Beast Boy had awoken late afternoon. He didn't eat anything or greet anyone as he walked into the main room; he just went to the coffeemaker and poured himself a cold cup of coffee before leaving. But he couldn't help but slowly turn his head towards the shut doors of the common room as he heard his friends talk about him. He sighed, he was just glad she wasn't there with them. He turned back forward without really looking just to knock into someone. His eyes immediately went to his coffee, glad it didn't spill, before looking up at the person he had bumped into.
"Sorry." Raven apologized, barely glancing up from her book. He just stared at her in surprise, not finding any words to say. It was then did she look up from her novel, "Is there something wrong?" She asked and he furrowed his brow.
"No." He said simply and walked away.
He stormed to his room and set his coffee down with no intention of drinking it as he stomped around is room. He needed to get rid of all his built up anger, and he knew the best way.
Beast Boy laid on a bench in the gym, a metal bar set above his head. Her question just kept playing in his head. 'Is there something wrong? Is there something wrong? Is there something wrong?' Of course there was something wrong, how could she not know there was something wrong? He loved her more than anything and she dumped him with no reason or remorse.
He continued to bench press even though he heard the gym doors open. He didn't even care who was there, whether it be Robin or Cyborg, he would just send them away. But it wasn't Robin or Cyborg, or even Starfire, it was Raven…
He ignored the fact that his stomach started to knot as she walked up to him, but he didn't care he just continued to work. "Can we talk?" She began but he cut her off quickly.
"Not in the mood." He growled, his grip tightening around the bar. He could see her put her hand on her hip as she glared up at the ceiling and rolled her eyes. She then glanced back down at him before taking the dumbbells away from him, hovering them over him with her powers. "What's your deal?" He yelled getting up.
"We need to talk." She said sternly.
"I don't care." He huffed, turning and walking out of the gym. She huffed before putting the dumbbells down and following him.
"Beast Boy." She said, bursting into his room, not even caring to knock. He was on the edge of his bed, his shirt in his hand as he glared at nothing.
"What Raven, what could you possibly want?" He asked harshly.
"We need to talk." She said sternly.
"And what do you want to talk about?" He asked, his tone still harsh as he finally faced her.
"Your behavior." She began, "You're not eating or sleeping, and you're distant to everyone. This isn't healthy."
"What do you care?" He huffed turning his head away from her.
"Why do you think I don't care?" She asked, and that's when he snapped.
"Because you dumped me!" He shouted getting up, "Or have you forgotten?! You dumped me, out of nowhere and you didn't even give me a reason! How do you not have a reason?! And now you just walk around like nothing has happened; that we weren't anything! How can you act like nothing has happened?!" He breathed heavily as he stared at her. "It's like I don't even know you anymore." He just stared at her and watched her face slowly break away from its emotionless barrier. Before he knew it she ran forward and grabbed his shoulder pulling him close and kissed him. The kiss seemed like the cure for all his pain that it took so much restraint to pull her away. He held her at arms length as he stared at her distraught expression. "What are you doing?" He managed to ask.
It was then did she look like she was about to cry. "I don't know." She managed to say shakily.
"What do you mean you don't know?"
"I was scared okay; I broke up with you because I was scared. I never wanted to date you; I didn't want to date anyone! But you just kept pestering me with your cute smile and your adorable eyes that I just said yes." She sighed, "It wasn't supposed to last as long as it did; I was supposed to break it off before things got serious. But you made it so hard. I just wanted to be with you."
"You still can, Rae." He told her.
"No I can't, because I love you."
"I don't understand?"
"I have prepared myself for things going wrong; when I made friends I let myself care for them, but I made sure I was prepared for the day my father would come and I would lose them forever. And even after we defeated my father, I knew the time might come where I could lose everything I care about and so I made sure that my feelings towards my friends remained the same. But then you started pushing me to feel more for you; to see you as more than just a friend… I tried to say no, but you broke my barrier. Now what am I supposed to do if something goes wrong? I have prepared myself for losing the others, but I just can't stand to live in a world without you." She spoke tears shimmering in her eyes.
"Really?" He asked, "You really think you're the only one who can't stand to lose someone? Everyone feels that way, Raven, everyone. No one wants to lose someone they love, but you can't just stop yourself from caring about someone, just so it won't hurt if something ever happens to them."
She turned away from him, trying hard not to break, to let her tears fall down her cheeks. "I just thought I could try; that I could control my emotions enough to not feel them at will."
"But you can't. You're still human Raven, and even you can't stop yourself from having feelings."
"But what am I supposed to do if something happens to you?" She asked turning to him, her tears finally falling down her cheeks.
"You will do the same thing I would do if something happened to you." He told her, and it was then did she bolt forward, wrapping her arms around him as she let him hug her tightly. He shed a few tears of his own as she sobbed into his bare shoulder, but even though his tears were sad, they were also happy…
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