Slaughter And Devour

Chapter Two

Left With What I 've Become

By Inuyashas Youkai

~ Greetings once more , glad to see your return . Let it be acknowledged that I do not own Inuyasha , or anything in its counterparts ,or creation .This story including its plot is created by me , with exception of the original plot with its lovingly created characters are made for entertainment purposes only, and this also includes the excerpt lyrics by The Tony Rich Project – Nobody Knows It But Me. Thankyou and enjoy..~

Appearing outside his bedroom , dressed in a grey button -up shirt , black trousers , walking out slowly towards his living room whilst tying his black tie as he went , and noticing on the way that of the current time , annoyed of the current state of time reading on his clock , trudging through the disappointment of his task to pass the time hadn't taken longer like he hoped. Plopping himself down upon the couch , grabbing the brush that was thrown into the mess that was consuming the floor , and then started to yank the knots that during sleep came about to settle within his long strands of liquid nightfall, pulling each one tightly to conform into its neatly entwined braid. Looking stubbornly at the clock once more , seeing the nagging reminders that the day , this day out of all of them that could present itself with to visit him once again, was also the one he hated with contempt from out of any one that anyone could naturally pick from any day of the years to greet him with.

Naturally , it would be the very day, knowingly and one that was felt within his soul , as it quivered in fear of the loss taken from his side, by his very own hands, had not yet disappeared from his sight , ending already. Tipping his head back , with the fluid sting chasing down his throat, with the burning warmth created by the liquid's luxury provided in the need to forget, a means of escape from within the somewhat clean glass laying on it's side upon the piled clutter on the coffee table filled with the too tempting to resist goodness giving slight relief. Tears quickly flooding his eyes, as the sting still emerging within his chest , the male then through the crystal goblet to crash , shattering into pieces , resembling his battered heart and falling to the floor to form into the very likeness he hated to love , thus loved to hate .

The fucking shards of the damn cursed jewel...

For it gave him his pack , gifted with her, and only for it to all be taken away in the next , and last breath , but it wasn't his , it was theirs.

Angrily texting his brother reminding him of the reasons that the bastard already knew , but it was something done once more out of habit more than anything else. Still absentmindedly noticing the subtle slow beat of a song starting on the radio , as he weakly stood then striding pathetically towards the sliding door to exit onto the balcony in the need for fresh air , and when the cool air brushed against his cheek, in the calming coolness of the soft breeze , made him forget to close the door to drown out the sound. Although in the dark abyss overlooking the expanse far from the city lights , but complemented by the slowly descending new moon , and the stars swinging in the sky , seemingly as they sparkled, a truth made apparently known offhandedly within his mind , as he was entranced by the sight .

It was the first time that the birth of a new moon occurred on this night, even before when they were alive, though it didn't matter now, but somehow felt within the concealment his demon weakening, albeit back then, and if only it would've happened that night if only .. Maybe they , she , would've still been with him, and to further his descending into the falling lull that pulled him under , the words from the song currently playing just had to yank him lower in the pain that was willing to devour him whole. Though through it all it was found within him to be thankful for the opportunity to chance upon in the end , his soul's absolution, the debt owed to his friends , and love for his comrades , by finding a way to destroy in part of his demonic jyaki to prevent the unimaginable to occur nevermore.

But ...

I Wished I told her how I feel.

Maybe she'd be here right now,

But Instead..

I'd pretend that I am glad she went away.

These four walls closing more everyday , and

now I am dying inside .

And nobody knows it but me ..

Like a cloud I put on a show,

the pain is real even if nobody knows.

And I am crying inside ..

And nobody knows it but me..

The man , now broken apart by the one , whom when she was forced to break her promise , thus taking part of him with her , whispered her name hoping she'd hear him..

"Kagome..."

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say ..

How could I just get away ..

Now my world is just crumbling down ..

I can see it so clearly , but your no where around ..

Then with his hands fisting around the guardrails bordering around the top of the balcony , finished his statement just as the sun started to make its way to rise above into the horizons ..

"I'm sorry .. Please forgive me .."was said with tears cascading in rapidly fallen streams from his saddened eyes.

My nights are lonely , my days are so sad ..

And I just thinking about the love we could've had..

And I am missing you ..

And nobody knows it but me ..

"I love you , I always have , and don't think I'll ever stop .. Kagome I miss you ..."

TBC..