Hey guys thank so much for the instant responce to the first chapter. There will be some drama. As for Spencer some of you may realised that sometimes her prepositions are off and that's for a reason. Me and my lovely girlfriend that happens to be my Beta thought to leave Spencer talk like that because she is Greek and not American.
Chapter 2
Ashley's POV
I believe that you fall in love one time in your whole life. Yes you can meet people along your way. You can love them but you are going to fall in love only one time. If you are lucky enough the other person will love you back. If you are lucky though..
I was a person that I was having fun with people. I hurt many of them but in the end it was my heart that was shattered into pieces. It was me that left broken because someone else hurt me. And I was so sure that this thing would never happen.
I fell in love for the first time and for the first time my heart was broken. Now I did understand how the others felt when they were falling for me and I didn't. Of course I am referring to the one person that made my heart skip but it took it with her when she left me. Spencer..
Her name still hurts when I refer to her. That's why I stopped after some months. I was hurting way too much for that.
Four years and counting.. Four years and five days tomorrow.. But who is counting. Four years away from her. She chose it. I didn't. She walked away one more time but this time I couldn't be there waiting for her. Spencer would never change. She would be always the same and my heart could not bare that. I had to let go and I had to let her go..
It's was hard for me to hate her because I loved her very much. But I had to move on. I had to forget and that's what I did.
After what happened at the last meeting I return back to the states right away. I couldn't stay and why should I? Spencer made her choice and I was making mine.
The entire trip back to the states I was crying. I couldn't hold back my tears. Every time I would say that it would be the last but then I would remember her words and I would cry again. Cry.. Strange.. I don't recall crying before. Last time I cried was when my father died. And that was years before.
She didn't fight for us and what hurts the most is that she didn't even want to try. Like we were nothing. All this guilt trip, the fears she had finally overtook her. She left and she didn't even explain. I understood her love for her parents but what about me. What about us? Clearly I was nothing. I had to let go.
Once I was back in California I didn't go home. I couldn't face Kyla's questions and I needed to be alone. I wanted nothing but quiet. To be alone with my thoughts I rent a room at a hotel and I stayed there for a week. I didn't leave room. After days I called Kyla and told her where I was staying. She wanted answers but I couldn't give her what she was asking me. At least not yet..
I tried to be mad at Spencer. I tried to hate her but I couldn't. I couldn't because I still loved her and that was sad because clearly my love wasn't enough and she didn't love me back. I had to let go.
After two weeks at my hotel and many visits from Kyla I decided to go back home. Kyla stopped asking me what happened the first three days after my call. She knew that when I was ready I would tell her and that I did. When I was ready I told her everything. Kyla and Spencer were good friends but I didn't expect her reaction. She was mad at Spencer. Mad and angry with her as I should be. Her answer to why she was so mad at Spencer was 'you are my sister and I love you'
Time was flowing and day by day I was trying to forget that girl that shattered my heart into pieces. It wasn't easy and it took me months. I left the dorms and I finished college finally. Everything reminded me of her and I wanted nothing more than to forget. Now I had a bachelor degree in music. Not that I needed that but it was something I needed to accomplish.
Without knowing it Spencer was becoming a blur in my mind. I stopped thinking of her. Finally I let go. It was a year after what happened that I was starting to put my life back together. I was giving guitar lessons to kids just for the fun of it. I didn't need the money of course. I just liked what I did. It was that morning that I saw my life change again.
That day I had lesson with John. John was a 15 year old boy who from what I have seen was a talented new musician. Actually he was one of my best students and he wanted to study in Juliard. If he tried hard I am sure they would be happy to have him.
When the lesson was finishing usually his mother would come to get him but that day she didn't. When I heard the knock on my door I came face to face with a young girl with piercing green eyes. She had a smile that was lit up her face. I was standing there just looking at her. It was John's sister. I didn't even know he had a sister. Chloy was her name.
After that day I never saw John's mother again. Chloy would come and get him and every time we would say something more than 'thanks for the lesson.' 'nothing at all' 'I hope he was good'. I learned that Chloy was close to my age. Close. She was a year younger. Not even a year. 10 months. She studied Psychology at UCLA and it is strange how I never seen her before. Chloy was easy to talk. She had that aura that calmed you whenever you were near. It was like I knew her from before.
After four months of just talking at my door I asked her if she wanted to go for a coffee. Of course I didn't assume she was gay or something. I just wanted to hang out with her. Even as a friend.
One coffee became two and then three and then a movie or plans to eat in a restaurant. I was starting to like her as more than a friend though. She had something that was pulling me closer to her. Till then we never discussed relationships. She never asked about mine and I never asked about hers. Not until one night we were out for a drink.
That night we went out. It was exactly 10 months that we were hanging out. All these months and we never asked about each others relationships. From what I knew she wasn't with someone and she knew that I wasn't with someone too. We were at Ego having fun when I saw two people I haven't seen for almost two years. Sammy and Greg. And they were kissing. I guess they finally admitted their feelings for each other. Our eyes met and I saw them coming over to where Chloy and I where sitting. We hugged and kissed and I introduced them to Chloy. I remember what Sammy's first words were... 'How is Spencer? We lost connection. I haven't talked with her for ages.'
Spencer. I hadn't use that name for so long. I almost erased her from my mind and listening to her name again made my heart beat faster. I saw the look of Chloy's. She was looking at me trying to understand. 'Spencer and I broke up. Almost two years ago'. Sammy's face changed in a minute. Her and Greg where always supporting of us. They even called us Spashley. 'I am sorry to hear that. I loved you guys together.'
It was hard for me to start talking about that and I was glad that Sammy didn't ask more. We agreed to meet for a coffee and then they left Chloy and I alone again. Chloy didn't ask me but I was sure she was curious. So simple as that I told her 'I am gay'. I saw that smile of hers that made me warm every time and she answered me back something I didn't expect 'I was hoping you were'
I didn't understand what that meant till we were outside her house. She leaned closer to me, gave me a kiss and just said 'I like you Ashley. A lot' and I liked her too. I leaned closer to her and pressed a kiss on her lips. I hadn't kissed anyone after my break up with Spencer and I wasn't planning to like someone as much as I liked Spencer. And I liked Chloy a lot.
And here I am.. Two years later in a loving relationship with a girl that I really love. She is the most loving person in the world. She is caring and she loves me for who I am. I love her. But the thing is that I am not in love with her because I still believe that you fall in love only with one person in your whole life. And that person was Spencer for me.
TBC
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