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Blast from his past

"Sesshomaru, when you grow up. NEVER, treat women like an object. We are made of flesh and our heart breaks. " Inukimi said crying into her seven-year old son. "To think he convinced me to choose him. I even left ..."

"Mother, I promise. I will love one and only one for all eternity." little Sesshomaru said with his chest out and hand on his chest. Then he ran over to his mother and held her hand. Being young and impressionable, he saw the women his father would bring into the castle, just to dump them the next day. He hears his father tell his mother that those other women meant nothing to him. His mother forgives his father and they are happy again, for a while. In two years he remembers this going on at least twelve times.

Sesshomaru parents' marriage was a political move. Inukimi knew of her future husband's 'conquest' but during their courtship he seemed so genuine. She had been in love with her guard,Renji, but too ashamed to tell him. Before leaving, Renji said would wait for her return.

Although his dad did sweet talk her into the marriage, he was never faithful. At first she didn't care for those who bedded her husband because they were gone that day. Then things started changing. He looked differently at her. Izayoi. He was warmer. He was happier. He even waited to bed her. He came to Inukimi one night and said he wanted to make her his mistress.

"She is nothing but a laborer. A commoner. Will you allow her to stay here and cause this family further ridicule? I will not stand for such foolishness." Inukimi said slamming the door.

"I know that I have not been a good husband but I swear, she will be my last. She's different from the rest. She has a calming effect that makes me want to stop wandering." Toga said, unaware his wife's heart was breaking hearing such tenderness from her husband for another woman. Even though they were not in love, Toga and Inukimi had been together for nearly ten years. Long enough to have a bond between each other.

"I will return to my lands. I wish you the best. " Inukimi said as she left the room. "Sesshomaru may choose to stay with either of us. Just please, take care of him while he's here too." Inukimi was actually relieved to have a reason to return to her lands. She knew Renji was still waiting for her. This would benefit them both. She did feel guilty for leaving Sesshomaru because she wanted to get things ready for him when he came to stay with her.

"Mother, please do not leave me!" a screaming tearful Sesshomaru ran towards the carriage. " I want to stay with you."

"Sesshomaru, men may bleed, but they do not cry. I must get back to the palace and prepare before you can come. I will never leave you. Just because I am not near, does not mean I am not with you. Take care my son, become the strong, good man I know you are. I will see you again shortly." With that Inukimi left, never to return. Her chariot attacked by mercenaries by the eastern palace. Her remains never found.

The news hit Sesshomaru hard. He spent days not eating or drinking. He would lay in bed staring at the ceiling or out his window at the moon.

'Sesshomaru, men may bleed, but they do not cry. Just because I am not near, does not mean I am not with you. Take care my son, become the strong, good man I know you are.'

A month later. Toga married Izayoi. He was hoping this would cheer Sesshomaru up but it only seem to make him more withdrawn. Then a year later Inuyasha was born. Sesshomaru was all but forgotten. So he put all his effort into studying, training, and getting stronger. Eventually, he felt no more pain and cared for no one else.

As he grew he notice women would outright stare at him. By sixteen, he had girls of his age or older visiting his chambers for a night of frolicking. They meant nothing to him. They were there to please the Prince and nothing more. When he grew bored with them, he would leave the castle to roam the countryside endlessly. No one knew why he left. He did not even know why. As if he was looking for something that did not exist. Truth be told, he felt lost in his world. Yes, he was the crowned Prince of the Western lands and sought by many, many young and old women alike. But his life seemed empty. He was hoping for self discovery, but would come back colder and more withdrawn than before.

Then Inuyasha announce he would wed the nobleman's daughter from the eastern kingdom. That was where his late mother was from. He had never been there since...

Inuyasha was content. Happily oozed from every part of him. He looked over his brother to see if he was enjoying himself but sadden the irritation caused by the obvious attention of the women of the court. Inuyasha wished his brother would be able to find happiness in another as he did with Kagome.

"Hey, why don't you try dancing with someone. You might get to know them better." Inuyasha winked at him.

"There is nothing they can offer me that I can not get somewhere else. They do not care to know me. Just my status. Why would I waste my time with that?" Sesshomaru said loud enough to warn all the women in the area. "Besides, I am growing bored of used good." He smirked cruelly.

Yeah, that was Sesshomaru alright. "Your never gonna get anyone with that attitude!" Inuyasha said started to fume. He hated how his brother treated women like objects and tossed them without any concerns of repercussion.

"One day Karma will cause you the same pain you inflict on others brother. If you change there is still a chance.." Inuyasha's hand was slapped away by his brother.

"As if I need any education by you. Remember there was girl who killed herself for you. Kikyo was it? So does Kagome know about your indiscretions? As if I care for any of these wenches. They dress themselves in silk and velvet but are beyond ugly in person. If I were to find one worthy of my time, it would have to be deep in the woods untouched by the foulness of court life. " Sesshomaru said and turn to leave.

Sadly, the fates had determine his punishment was to learn to love and lose that love in the process.