AN: Here's the second chapter pleases review I want to know what my readers think of it and I want to thank luvlexi714 for reviewing both stories. This chapter is dedicated to you since you're the one that reviewed my first story and the fist chapter to this one and let me know that my stories don't totally suck.
It was around ten thirty that same day that I walked into Joe's. After spending most of the day crying in mark's arms I thought a drink would help, but of course she had to be there. As soon as I walked through the door my eyes landed on her but just as she was before we started dating after she kissed me in the bathroom she was not alone. She was turned on her stool at the bar facing a brunette who I grudgingly admitted was drop dead gorgeous and I envied her, the position she was in, the privilege of sitting and talking to Arizona without the complications that came with a relationship.
I stood there staring at the duo for another second or two before I went to sit at a booth at the back of the bar, because as much as it felt like a punch to the gut every second I sat there looking at them I couldn't bring myself to look away. My logic might be messed up but I'd rather sit here knowing what they're up to than to go home and have my imagination run wild. But I regretted it the instant I saw the brunette put her hands on Arizona's thigh and leaned forward and whisper something in her ear, I regretted it even more when I saw Arizona smile and grab her hand leading her out of the bar completely unaware of my presence and I felt my heart shatter into tiny pieces. I walked to the bar taking one of the seats they evacuated and called to Joe "I need something strong" and he nodded before getting out a bottle of tequila and pouring me a shot. He placed it in front of me and was about to walk away before I reached over the counter and grabbed the hem of his shirt I quickly downed the shot and said to him "you better leave the bottle" and he looked at me questioningly before I added "I'm not driving Joe" and he flashed me the same look as he did before but he left the bottle anyway and I poured myself another shot and again downed it in one gulp. I winced as the hot liquid
burned its way down my throat and I smiled bitterly it was doing its job, numbing the pain. So I continued shot after shot. I don't know when but I was vaguely aware of Mark coming to get me and taking me home. When we got back to my apartment he changed me and set me on the bed, and as I was drifting off to sleep I felt him brush back a strand of hair from my face and whisper "don't do this to yourself Torres" but I was too far gone in sleep to answer him and even if I wasn't I wasn't sure if I would've answered.
As soon as my eyes opened I regretted it, I squinted against the bright glare of room and I felt a massive pounding in my head. As if answering to my prayers mark strolled in
"Good morning miss sunshine" he said exuberantly and I winced
"Keep it down" I hissed, and he looked at me concern etched on his face
He handed me the pills and the glass of water I just realized was in his hand "here, these should help"
"Thanks" I said as gratefully as I downed them and he lay down on the bed beside me and pulled me into his arms
"What's going on with you Torres?" and I sighed
"It's a long story" and when I said that he turned to face me
"well then it's a good thing we both have the morning off" and I filled him in on the event's from two nights ago to present but oddly enough I didn't cry this time, I just felt………numb and after all that I've been going through recently it was a very welcomed feeling because at this point I would do anything to just. Not feel.
I walked into the hospital that afternoon with the same numbness as I had felt earlier that morning but with a new resolve, if Arizona could get on with her life why couldn't I, if she was going on dates why couldn't I. So I strolled into Seattle grace mercy west hospital with my head held high. I was wearing make-up and my hair was neatly done and I don't mean to toot my own horn but I looked hot.
And it was with that attitude that I got a date with a gorgeous redhead named Nadia that I met in the clinic later that night at eight o'clock. Another reason my day was going well, I had managed to avoid seeing Arizona for the entire day. So all in all I thought as I showered to get ready for my date later today was a good day and I got out of the shower to get ready.
I knocked on the door precisely at eight o'clock and about a minute later the door was opened and my jaw dropped at the sight of my date. Saying she looked amazing was and understatement.
"Hey! Come on in, I just have to get my shoes and we can get going" and I stepped inside her apartment and sat on the couch and waited for her.
When she came back I finally got to study how she looked
Boldly I stood up and took a couple steps so that I was standing right in front of her. I put my hands on her waist and leaned close to her ears and whispered "baby with the way you're looking right now I'm thinking we should skip dinner and go straight to dessert" and as if to make my intentions clearer I grazed her earlobe with my tongue and I pulled back to see her usually gray eyes darken with desire. I crashed my lips onto hers and I felt her respond by deepening the kiss and grinding our hips together
In the back of my mind I couldn't help but think how wrong this felt I couldn't help but think back to her green eyes and how they darkened and think how much more beautiful Arizona's blue ones were and I had another memory, one of last night.
"Don't do this to yourself Torres" I heard mark's voice in my head and that's when I made up my mind.
I separated our lips and peeled Nadia's top off.