Dear paper

No... nevermind...

dear parchment?

No that doesn't sound right either.

Dear journal thing,

I am only writing to you because Gramps said I had to. He says I am too destructive when I go out on missions. I say that's bullshit! At least, I'm no worse than anyone else in the guild! Like droopy-eyes or Erza or Gajeel! But somehow I get the most blame! Bullshit I tell you! One day I'm gonna beat them all! Even Gildarts... especially Gildarts! He has taught me so much, and he's the strongest in the guild. If I beat him, Gramps has to make me an S class mage, right? Not like I haven't gone to S ranked jobs before. Me and Lucy and Happy once went on one, to Galuna Island. It was awesome. Matter of fact, I have a little souveneir I brought back with me. Me, Happy and Lucy go on a lot of jobs together but lately Happy has been staying behind to help Wendy. More to be close to Carla, I'm sure. Everyone thinks I'm dumb about these things but I'm not. I notice. I notice everything. Like how Gray the ice bitch looks around the guild till he finds Juvia. I notice how Gajeel is always trying to impress Levy. I also notice how Freed steals glances at Mirajane. And who doesn't notice Elfman and Evergreen? They act like they are married! I just choose to ignore it all. After all, it's not my business... I just want to fight them and prove once and for all that I am the strongest! But if they could finally make up their minds, like Alzack and Bisca, so they could concentrate on getting strong so they can fight me...

But there is one thing that is keeping me from training like usual. Lucy seems to be acting weird. I decided to give her her space since we came back from a mission. I did something stupid. I tried to kiss her. Now wait a minute, journal thing, Lucy is very pretty and a great friend! I'd be a fool if I didn't notice her. And her rather large... well, nevermind. Anyway, I tried to kiss her but chickened out at the end. I won't ever tell anybody. Especially Gray. I would never hear the end of it. One thing is clear. I have to set things straight. If I don't, I won't be able to concentrate. I think tomorrow I'll go visit Lucy at her house.

Peace!

Natsu

P.S. I don't see how writing my feelings will help me be less destructive... I call bullshit on this too.

A/N: Hey guys! Hope you enjoyed this entry of Natsu's diary. I thought I would make Natsu not so dense, because he actually isn't. He has to notice everything if he wants to be a good fighter. It's how he finds out his enemies moves and weaknesses so he can win. Natsu is a sharp dragon slayer! Anyway, Let me know what you think, please review, otherwise I think I'll put this in my vault till further notice :) See you soon! xoxo