Three months, one week and four days.

Rachel's eyes fluttered a bit as she heard the sound of Lexi's laughter fill the apartment. She took a deep breath as she shifted the smallest amount in the love seat that sat in there bedroom facing the window. She continued to stare through the window out into the city as she had for two months now. She heard his foot steps as Finn walked over to the room. He stopped and sighed as once again, there was no progress. He began to make his way over to Rachel, Lexi directly at his side. He stopped just before he reached her as Lexi tugged on his pants and whispered, "Daddy is mommy better today?"

Finn fought back the tears as he had each time she asked him that, he gave her a half smile kissing the top of her head, "Why don't you go say hello to mommy and then we'll go get dinner ready together."

She smiled up at her dad and quietly walked over to where Rachel was sitting, "Mommy I drew you a picture today." She smiled as she handed a white piece of paper over to Rachel.

Rachel looked up at the beautiful little girl who stood in front of her. Lexi was four years old now. Her long brown curls fell loosely down her face to her back. She had the sweetest dimples, just like Finn. And dark chocolate brown eyes just like Rachel. She grabbed the paper from her tiny hands and placed it next to her. She nodded turning back around to look out the window never glancing down at Lexi's drawing.

Finn nearly broke down when he saw the disappointment and hurt on Lexi's face. She starred at her mother hopeful, but nothing. He cleared his throat and motioned for her to walk back to him. Lexi walked over slowly towards Finn, "I don't think she liked it."

Finn leaned down and grabbed her tiny face in his hands, "Lexi Q Hudson, your mother loves you and everything you draw for her okay? Mommy just isn't feeling well today."

Lexi nodded and smiled at Finn, "When will she get better daddy? She's been sick for a long time now?"

Finn stood up straight looking over at Rachel, "I wish I knew Lex. Why don't you go wash up and we'll make your favorite food tonight. Okay?" He winked down at his little girl as she smiled and ran off.

He made his way over to where Rachel was, taking a seat next to her.

They were both silent. Finn shook his head before turning to Rachel a frustrated tone in his voice, "She worked really hard on that Rach. She loves you so much. You can't keep this up. I know its never going to be okay, but, you can't do this to us, to her, to me, she needs you. I need you."

Rachel let out a small breath as tears streamed down her face. But she never said a word.

After a few moments Finn stood up and walked out of the room shutting the door behind him.

Rachel let out a small cry as Finn left. She hated herself for what was going on. But she was never going to be the same, she hadn't let go, and she wasn't sure she would ever be able to.

Finn stood on the opposite side of the door resting his head up against it how could one night, one accident ruin everything.

It was late february, as winter was still making it's way through the city. Rachel kissed the top of Finn's nose as the sun peeked through the window. His eyes fluttered open at the warmth of her soft lips. He smiled looking up at the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen. "Morning."

Rachel smiled biting her lip, "Do you have any idea how sexy you sound when you wake up?"

Finn sat himself up a little leaning in closely to Rachel's face, "Not as sexy as you look, I'm sure." He pressed his lips to her as she tangled her hands in his hair. He gently grabbed her waist pulling her closely to him. He flipped her over so she lay on her back as he hovered over her placing soft kisses on her collar bone and making his way down to her stomach. He placed one soft kiss before looking up at Rachel, "And how's my little man doing today?"

Rachel laughed a little, "And what makes you so sure that it's a boy? I am the mother and I am sure she is a girl."

Finn smirked at Rachel before looking down to face her tummy. "Hey buddy, don't listen to your mother. I got your back."

She laughed a little as Finn leaned up to kiss her.

A soft tapping sound broke their kiss as Lexi slowly pushed the door open. She looked into the room and saw that both her parents were awake.

Rachel looked over to see her beautiful little girl standing in the doorway of their bedroom, "Good morning my love."

Lexi smiled brightly as she quickly waddled over, her teddy bear in hand. "Morning Mommy."

She ran over to the bed and reached for Finn to lift her up. He grabbed her in his arms lifting her up over his head and on to the bed.

She giggled as she fell down on to the bed next to Rachel. She snuggled into her arms resting her head on her chest. "Mommy is it Christmas again yet?"

Finn and Rachel laughed at Lexi's hopeful eyes, "Lex, Christmas was just a few weeks ago. We have to wait a whole other year. Don't we mommy?" Finn looked over at Rachel as she brushed back the hairs from Lexi's face. "Daddy's right, we have a long time to wait. But it's okay because it'll go by fast. And there are tons of other things to celebrate while we wait."

Lexi pouted her lips a little. She loved Christmas and she wanted it to be today. "But I want it to be Christmas so Daddy can come and bring us breakfast in bed."

Rachel leaned down placing a kiss on her forehead before looking up at Finn who was shaking his head, "Well you heard her Daddy."

