kissing her harshly on her neck.

She sighed softly at the contact. "Well, I'd guess so.." she smiled. She opend her eyes wider and gave a snort, still doing up her dress. "Unless your up for another go, I advice you to cut it out!" She giggled lightly. "And before you give your two cent smart-ass reply that's not an option."

''Me? Smart- ass comment, never!'' he smirked before leaning his head onto her shoulder ''Bella, that option is mine to take, thank you.'' Laughed he kissed her neck again before pulling away doing up the back of her dress. Finally he turned and began walking off, stopping after a while, his hand out stretched for her.

She looked at him once, and thought for a moment, before taking his hand in hers. One thing was for sure, Bellatrix Lestrange had alot of deep thinking to do. And as for Snape and her relationship went, she wasn't sure how she felt anymore. It's somthing that scared her in a way.

Walking back up with her to the house he turned before looking to her, pushing her against a wall ''Look, what are we going to do? I mean, this is me and you for God's sake!'' he sighed, turning his head. Yes he liked her but he still hated her. Looking at her again he pulled her chin up to his ''I just don't know Bella.''

She sighed deeply and looked away, breaking from his grip. "I dont know." She spoke. "This, I-" She was lost at words. "This was never supposed to happen. I was trying to make that sexual encounter iceolated, so it wouldn't come down to this." She walked back and forth gripping her hair. "We can't.. I can't do this"

''What because of your husband?'' he snorted before taking one of her hands ''All them years of hating you, wishing you dead, then this happens!'' Starting to walk around himself, looking at her every so often trying to make sense of this all ''God Bella, why did this happen to us of all people?!''

She stopped in her trails at that remark, ignoring the first. "I don't know." She whispered. "I really don't" She started walking towards him. "Maybe there's meaning behind this.. somewhere. If we looked hard enough, maybe we could make sence of it."

''I've made sense of it already.'' He muttered pulling her to him, brushing a strand of hair from her face, his breathing deep as he leaned into her ''I just don't know Bella.'' He looked over her for a few moments, thinking to himself ''What do you want? At the end of the day you are Bellatrix Lestrange, I guess.''

She chuckled lightly, leaning into him. "Well, it looks as if you've done your homework Snape, I am indeed Bellatrix lestrange, I get what I want, when I want it. No questions asked. But, at this rate.. I don't even know what it is I want anymore." She looked at him once more, before disapearing around the corner, and back into the house.

Me and Symonie thought we'd mix it up a bit for Bella and Snapey. I kind of like it if I'm honest, though you cannot beat them punching the shit out 'a each other..mwaha!
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