Morning.
This morning wasn't too different from yesterday's morning. Almost forgot then remember to charge the batteries in everything and relaxed after a job well done. I watched as Jackson was fishing, he always brought food to the table; he's a good provider like that but man some days it was sad to watch. He struggled as he obviously lost another fish I held back my giggles seeing him red hot mad.
"Jackson!" I called out to him acting as if I was mad at him.
He turned and looks at me confused why I would be upset at him. His look said the question he wanted to know. 'What?'
"Jackson!" I demanded him to come over here.
He just sighed and throws the makeshift fishing pole down in the sand and started walking to me. I couldn't help myself recently I've been watching Jackson in a new way, watching the way he looks as he moves or stand still watching him because he is so beautiful now, well he was always good looking I can't deny that but now I want to look, stare, admire.
"What Taylor?" He huffed.
He fell, sitting down next to me pouting about having such a hard time fishing. He could really use a break, he works so hard for me, us and hardly does he even complain.
"I think you need a nap!" I tell him.
"Ha as much as I would love to, I have to catch some dinner or we'll be eating only fruit for dinner tonight" he explains.
"Look Jackson I hate to tell you this but I think I have to" I say to him.
His face got serious waiting for me to continue.
"Your mood is scaring the fish, okay?" I try to say it in a nice tone letting him down easy. "I'm sorry but really you're in a mood and they feel it"
'You've got to be good, happy or the fish won't come' my dad always told me. 'That's why only happy thoughts, happy talks on the boat and absolutely no-' he would wait for me to finish what he had to say. And I would.
'No crying, yelling, or feeling down' I would say.
Jackson looked at me like I was crazy for believing the mood of the fisher men stopped him from catching fish.
"It's true! The fish feel it in the water, a bad mood travels far" I tell him.
I know it was a bit childish but that was the fishing rules I was taught and no one can take them away from me no matter how childish they are.
"Look go lay down even for thirty minutes and if you're not out of the tent after an hour I'll wake you up and tell you to go catch me some dinner" I nod to him trying to make him say yes. "Jackson your way to stressed to do anything so go I'll get you in an hour" I promised.
He sighed. "I don't know Taylor"
"Ah, Jackson there will still be fish in an hour go, GO nap Nooow, your mood traveling over here and I don't like it. It's sour and just downing" I pout.
"Fine, fine" he puts his hands up finally agreeing.
"Good" I smile.
Finally I've done something right for someone besides myself. Wow! This feels kind of good doing good for another I see why people like it so much. I laugh finally getting doing things for other. As Jackson walked off I watched until he was out of sight I couldn't help myself as I laid back down putting on my sunglasses relaxing I started thinking about Jackson.
He's different from all the guys I've know not so involved in the drama of life but well I guess Jackson is a little bit of drama. When we first got here he couldn't handle being stuck so close to people having to be involved in a group, his past made him want to be a loner and from the little I've gotten out of gossip and little bits from him about his past it's something that's bad really bad. The fact that it's bad really upsets me, I mean yeah I care about people and stuff but I find myself really caring about everything that's hurt him which is not okay. I'm Taylor Hagan I'm not that caring of a person I've never been and that's never bothered me and it still doesn't but I find myself caring way to much about Jackson. This needs to stop he already told Melissa they are gonna be a thing and I don't want to be the girl in the middle of that, this island is too small to be taking other people's toys.
Oh. My. God... I have been such a fool! Damn Taylor what the heck! Melissa of course that's why she been in a mood. I have a crush on Jackson and I know myself good enough to know when I've got a crush girly Taylor me comes out and so does the flirting she saw it and that's why she hates me. EW, I don't wanna deal with that drama. I've just got to back off end of story.
One hour later.
I stood up smiling as I finished the last camp light was done charging. Wake up Jackson time. I walked to the center of camp no one was around thank goodness. I unzipped the opening and saw Jackson curled in the corner of the tent all snuggled up. I walked in finding Jackson asleep so sweet, it's rare sight to see him so defenseless. I don't wanna wake him up so I didn't I left after a moment of watching him and went back to the beach.
Afternoon.
Night was only a few hours away so I gathered all my things up and put them where I'd find them tomorrow.
"Taylor have you seen Jackson?" Daley asks.
I tried to hide my widen eyes afraid she'll see though any lie I try to pull out of the bag.
"No one seen him all day" she stressed. "I'm getting worried and I can't find the fish he caught for dinner tonight"
Damn it dinner! That was why I had to wake him up.
"Jackson?" I ask squeaky.
"Have you seen him?" Melissa asks.
"Jackson yeah, yeahhh" I say as if it were an obvious fact. "Ha- we've been together all day doing stuff" I lie.
Daley squinted her eyes to me and Melissa looked so upset with my lie of being not only the only one who knew where he was the only one he has been in contact with today.
"Oh, okay" Daley says.
"What are you to doing?" Melissa ask holding back some anger. "I mean you two were with each other all afternoon yesterday and now all day today, what are you doing?"
I could totally feel a fight coming if I don't answer this right. Lie fast lie good! Both Daley and Melissa waited for my answer.
