Hey guys! i'm back with another crappy story yay! lol so i read back on the last one i posted and i was like 'did i really write this crap?' but ya'll seemed to like it so i come back with more! sorry for incorrect grammar, i was too lazy to spellcheck. if you guys have any ideas for a one shot please pm me. oh yeah and by the way this is really emotionalish so enjoy.
I stepped out of my car and pulled out my backpack from the backseat. It was finally Friday, thank god! I clicked the keys to lock my ride and looked around the Junior parking lot to see all the groups of kids hanging out. The druggies were over in the corner probably dealing, the preps were hanging out at Patrick Liden's sports car with their matching vineyard vines jackets and lacrosse gear, and the band kids (who surprisingly looked the coolest out of everyone cause they weren't try hards) hanging around the famous drumliner Alex Mckinney's car doing some rad drum hits. The whore's of the school or as Kim and I like to call them skitches (skanky bitches) were at Jordan Hodges car; the biggest skitch of them all, putting on makeup and catching up on who's pregnant and who did who. I put on my aviator sunglasses and slung my keys in my pocket with the long band sticking out of my navy blue chubbies. I know what you're thinking, Jack Brewer in shorts? But there was a major heat wave and I was not going to walk around in my usual jeans and supras so I could pass out. today I was wearing high nike socks and nike air max sneakers. I pulled at the hem of my mint colored v-neck t-shirt and made my way over to Kim, Milton, Julie, and Jerry who were all chilling around Kim's car. You can consider us the kids who don't care. We're too chill to be preppy and too popular to be anything else. So this is us not caring.
"Hey Jack" Kim said with a smile. Gosh her smile was amazing
"hey Kim" I replied "and everyone else"
Just then Brody Carlson pulled up beside Milton's car. Next to Me Brody was the most popular boy in the school. He's so annoying and I could feel myself getting sick.
"just the sight of him makes me wanna throw up" I said. I looked over with my peripheral vision to see Kim shift uncomfortably.
"Hey what's wrong?" I asked her
"Jack there's something I need to tell you" she said with a really guilty look on her face
I knew something was up. Kim never gets like this.
"Just tell me" I said trying my best to reassure her with a smile. Her face softened a little bit but not enough for me
"well you know that Grace had her birthday party last week" she started
"yeah, I couldn't go cause I was sleeping for my karate tournament remember?" I replied
"I remember." She said blankly. "well Brody was at the party… he and I sort of-"
"hey bro cha-cho!" Brody said budding into our conversation. Ugh he makes me so mad! He's so rude.
"I'm not your bro cha-cho Brody" I replied. I had told him this a million times.
"whatever" he said back. I saw his eyes on kim
"Kim baby why haven't you been answering my calls?" Brody said to kim in a pouty voice
I could feel my fists clenching up. He did not just call her baby.
"look Brody about that." She said. I could tell there was something more to this.
"what you don't regret it do you?" Brody said
"Regret what?" I snapped in a harsh tone.
"oh you haven't told them yet?" Brody said. "best night of my life"
I felt my heart plummet into tartarus. This wasn't really happening. I saw black spots around me as I was soon coming to a terrible realization.
"you didn't" I said to Kim in a raspy tone
"Jack I tried to tell you"
"HOW COULD YOU! KIM HOW COULD YOU" I was so angry I didn't even know how to function. I was yelling so loud that everyone in the whole parking lot was silent and staring.
"Jack I'm sorry. It-it just happened okay?" she cried
"IT JUST HAPPENED? THAT'S YOUR FUCKING EXCUSE? YOU KNOW HOW MUCH A HATE THIS DOUCHE BAG AND YOUR EXCUSE IS IT JUST HAPPENED?"
I was breathing ridiculously hard at the moment. I could feel the anger rise every second. And of course Brody and his stupid ass had to step in.
"Chill man! She can't help it if she wants to beat the meat." He said with a smirk on his face
After he said that I completely lost it. I swung at him harder than i've ever hit anything in my entire life. I heard multiple bones crack beneath my fist. I didn't even care. How could he say that about Kim, how could Kim let him say that about her!
I was going in for another blow but Milton and Jerry held me back. I was fighting them with everything I had. But they knew if they let me go I was probably going to kill Brody Carlson.
Brody had doubled over and was vomiting like there was no tomorrow. I could see a bone slightly poking under his cheek.
"Jack what the hell!" Kim said. I could tell she was enraged and scared. I mean I've never gotten that mad before.
"Kim I'm missing something here why would you hook up with Brody Carlson?"
"I don't have to tell you anything Jack!" she said storming off
"im gonna go call an ambulance" Julie said running off. I looked down to see that Brody had passed out
"Jack what's your problem!" she said in a combative tone
"My problem is that my so called best friend is a whore giving it to every guy in the school that wants some!"