She scrunched her nose as she looked down at Lexi, "Maybe daddy loves us so much that he'll make us breakfast today even though its not Christmas."

Lexi's eyes grew wide as she looked over at Finn a giant smile stretching across her face, "Please Please Please Daddy. Pleaseeeeeeee."

Finn rolled his eyes playfully, "I guess I can make you and mommy breakfast in bed. But I better get a good morning kiss first!" Lexi jumped up and into Finn's arms. She puckered her lips placing a big kiss on his cheek. "Okay. Lets have pancakes. I'll stay here with mommy and we'll watch the snow while we wait."

Finn exchanged a look with Rachel before standing up, "That's your daughter alright."

Rachel smiled pulling Lexi down on to the bed squeezing her tightly, "Yes she is. And mommy loves her so."

"Hey Rach, Bill called and said we don't have to go tonight. We can stay home. It's so cold out and he doesn't want you to be uncomfortable."

Rachel grabbed her coat and scarf, "Finn, I'm fine I'm only five months pregnant. I'm not uncomfortable just yet. Plus we already have the sitter."

Finn sighed as he grabbed his coat, "Are you sure? I mean the house isn't going anywhere, it'll be there tomorrow."

Rachel smiled throwing Finn's scarf around his neck as she pulled him towards her, "Finn. I love you for taking such good care of me, you're such a good husband."

Finn smiled as he leaned down and kissed her.

Rachel sighed as their lips parted, "But I want to go see the house. Pleaseeeee."

Finn rolled his eyes, "Alright you win. We'll go see the house."

Rachel jumped up a little, "Best husband ever."

When Rachel and Finn had gotten married they had already been living together in the city. And when Rachel got pregnant with Lexi soon after, they decided that they didn't want to leave the city but their tiny one bedroom apartment was not going to be big enough. With the help of her dad's, they were able to find a great two bedroom spacious apartment not to far from the Theater Rachel was working at, and a good distance from Finn's office. They loved their apartment. Everyone had come and visited from Burt and Carole to even Santana. They loved the location and they loved that Lexi was going to be able to grow up in the city. Now, almost five years later and a new baby on the way, they had decided that it was time to move into their very own house. A place they could call home and fill with beautiful children.

The sound of the ambulance woke Finn as he tried to focus his eyes. The bright light's shining above him were making it difficult for his eyes to adjust. Just then the sound of the EMT's voice was loud, "He's awake, lets get him stable. Mr. Hudson? Mr. Hudson can you hear me?"

He shook his head a little still trying to focus his eyes, "Where... What happened, where's Rachel?" He tried to sit up a little as the EMT held him down, "Mr. Hudson, there has been an accident we're taking you to Weill Cornell Medical Center."

Finn panicked as he tried to focus on what was going on. He frantically looked around looking for Rachel trying to remember what had happened.

"What happened? Where's my wife, where is Rachel?"

The EMT placed a hand on his chest holding him down forcefully, "Sir we need you to stay down, you've had a mild concussion and it is not safe for you to be moving around so much. Your wife is in the Ambulance next to us."

Finn shut his eyes tightly trying to figure out what was going on. The last thing he remembered was driving with Rachel to the open house when the roads began to get very slick. He was trying to drive as slowly and carefully as he could when a bright light flashed before their eyes.

The doors flew open as Finn looked over and saw Rachel lying in the stretcher next to him unconscious, blood dripping down her face. As soon as he saw her he began to scream her name as he tried to jump off his stretcher and run to her. Two male EMT's got a hold of him, "Sir calm down. Your wife needs to get to a cat-scan, lets get you checked out."

Finn tried to free himself from the grip, "Rachel, whats wrong with her? Is she gonna be okay. Oh my god the baby? Whats gonna happen?"

Tears streamed down his face as he slid down on to the floor. The EMT's stood by as the doctor came out to see him, "Finn Hudson?"

He quickly stood up, "Yes. My wife is she going to be okay? What happened?"

The doctor nodded placing a hand on Finn's shoulder, "My name is Dr. Reid. Dr. Michael's is working on your wife Rachel. They're doing all they can. The accident was pretty bad."

Finn felt his knees start to cave when he heard what the doctor was saying. "Son we need to get you to a room so you can lay down. You were unconscious when we found you so its not safe for you to be standing. As soon as I get word on your wife's condition you will be the first to know."

Finn followed the doctor and nurses into the hospital room. They quickly began to run tests as he impatiently waited for news about Rachel.

About half an hour later, Dr. Reid walked in followed by another doctor. Finn sat up as quickly as his body let him, "Finn, this is Dr. Michael's he's been working on Rachel."

Finn's quickly looked up at the new doctor, "How is she? Can I see her?"

The doctor nodded, "She is stable. She was hit by the airbag. She also hit her head. We've run some test to make sure there was no internal bleeding, and everything looks good. You both are pretty lucky."

