CHAPTER TWO: POUR A LITTLE SALT , WE WERE NEVER HERE.

Au: hello... ok so ik the last chapter was a bit of a downer, and I got some inbox messages on tumblr of some people asking me what's going on between them. And well….hmm I usually don't like explaining this I'd rather you read and discover it yourself, but their relationship is weird if you haven't noticed. There's love but it's not there. Not on the surface . Beast Boy had his heart crushed, he's feeling that empty ache in his chest , and his emotions feel like they're constantly teetering on the edge of tears. He doesn't know who's going to love him , who could love him now that terra gone. So he leans on raven. His first crush , but he put that away, now she's this amazing person in his eyes who seems to make the pain go away when she's near. But she's just as broken. Her first go at something romantic and she gets played. Malchior uses her insecurities as an advantage, whatever self esteem she'd begun to build up while with him he broke it down and he's left her with nothing….. that's all I'm giving away the rest will be explained through the story. I don't own teen titans , good thing I don't cuz it would be a mess.

He moved around a lot in his sleep. She noticed, it would wake her up late at night. He'd murmur her name in his sleep. She wasn't offended. She knew terra ment alot to him. She was just hurt that he was so hurt and she couldn't do anything for him. Raven brushed her fingers against his forhead pushing some hair back from his eyes.

" We should go out on a date sometime soon..."he yawned as he looked up at her.

"If that's what you want." She nodded.

" Did you eat breakfast this morning?" He queried even though he knew deep down what the answer was.

"I did." She gave a curt nod as she moved to lay beside him. Her arms going around his mid section as she rested her head against his chest. She hadn't ate. She wasn't hungry. The only thing she wanted was to take away his pain. When he felt good she felt good. His emotions fed hers and when he was happy, she'd soak up as much of the feelings he radiated as she could, she was greedy for some sort of relief. Anything to distract her own mind.

" I like you." He whispered as he pressed a soft his to her hair. His eyes stung with tears. He wanted her to eat. He wanted her to smile. He wanted to fix her. He just didn't know how.

" I like you too." She replied quietly,gently.

He played with the strands of her hair , it reached her shoulders now that she'd stopped trimming it. He twisted a stand around a claw tipped finger, stareing at the stark contrast of her hair against his skin.

" You know, I find you to be very beautiful." He said the words with confidence, believing what he said. And s just as quickly she'd stiffened and moved away. Rolling over she curled up onto her side, her knees brushed against her chest. He felt a pang in his chest. She always veered away when he complimented her, she'd imeadiatly with draw from him.

He was angry, and frustrated, he knew he shouldn't say anything but he wanted it to get through her head.

" I do. I think your extremely beautiful,"

she curled up tighter,

" I think you're cute when you pout,"

her hands slid up to cover her ears,

" I think you very sexy when your confident in yourself."

A broken sob escaped her as she tried to block out his words. She wasn't beautiful, she wasn't cute or sexy or pretty. She had it on very good terms, Malchoir ' s words, that she was the furthest thing from pretty and no one could love her. No one would love Raven the Creepy emotionless Demon. When beast boy said all these wonderfully nice things she couldn't help but feel that it was pity. That they were lies.

" Raven , you are amazing and wonderful!" Beastboy sat up and moved so that he was hovering over her.

" You're kind, and responsible, your level headed and unbelievably intelligent." He tried to pry her hands away from her ears, tears of frustration spilled over his and dropped onto her cheeks. Her grip loosened as she looked up at him, taking in his expression , he looked distraught.

" You're all that and more!But you're so broken. So broken." He rested his forehead against hers as her cried. Her hands turned in his grasp and she threaded her fingers through his.

" I wanna fix you, I wanna make you smile, but I don't know how I can possibly do that when I don't even know how to to fix myself.I hate what he's done to you. I hate what I've-" He cut off as he turned to press his face against the crook of her neck trying to calm his emotions and steady his breathing. Raven stared up at the ceiling, her own tears slipping down the sides of her face, trailing over her ears and dampening her hair. She gave a small sniff as she turned and pressed a soft kiss to his jaw.

" You are so...selfless Gar. So unbelievably selfless. " she whispered thickly, her throat tight with emotions.

" You know you whimper and say her name alot when you sleep. When you sleep beside me in my bed. " an empty laugh bubbled up ant out of her chest.

" I know I can't replace her. I know that. I know we're both messed. I know that things are hard. I know all of these things and yet what j don't know is why can't you say it. Why can't you tell me what you tell her?" Her voice cracked towards the end as she sobbed, her chest heaving with emotion.

Pulling back he kissed her, pressed his lips against her own , it was wet and tasted of salt. It was desperate and bittersweet.

"I do love you." He choked out as he continued to press kisses to her skin, his hands shook as she untangled them to cradle her face in his palms.

" I do." He did. He loved her. He just didn't know if it was real. If what he felt for her was real , or if he was confusing kindness and comfort from her as love. I didn't know if it was real because I didn't feel the same as when he loved terra.

Raven wanted to say something she wanted to call him out on it. Tell him how she felt he wanted to love her, but not that he did. But she wanted to believe he did. She wanted it with every fiber of her body. So she did. She wrapped her arms around him tightly and buried her face into his chat as she let out a shaky sigh, she held him close and try ed to imagine that their embrace was warm and filled with happiness. She wanted them to be ok. To believe that they were ok and would always be.

So she did.