He closed his eyes trying to remind himself what happened before he was in this situation. During seven years when he cooperated with police it happened several times. Last time more times that he wanted. Only thing that he could see was a black spot. He thought about last thing that he remembered.

Aroma of a coffee which spread in the apartment made that he opened his eyes. With blissful smile on his face he came to the kitchen. He was surprised when he found there his mother. Woman was bouncing around the room like she was looking for something.

"What are you doing here so early?" he asked.

"I'm looking for a frying pan" she answered but she didn't stop doing what she was doing. "Did you see it, maybe?"

"Yes, it's in front of you…"

"Oh, yes… where did I lost my head?" last words woman spoke more to herself then to him. "Do you want a coffee?" She nodded indicates pitcher standing on the table.

"Do you know where Beckett is?" He asked pouring dark potion.

"Perhaps she's running… When she doesn't have any case, she spend every morning on training. It helps not to think. You know, when you disappear…" woman looked into his eyes and grabbed his hand "we have to learn how deal with this situation. Katherine tortured herself all days to not think about the worst. And I could sometimes do her breakfast and tell that she's not alone. We took care of each other."

During last three weeks he learned new things how the women of his life tried to cope after he disappear. For him it was "only" a hole in a memory, but for them. He remembered what he felt when Alexis was kidnaped. Fear, restlessness, infirmity. But it was something else. He knew that she was alive. He could do something. But he couldn't imagine what Kate felt. She always aspired to solve every mystery, but this time she didn't even have a clue. Additionally all evidences was against him. Even now when it's been a while since he was back, he felt that not everything was the same. Like an invisible wall grew between them and closed their path to happiness. He tried with all his might to get back his fiancé's trust. To destroyed next wall between them.

"Mum, give me this…" he took the fried pan from woman's hands. "Now I will take care of her."

"Here you are" actress with smile on her face gave him it.

After five minutes breathless detective ran into apartment. When she saw writer who was sitting next to scrambled eggs she asked confused:

"What are you doing here so early? I hope I didn't wake you up…"

Man without any words came to her and held her as strong as he can.

"For what it was?" she asked surprised releasing from him and looking into his eyes.

"Because you didn't stop looking for me…"

"Always" Beckett smiled and held him with the same power.

"And for what it was?"

"Because you are…"

"And I don't go anywhere…"

He kissed her gently in a top of her head. Yeah, they definitely went in the right direction.

Woman, who just came to the room, broke out of his reverie. She came to him and stroked his cheek. She told to men which imprisoned them:

"Gentlemen, how do you treat our guest? Undo him immediately. I'm sorry of them" last words she spoke to him.