***I do not own SWAC. Again please review! ****

CPOV

Sonny had been thrown up against me and I had gone with my first instinct to protect her and wrapped my arms around her. It was completely dark and I couldn't really see that well. But I could feel that she was shaking and burying her face in my shoulder.

"Sonny?" I asked

Silence

"Sonny? Are you O.k.?" She was starting to worry me; Sonny has never been this quiet.

"I'm fine, I just need a moment" She didn't loosen her death grip on my shirt so I just kept on holding her. I have to admit it felt nice to have her all snuggled up close to me like this. It was perfect like she belonged there... or something like that. I just wished she would tell me why she was so scared. Was she afraid of the dark? Or had this situation just freaked her out? Or maybe, the arrogance in me said, this is just an excuse to be in CDCs arms. I laughed and shook my head at that last thought; even I had to admit it was wrong, Sonny was really freaked out.

"Sonny come on you can tell me what's wrong I won't laugh or make fun of you- too much" I said trying to make her laugh. She giggled

"I umph ooocas ween ofraid puv mall paces" She mumbled into my shirt.

"Uh you're going to have to repeat that. And in English please" Another giggle she lifted her head up and even though I couldn't see it I felt her looking at me

"I have always been afraid of small spaces, since I was a little girl" She whispered. I sensed there was more to this story but I didn't want to push her. Maybe if I was patient she would tell me.

"My dad was… he wasn't a very nice man when he was drunk, he would get so angry I used to go and hide in the closet in my room. We used to be best friends but then he got laid off from work and couldn't find a job. He said that he felt like he was letting us down. As the days went by the drinking got worse and worse until he was always drunk and I was always hiding in the closet. One day he was looking for me and I wouldn't come out." She stopped and I suddenly wasn't sure I wanted to hear the rest of this story; it was doing weird things to me. Making me furious at her dad, a man I had never met and now never wanted to, it made me want to hold Sonny forever and make sure no one could hurt her ever again. But the talking seemed to calm her; I gently rubbed her back waiting for her to continue.

"He found me in the closet; I was so scared I had never seen him that angry before. When he saw me first I saw relief on his face then anger. He reached in and grabbed me around my throat pulled me out and yelled at me. Then he threw me in the closet, shut the door and barred it yelling 'If you like it so much in there why don't you just stay in there?' I cried and banged on the door it felt like the walls where caving in on me I thought he would never let me out. It felt like forever before my mom came and got me out. She had been at work and had notice the stuff in front of the closet when she got home. She hurried up and opened it…. She told me she would never forget the look on my face it was so expressionless like I had died. She tried to get me to talk and tell her what happened but all I would do was stare. When my dad came home, I guess he had left the apartment, my mom confronted him. They argued back and forth until my dad reached out and hit my mom. I couldn't even react. My dad stormed off and my mom packed up our bags and we left moved back to Wisconsin. It took my mom three weeks to get me to talk again. Ever since I have been terrified of small spaces I usually never ride elevators, ha I picked a great day to start riding again"

"Oh my god Sonny I'm so sorry" I hugged her close to me I wonder if she even realized how hard she was crying. Again weird emotions were conflicting inside me sadness, anger, and another I didn't even recognize. I slide down to the floor and pulled her onto my lap, she must be scared because she didn't even object she just curled up in my arms. "Let's stop talking about this depressing stuff let's talk about something else, umm how was your day?" This made her laugh

"Oh believe me my day wasn't much better than that story" She said as she tucked her head under my chin.

"Why what happened?" I asked after being momentarily distracted by having her close.

"Well first the Fro-Yo machine was out of order"

"Oh what a tragedy" she giggled again and I smiled

"I know right? Then we had to do this karate sketch that took all day and wore me out" She said in a matter of fact voice, I shook my head at her

"Yep you're right what a hard life" She paused briefly

"Then I found James and Tawni making out in my dressing room" I tensed under her and felt my mouth drop open.

"WHAT"

"Yep my boy friend and best friend were getting it on behind my back. How original, so I broke up with him and stormed out"

I was speechless, she was right her day was just as tragic as that story. But instead of feeling bad for her my brain latched onto one idea, Sonny was now single. She broke up with James which meant she was free after all of these months. Maybe now wasn't the best time to tell her how I felt but I've waited long enough already, and even if she didn't want to be in a relationship right now at least she would finally know the truth, and I may never get an opportunity like this again; I opened my mouth and took a deep breath, now or never.

"Sonny I-"

"You know what's funny I didn't even cry. I never loved James I love- uh someone else"

"WHAT" I felt like I had been punched in the gut here I was about to admit my feelings to her and she was mooning over some other guy? I shifted her out of my lap to the floor next to me while keeping my arm around her needing space but still wanting to comfort her. Damn it why can't I just be a complete jerk and blow her off?

"CHAD!" She exclaimed and dug her face into my shoulder scouting closer.

"Stop it! What the guy you like can't be here so you're just using me as a substitute?" I knew what I said was mean and wrong Sonny really was scared but dang it I was hurt. I really liked this girl and she was sitting here in the dark probably imagining I was someone else.

"Wait….. Chad are you…. jealous?" I felt her head shift to look at me.

"No I am not and dang it stop touching me" Sonny grabbed my face (I'm not sure how she found it in the dark) and held me still

"You are so stupid; I'm not sitting here imagining the guy I love" She whispered, I clenched my teeth

"Oh great that makes me feel so much better thank-" She put a hand over my mouth, stopping my sarcastic rant

"Because the guy I love is sitting here with me" I was shocked speechless she moved her hand off my mouth and ran her fingers through my hair. Did Sonny just say- no she couldn't have- but-

"I love you Chad Dylan Copper"

And then she kissed me.