Finn's heart slowly started to beat at a normal pace as he let out a sigh of relief, "And the... the baby doctor?"

The doctor sighed, "We're not sure. We'll have to run an ultra sound to check, but Rachel is resting and we need her to rest before we can do any more test.

Finn leaned back in his bed, "When can I see her?"

The doctor motioned for him to follow. As they reached the outside of Rachel's room Dr. Michael's looked back at Finn, "Son, no matter what it wasn't your fault. The driver that hit you both was drunk and he lost control of his vehicle. Don't blame yourself."

Finn said nothing as he opened the door. He walked in to the hospital room and fell to his knee's when he saw Rachel lying there, IV's in her arms and breathing tube in her nose. He managed to make his way over to her resting his head on her chest, tears streamed down his face, "Rachel, baby please wake up. Please."

Rachel's eyes opened a teeny bit as they tried to adjust to the bright lights, she could hear Finn calling her name but everything was a bit fuzzy. She tried to clear her throat to call out to him, "Finn?"

Finn snapped his head up grabbing her hand in his. "Oh thank god." He sat up pressing his lips to her forehead.

Rachel smiled a little when she felt his lips, "Finn you're okay."

He smiled holding her hand tightly, "I'm fine, I'm here."

"The baby? Is the baby okay?"

Finn moved his arm towards her face, as softly as he could, rubbing her cheek with the back of his hand, "They don't know yet, they have to do an ultra sound."

Rachel began to tear up when a nurse walked in, "Rachel, you're awake. How are you feeling?"

Rachel cleared her throat, "I want to make sure the baby is okay. Please do the ultrasound."

Finn looked over at the nurse as she responded to the urgency in Rachel's voice. He looked back down at Rachel wiping the tears from her eyes, "Please don't cry Rach, its gonna be okay. Its gonna be okay..."

Dr. Michaels and the nurse came into the room wheeling in an ultrasound machine. "Rachel. Hello, my name is Dr. Michaels, are you feeling any pain? A head ache, some aching?"

Rachel nodded, "No. I just, I need to know how the baby is?"

The doctor nodded as the nurse began to prep Rachel. "Rachel how far a long are you dear?"

She fluttered her eyes a bit, "About five months or so, I was due for a check up soon."

She looked over at Finn who was holding her hand tightly.

The nurse signaled that everything was ready to go when Dr. Michaels stood in front of Rachel and Finn, "I want you both to understand that sometimes things happen, we're not always going to be able to save everyone. If the results aren't what we are hoping for, you both need to know that there was nothing you could do, and that it was not your fault. You can not blame your self or each other. Rachel, at the stage you're in, things are most delicate around this time."

Rachel and Finn both nodded as she began to cry some more. She looked up at Finn as Dr. Michaels placed medical head phones over his ears and began to move the ultrasound stick over Rachel's belly. Finn looked down at Rachel as he held her in his arms. Her breath began to hitch as she tried to speak through her tears, "He's gonna be okay. He has to be."

She quickly glances up when Dr. Michaels removed the medical headphones from his hears. He looked over at a hopeful Finn and Rachel and his heart began to break just a little, "I'm so sorry. We can't find a heart beat."

Rachel gripped tightly onto Finn's shirt as she cried out. Finn tried to calm her down as tears rolled down his face.

Dr. Michaels excused himself to give them some time.

He pounded his head back on the door as he heard the phone ring. All he wanted was to take it all back, to erase the last few months, to make it all better. It was killing him physically and emotionally a little more each day. Physically because he hadn't kissed his wife in almost two months. Hadn't felt her soft touch, or warm breath on his skin. Emotionally because here he was raising their beautiful daughter on his own. Every day was the same, another day with Rachel and Lexi, and another day without their baby.

Lexi ran towards Finn phone in hand, "Daddy it's Aunt Quinn."

Finn grabbed the phone from her hands taking a deep breath before answering, "Hey Quinn."

"Finn, hey, how are you doing?"

"Same old same old. How are you guys? Puck still at practice?"

"He just walked in actually. We're doing well thanks. I'm just double checking that you'll be able to pick us up from the airport tomorrow? I mean, we don't mind getting a cab."

"Don't be silly, Lex and I will be there right on time."

"If you're sure. We can't wait to see you guys, we miss you."

"Miss you too."

"How's she doing?"

"The same. I'm okay, I can deal with it, I just... Lexi, how do you explain to a four year old why her own mother wont talk to her, or to anyone."

"It'll be okay. Puck will help with Lexi while we're there, you can get some work done and I'll take of her."

"Thanks Quinn. We'll see you tomorrow. Love you guys."

"See you tomorrow."

Finn hung up the phone and made his way into the Kitchen to find Lexi.