I walked into the Great Hall and went straight to Blaise and Theo with Blaise next to me and Theo across. As I was putting dinner on my plate Blaise started speaking to me.

"Hey man, where you been? We haven't seen you since lunch." He said, looking at me through narrowed eyes.

"I was down by the lake. You know how I go there to be alone and think."

"True, true." And with that he went back to his food. I took the chance to look up at the Gryffindor table. They were all laughing, joking, having a good time. All accept two in particular.

Hermione and that boy, Seamus Finnigan, were the only ones that seemed to not be enjoying themselves. Both kept looking at the empty space next to Seamus, and then they would share a look, and then go back to eating. I guess that's where Dean would sit, seeing as he was Seamus's best friend too. Before Hermione looked down I could see her eyes brimming with tears. She threw down her fork making a loud noise, drawing everyone's attention to her. I saw Ginny ask if she were alright but she just ignored her, picking up her stuff and leaving the Hall.

Whispers broke out through the Hall after she left. Her friends all looked confused but they just shrugged it off and went back to their conversations. Gits. I looked at Seamus who was looking at the door in worry. He looked down at Dean's empty seat before patting it and following Hermione out the Hall.

"What the hell was that about?" Blaise asked, still looking at the door.

"I don't know, but she seemed really upset." Theo replied, going back to his food.

"Hey guys I'm going to turn in early. I didn't get much sleep last night." I said, standing up.

"Ok." They said simultaneously. I walked out of the Great Hall. As soon as the doors closed behind me I ran all the way to the Heads common room. I calmly said the password (Jelly Belly) and when I saw Hermione was not in the room I rushed up to my bedroom. When I was safe in my locked room I made myself comfortable on my bed and got out the journal. I stared at it for about five minutes before I finally opened it.

Dear Calvin,

In the last entry I forgot to mention that I was Head Girl. Well guess who Head Boy is. Draco Malfoy. And this may come as a shock, but I'm not surprised in the least.

At this my eyebrows shot into my hair line.

He has always had the second highest score in all my classes. As Heads we have to share a common room. At first I thought it was going to be horrible. We've always been enemies, fighting whenever we saw each other. But then he did something I never thought I would ever see him do. He apologized. Draco Malfoy apologized. He said he was sorry for all the mean things he did to me over the years and for calling me Mudblood. And I knew he was sincere. How? I looked at his eyes. I always believed that you could tell if a person is lying or not if you look at their eyes. So I forgave him and we started anew.

Seamus has been avoiding me. Not anymore, but he was. Every time I got near him he would turn and go the other way. I knew it had something to do with Dean. The three of us were so close, always together during the summer. There was also Luna, the forth member of our golden group. It was always four of us against the world. We all knew each other before Hogwarts, just didn't know we were all magical. There were so many good memories before this stupid war.

I got Seamus to talk to me last night. I was walking outside, wanting to sit in the pouring rain. When I got there I saw him, sitting under the oak tree. Suddenly I felt really angry and stomped to where he was sitting. When I was right next to him he looked up at me. When he saw it was me he stood up and tried to walk past me but I blocked his way.

"Why are you avoiding me?" I asked, raising my voice over the rain. He shook his head and gently pushed me out of his way. As he walked towards the castle I yelled at him. "You promised me! You promised you would be there for me until the day you die! Remember that?! When you gave me your penny necklace!" At this he stopped but didn't turn. I continued.

"Remember when you found that penny in the street, heads up, and Dean told you to pick it up because it was good luck. You were so excited and carried that penny everywhere. And anything that happened to you that was good; you would get so excited and say that it was the magic from the lucky penny. You would drive us all nuts, talking about that penny all the time. Then when Calvin died you put that penny on a necklace and gave it to me. You said that you would always be there for me, and that giving that penny to me was a way to show it. You promised! Why are you breaking that promise!" I screamed.

"BECAUSE IT HURTS!" He roared, spinning to face me. "Every time I see you, or Luna, or his empty bed next to mine in the dorm just reminds me of him! Every morning I wake up and expect to see him in the bed next to me, and when I don't I remember that he's gone! Never coming back! He's not there to talk muggle sports with, to make jokes with, and to laugh with! He was my other half, and now…now he's gone." With each sentence he stepped closer until he was right in front of me. Tears were running down his face but they were hardly noticeable with the rain running down his face.

"You're not the only one." I whispered, also crying. "I miss him as much as you do. Remember, we use to always say 'the four of us against the world'. And even though he may not be here on earth, he's still watching over us. You know what I use to say."

"Every time someone dies they become a star in the sky." He responded, looking through the rain to the stars.

"Exactly. He's another star in the sky now. He's up there with Calvin, Sirius, Remus, Tonks, Dumbledore, and so many more. They're all looking over us. They're our guardian angels. Seamus, you are the only person I have left who knows me. Who I can trust with anything. Please, please don't leave me. You're my brother. I need you." He looked at me for a few minutes before pulling me into a hug. Calvin, for the first time since the war I had never been happier. I realized that I wasn't completely alone.

The last words he said to me that night were, "You will always have me, Hermione. I will never abandon you again. I promise. And this time, I will not break that promise." And we just stood there, hugging, in the rain for an hour until we had to go back inside before curfew. You should have seen Draco's face when he saw me come in soaking wet. It was priceless.

For the first time in a long time I didn't have a nightmare. I dreamt of the time you had first made spaghetti tacos. I was eight years old. Luna and I had been watching iCarly while the boys were outside playing soccer. You came down the stairs just as Spencer was saying something about spaghetti tacos and you ran into the kitchen. An hour later you yelled dinner was ready and when we saw what you made we screamed. They were sooo good.

Somehow Seamus got spaghetti on his forehead and when I mentioned it to him he flicked it, causing it to hit Dean right in the face. Of course Dean thought he did it on purpose so he threw some Seamus threw some back it hit me instead and that meant war. Al of us got into a food fight and by the time Mum and Dad got home we were covered in sauce and spaghetti, along with the kitchen. Oh were they pissed. We spent two hours cleaning it up but we couldn't stop laughing the entire time.

Hmm I miss those days. The days full of laughter and joy. Now my days are filled with sadness. It went from the five of us to only me and Seamus. I hardly talk to Luna anymore because she's so busy with Blaise. I just want one day, one day, where I can be happy. When will I get my one day?

Your sister,

Brown Eyes

I closed the journal and put it in my bedside table draw. So that's why she came in all wet. Huh. I got up and changed into my pajamas before getting into bed. My last thought before I went to sleep was, I would give her that one day of happiness.

What do you think? You like? You got some more back story out of this one. In the next on I'll say how Hermione and Luna first met.