I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again

Kyle starred at his bedroom walls trying to make sense of what had just transpired. Not only had Stan practically announced his true feeling for him but now he had more bruises along his shoulders and a black eye to match the other.

"Stan you know you could have come to the hospital instead." Kyle huffed annoyed about being woken during his much needed rest. The doctor had released him but had given him not only crutches but required him to get some rest and Stan was not helping.

"I know but it seemed to will…" The raven haired boy walked closer obviously upset.

"Scary." Kyle finished simply he just nodded.

"Kyle I thought I might lose you again."

"Stan everyone knew I wasn't in critical condition. Just a few bumps and bruises."

"Kyle you're my best friend but I've got to be honest lately I've started wanting to be more than a friend." Kyle held his breath barely believing what he heard.

"That's why me and Wendy broke up this past time and now after all of this I couldn't keep it a secret anymore. I won't lose you." Stan looked into his eyes imploringly and then pulled the Jewish boy into a kiss.

It was everything he'd hoped it be his first kiss but as it felt right it also felt so wrong. Seeing as through some of it a certain racist bastard kept coming to mind. I won't lose you why did those words make him think of fatass.

As the kiss came to an end Kyle opened his eyes and glanced towards his door wondering if his parents or Ike had seen. Instead as ironic as anything the behemoth himself was staring straight at him.

"Well enjoying yourself Stan, Didn't know you were gay for Kahl careful though Jews are known to carry diseases." He said but strangely his usual smile was gone replaced by a frown.

"Shut up Cartman don't give him any crap today he's been through enough."

"I'd say gets beaten up and then pitied by his friend so badly that he lands himself a boyfriend. Now if you don't mind I came here to see Kahl now leave!" He said raising his voice.

Stan slowly made his way to the door. "I mean it Cartman don't bother him with your crap." With that he granted the bigger boy's wish he left to thinking it might save Kyle from further teasing later.

As the door closed Cartman went to stand next to the bed looking down at him. "Why him?" He asked quietly and for a moment Kyle thought he saw was that hurt in the boys eyes or a trick of the light.

"Why should I tell you fatass!" He huffed turning away trying to bring back a sense of normality.

"Damit Kyle because your mine!" Cartman said grabbing the injured boy by the shoulders. Kyle starred at him trying to make everything out when suddenly a second pair of lips came crashing down. His shoulders being squeezed as the behemoth ravaged him.

Then suddenly it was over Cartman pushed him a way shouting. "This proves it you're a whore; you're supposed to be my plaything no one else was supposed to touch you! Your like he-"At that moment a fist punched him in the face but as soon as he made contact Cartman jumped away realizing what he'd just done.

"I hate you Kahl!" He yelled leaving the room and a completely confused Kyle.

I guess I don't know my own strength

Cartman puked behind a bush after he'd left Kyle's he'd kept walking towards the park feeling sick to his stomach. He hated Kyle but he hated himself to for even though he'd kissed Kyle to prove he was a toy he liked it.

What was worth he said all those things and he couldn't recall exactly what he said only knowing that he had shown weakness. Eric Cartman was not weak and yet he had punched Kyle like a scared child. In a way he was not that he'd admit it but he'd come so close to saying the truth to himself not to mention Kyle.

He felt bad for the pain he had just inflicted but couldn't bring himself to go back and fix it. He didn't bother to ask himself why, knowing he couldn't answer without bringing it all to the surface.

Five years ago

You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you're with 'em

Butters starred at his friend smiling to himself. He couldn't wait to celebrate Eric's birthday like every year it was so extravagant you couldn't help wonder how many male friends Mrs. Cartman had taken on.

As he walked to the backyard entrance he burst into a giddy verse of his favorite song. "lulu I got some Apples…" Then an arm appeared out of no where and pulled him into a tree's canopy blocked from anyone's sight.

"Butters stop squirming it's me." He did as he was told and the hand was removed from his mouth.

"Will jee ah wiz E-eric you nearly scared me to death. Why aren't you at your party?"

The behemoth sighed. "Mom's doing business in the house the guys overheard her and few of them where calling dibs to go next. The others just made jokes like usual"

"Oh."

"So I left those douchbags. Besides I hate them all anyways who care what they say." He chocked out while the blond wrapped his arms around sensing the need to confront him. Eric would never admit he needed help but he did need the blonde for that very thing.

"I hate her she has to be a whore on my birthday of all days." He didn't cry but instead buried his head into the smaller boy's neck.

Butters held his breath awaiting the kiss that would make them best friends. Sense best friends could kiss each other okay. But it never came that day or the next. No like all moments it went beyond his reach.

You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em

Butters memory was all a blur but one thing rang true he had just lost his virginity to Kenny. He hardly remembered any of it just random flashes. It made him feel sick disgusting especially since the parka wearing teen treated the act so nonchalantly.

Kenny apparently had taken him to spend the night at his place calling his parents first to help avoid him from being grounded. So when Butters had woken up all he did was make seemingly meaningless comments about who good and sexy he was and then tossed him a towel to shower.

When that water hit his face the tears came down. He held himself thinking of how stupid he was he'd just wasted his innocence and purity for some meaningless and blurry mess of upset. The worst part was now he felt like he'd betrayed Eric by tainting himself he'd become even more unworthy for the boy.

"You alright man, if you want you can just use my textbooks I only sleep on them anyways." Kenny asked trying to be considerate figuring the little blonde was worried about school. When Butters didn't answer he sighed. "Look I'm sorry but why are you so upset it's just sex."

Butters turned to look with tears in his eyes. "It was my first time, my first kiss and now I'all never get it back." He ran out of the house towards the park not caring about school.

Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them those chills you used to get 'em

Kyle walked towards his locker while Stan carried his books. The crutches were annoying but he would only need them for a few days and after some convincing he had barely convinced his mother to let him attend school. He had promised her to go to the nurse if he felt tired.

However he had already broken it first period hadn't even started and he was tired, trying to figure out his first and second kiss. Stan didn't help with all the fussing to make sure he was all right. But Kyle couldn't help admitting to the fuzziness for being treated so lovingly from his boyfriend or were they still friends?

That didn't matter they both liked each other that would follow later. As they entered homeroom though, he noticed that both Cartman and Butters were missing from their customary corner.

Odd it gave him the chills knowing how strangely upset they both were yesterday. Knowing the behemoth it would not be a surprise if he initiated a "counter attack." Then suddenly the thought he'd been pushing aside rose up did those two like him? It seemed unlikely but it could explain the behavior.

Then as the realization sticks in he wondered if the fatass did should he care? His mind said no but his heart let out a sharp beat that said to his head yes.

Okay i'm not sure where exactly this is going for the most part the song is my template and yet this has gotten much deeper.

Alright if you want to see a certain pairing end up togther i willing to listen and try and make it so.

(Help) i'm gussing the Cartman rant after he kissed Kyle is confuseing. First of he's confused and mad at Kyle not only for kissing Stan and makeing him jelouse but for makeing him care in the first place. This kiss felt more than what it should have and is angry cause of it. Now the rant Cartman hates his mom for bieng the town whore. So do to that trama when he's kissing Kyle right after Stan not only does that come to mind but it helps him think that it's all kyles fault the feelings. So yeah if you need any more info or want to comment please do.

Alright if you'd like to see specific parings stay togther at the end please let me know.