There were many gasps and snickers heard throughout our audience.I knew as soon as I said it I shouldn't have. Tears started forming in Kim's eyes and running down her cheeks.
"Kim. I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean it." My throat felt really dry
I tried to reach for her slightly but she dashed off.
"Kim wait!" I yelled. But she was out of sight within seconds. I needed to find her. I love Kim more than anything and I just ruined it probably for good.
-Later that day-
I saw Kim walking to her next class and ran inside the nearest janitors closet. I needed to get this perfectly right or I would kill my chances. I estimated the time that Kim would walk past the closet and how long it would take me to reach my arm out and pull her in.
She was so close. It was almost time. It's like everything around me started going in slow motion. I couldn't hear anything. Except the loud counts in my head
5…4…3…2…1
I reached my arm out faster than a cheetah (AN: haha cheetah good kickin it reference) and pulled hear in before she could begin to let out a scream. I locked that closet door and blocked it so that she couldn't get out.
"Jack what the fuck do you want" she spat at me. that really hurt, but I deserved it.
"look Kim I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" I replied
She looked at me and tears started streaming down her face. All the hurt and anger was boiling up inside her and I could see it. I didn't know if I could fix this.
Then she replied in a way that broke my heart
"I hate you"
I looked up at her to see she was staring right at me. it was like my heart fell out of my chest and was run over by a truck. I looked deep into her eyes searching for something, anything. But then I saw it. What I've been looking for since we first met.
"no you don't" I replied in a soft tone
She looked shocked at my reply but I knew it was true. There was no way that Kim Crawford could ever hate me. Just like there was no way I could ever hate her. It was because we loved each other and I finally saw it.
"but I should" she said. "I should hate you."
I could feel an empty void forming in my stomach. She was right she should hate me. but I wasn't going to lose her. Not now, not ever.
I quickly walked up to her and cupped her cheek in my hand and our lips crashed together. It was unbelievable. I was kissing Kim Crawford! But that's not even what was on my mind. It was like all of our emotions melted together in that kiss. The pain the hurt the love just swarmed into one. The empty void in my stomach was quickly filling up.
The kiss soon got more heated and I wrapped my arms around her waist as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist as I placed her on the closest shelf. I pinched the small over her back and she arched so I began devouring her neck. She ran her hands roughly through my hair and pulled on certain strands which made me bite down on her neck. She let out a loud gasp and I knew I couldn't waste any opportunity. I quickly went back up and shoved my tongue into her open mouth and explored. This wasn't just any regular kiss. This feeling was ridiculous, too intense to explain. All I could see was red. This was us. This is us pretending to be different from everyone else. This is us; too chill to be preppy and too popular to be anything else. This is us not caring. I couldn't care any less.
-that night—
No one's POV
Kim ran upstairs and shut her bedroom door behind. She slid her back against the wall until her butt hit the floor. She still couldn't believe what happened at school. it was like all of it was a dream.
She got up and walked to her mirror and began unwrapping the scarf that was currently on her neck. She stood there in awe of all the hickeys and red spots that ranged from her jaw line to her collar bone. She smiled to herself and then went to her bed and pulled out her diary
There's an old poem by Neruda that I've always been captivated by, and one of the lines in it has stuck with me ever since the first time I read it. It says ''love is so short, forgetting is so long.'' It's a line I relate to in my saddest moments, when I need to know someone else feels the exact same way. And when we're trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren't the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks at the bottom of the river, felt stars aligning without having any proof, and saw your future before it happened. These are moments of new found hope, extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown. And in my mind, every one of these memories looks the same to me. My experiences in love have taught me difficult lessons, especially my experiences with crazy love. The real relationships. The ones that went from zero to a hundred miles per hour and then hit a wall and exploded. And it's amazing. And ridiculous. And desperate. And thrilling. And when the dust settles, it was something I'll never take back. Because there is something to be said for being young and needing someone so badly, you jump in head first without looking. And there's something to be learned from waiting all day for a train that you know will soon come. And there's something to be proud of about moving on and realizing that real love shines golden like starlight, and doesn't fade or spontaneously combust. Adults say we are young and have never experienced that love yet. But since we are so young, let us lay in the grass and count the stars and stay wild to find our destiny.
Fin
that's it, lol i didn't even realize how short that was until i read it just now. sorry guys! i will try to make longer ones but it may take me two day instead of one. caus ain't nobody got time fo dat. haha lol. idk what this crap was about being young and shit. half of it i got from tswizzles prologue on her red album. don't say i stole it caus i just gave her credit so stfu. anyway i gotta go chill. don't know when i'll be updating caus i have a football game to attend tomorrow a parade on saturday and a funeral on sunday and a sleepover on monday. but i love you all. btw i just noticed my username looks like im a boy. im a girl, that's my nickname caus my last name is douglas so people call me dougg. okay well bye now
stay wild!
dougg