"It's, um it's I-it's a um... Surprise!" I lie.
"A surprise?" Daley asks.
"Yep!" I lie again.
Melissa just shuffles off upset as Daley continues to press till I finally just leave.
I was walking back on the beach frantically, throwing my arms around upset.
"I'm gonna get Jackson in so much trouble!" I mutter under my breath. "I told him I'd wake him up and I didn't. Damn it dinner! I have to fix this but how?!"
And then my answer became clear as I tripped over it a bit. I look down to the sand seeing the makeshift fishing pole.
"Ah-ha!"
I made sure the line was in place and added the lure and by half the time it took Jackson I had enough fish piled up for dinner. I didn't stop though if I caught a few more we could over eat a bit which would be nice. I closed my eyes I could almost pretend I was just on a fishing trip with my dad, the water was so calming. After a little longer I got up and pulled an ice chest over to me putting all the fish I just caught in there, it was gross but I've been dealing with gross scaly fish since I was a little girl so I've gotten use to it a bit. I snuck up to camp and put the ice chest full of fish where it belonged where Jackson put it every day and walked off fast to the tent to see if Jackson was up yet. I unzip the opening to still see Jackson sound asleep after all this frustration of today, ling, sneaking around, fearful my mood would make it where I wouldn't caught any fish, it's just been a bad day and Jackson just been asleep in here not dealing with any of it for the first time in forever. I sit down on my sleeping bag observing him. I narrow my eyes to him wishing I was the one asleep all day not having a care having someone else to my job but honestly that's not true. I'm glad I gave Jackson a day to himself I'm glad I could endure all the drama so he didn't have to I'm glad I got off my butt for him doing something for Jackson doesn't feel like such a chore. This is crazy I've never felt this way before and it's ridiculous even I know it's too much drama to be in a commitment with someone of this island... And he likes Melissa. Wow, ouch knowing that hurts real badly.
"I hate crushing" I muttered pouting.
Night.
"Lex dinners ready go get the others!" Daley shouts.
I spring up fast from the sleeping bag, I wasn't asleep I was too afraid to fall asleep because I was deliberately laying next to Jackson as he slept, kind of stalker creepy I know but I falling way to hard and way to fast.
"Jackson, Jackson wake up!" I shake him fast not having time to do this sweetly.
He springs up fast.
"What's wrong?!" He grabbed on to my shoulder to stable himself.
His hand was warm on my skin. I didn't answer I was tongued tied as he was only a few inches from me. He seemed to notice how close he was how close our lips were from each other. This moment was tempting to just give it my all and lean closer and show him I like him but I'm not that brave I need him to make a move to show he won't reject me. He lingered there so closer but so far away at the same time it's was as agonizing as it was pleasurable.
"Taylor dinner ti-" Daley started as she entered the tent.
We both shifted fast catching our breathes, we've been caught doing what I don't know sharing a heated moment with no physical heat.
"Okay!" I chirp and stand quickly leaving the tent.
I sat down quickly regretting fast as I just saw that I am sitting next to Melissa. Damn! My shoulder was tingling as the breeze took away all the warmth Jacksons hand just gave it. The whole dinner was complete awkward silence. Jackson and I didn't say a thing, Daley didn't because she walked in on me and Jackson trying to start something, Melissa was still mad at me so she kept quiet since I was sitting next to her and the few failed attempts at conversation by Nate, Eric and lex ended fast as they caught on that there was too much tension at this dinner table to hold any small talk. When i was done eating I fled to change into my pajamas not to get out of cleaning which was an added bonus don't get me wrong but to mostly get out of that awkwardness. When the cleaning was done I walked out, as soon as I did the boys took their turn changing and then Daley and Melissa changed. I walked in with them trying to make sure Daley didn't spill on the newest addition of gossip of island weekly. I quickly found my sleeping bad across from Jackson and put my head down wishing this embarrassment would just go away. I tried hard to keep my head down as the boys walked in but couldn't help myself to peek up and see Jackson staring at me his face plain. I wish he would smile or frown or something to tell me what he's feeling, AH! Everyone laid down said there goodnights and turned off the lights all except Lex but I didn't have time to care it's not like I'll be sleeping much tonight all my thoughts were racing around.
We almost kissed! Me and Jackson almost kissed how, how? Daley caught us she gonna tell everyone she gonna tell Melissa. Thought she hates me know can't wait and see how she takes this news. Just stop Taylor go to sleep before you obsess too much. But these thoughts haunted me till what I guess it to be one or two in the morning and I almost found sleep till Lex stupid light flashed a bit in my eyes. I rolled trying to ignore it but I couldn't I just want to sleep!
"Lex turn off the light it's late I wanna sleep, go to bed!" I yell.
All the people in the tent jump and Lex froze widen eyes shutting off the light.
"Taylor what the" Eric said groggy.
"Shut up!" Daley whined.
"I'm sorry" Lex says.
"Ah" Melissa huffed.
"Taylor!" Jackson yelled.
"Goodnight!" I say loudly smiling.
The dark was a perfect place to lose myself and I smoothed myself asleep in no time.
Sorry about the chapter being short anyways hope you enjoyed! Please review!