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A/N: tell me if you want to osee anything cause I don't know where this story is going
To Callie:
I'm so sorry for everything I've done I know I've made mistakes and, because of those you're better off without me, raise Sofia well. I;m going to visit my Uncle Rossi and Aunt Erin in virginia so I can get back on my feet then maybe I'll see Katie. I'm sorry, goodbye.
~Arizona
I wanted to scream, I was mad at her but I didn't want her gone. I cried for a long time before I called Owen, asking how to find her, he didn't even know she'd left. I called Addison and cried, then I called Meredith and asked her to get Sofia, last I got drunk.
"Rossi," he answered.
"Hey Dave, it's Katie," I said.
"What's wrong?" he asked, he knew me too well.
"Harvey and Cynrick got out three days ago and I can't get ahold of Arizona," I said.
"Why are you only telling me now?" he snapped
"They didn't tell me till an hour ago, I've been trying to track her down for an hour, she a surgeon it took an hour to find out she wasn't in the OR, Dave I'm sorry," I said.
"Well then let's go I'll grab one of my people, and meet you downstairs, we can take the BAU jet," he said.
"Thanks Dave," I said before hanging up, ever since my time with the BAU I kept a go bag under my desk. I told my second he was in command cause I would be out of town for a few days and I rode the elevator down.
"Katie this is SSA Blake, Alex this is Bureau Chief Cole," Dave said as I got off the elevator indicating the brunette woman next to him.
"Dave don't ever call me that again, agent Blake, you can call me Katie," I said, shaking the burnetts hand.
"I'm Alex" she said.
"So how did you manage to get the jet?" I asked Rossi.
"I told Hotch it was the case that got you to leave the BAU," he said.
"How did a serial killer get out?" Alex asked as we walked out, I looked at Dave before answering.
"I fucked up," I said climbing into the SUV.
"It wasn't only you Katie, we all fucked up and the ADA was new and was too scared to go to trial," Dave said.
"Dave it was my idea! I'm the one that fucked us over and yeah Carmichael was new, but I fucked it up if I had waited they wouldn't be out now,"
"Katie if you hadn't done what you did that little girl would have died! Carmichael left sex crimes after that case, Katie it almost broke all of us you, me, Erin, the local cops, the ADA, all because we believe that your call was right. Damn it Katie you did the right thing!" Dave yelled.
"What happened?" Alex cut in.
"I made the call to go in without a warrant because there was a little girl in the house and I was worried about her safety, all the murders got thrown out because we didn't wait but we nailed them both on the abuse of the girl. She testified and both father and brother got assault on a minor and statutory charges but, it's been twenty five years so they got out," I said looking at the carpet of the car.
"Katie that little girl could have died if we hadn't gone in, Katie, everyone stood behind that decision, stop beating yourself up," Dave said.
"Stop beating myself up? Really Dave? That little girl is back in harms way because of me!" I snapped the cracks in my mask starting to show. I closed my eyes for a moment to stop the emotions racing threw my body. I felt the car stop but took another few seconds to get myself under control.
"Katie we'll find her, it will be ok," Dave said hugging me. It had been a long time since anyone had tried to hug me but right then I let him.
"Who exactly are we finding?" Blake asked.
"Arizona, the little girl we pulled out of that house all those years ago," Dave said, pulling away from me and walking down the landing strip to the waiting jet.
I was pulled out of my brooding by a knock on the door.
"Leave me alone!" I yelled back.
"It's Owen I brought some people that want to talk to you," Owen yelled from the other side of the door.
"I don't care Hunt, the only person I want to talk to has a key!" I yelled back not moving to answer the door.
"Mrs. Torres I'm Supervisory Special Agent Dave Rossi with the FBI's Behavioral Analysis Unit, I'm here with my colleagues SSA Alex Blake, and the Bureau Chief of the FBI's Crimes Against Children Unit Katie Cole, please open the door," a voice I'd never heard yelled. The name Rossi was the only thing that made me stand up and go to the door. I threw it open and marched back to the couch not looking to see if they would follow.
"Mister Hunt I think it would be best if you stayed out here, thanks for showing us where to come but we can handle it from here," one of the women said before I heard the door click shut.
"What do you want?" I asked blankly.
"We need to find Arizona," the older of the two women said.
"Well get in line if I knew how to find her aunt and uncle in Virginia I already would have," I snapped.
"Aunt and uncle?" the man asked. I grabbed the letter out of my pocket and threw it at him. He opened it carefully, as he read it is eyebrows went up, he handed it to the older woman.
"Damn it!" she said giving it back to me the look in her eyes told me I had missed something.
"So now you see she can't help you with whatever it is you need so just leave," I snapped.
"Why do you think we're here?" the younger agent asked.
"Well she was a pediatric surgeon and she's with crimes against children I would assume it has something to do with one of her cases," I said.
"Um no actually, we're here about an old case," the younger brunette said.
"Alex," the man cut in.
"Dave she's going to find out anyway," Alex started.
"Blake no," Dave snapped.
"Dave, she knew we were going to come here, you read it if she wasn't ok with us telling her she wouldn't have left it," the other woman said.
"Fine Katie it's your call," Dave said.
"Oh, no, we are so not doing this it's you call Katie, not this time, we're here because of my call remember?" Katie snapped.
"Katie it was a good call," Alex said.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"The hell it was Alex if I had made a different call we wouldn't be here," Katie hissed.
"Yeah but Katie, she would probably be dead," Dave said.
"You don't know that Dave none of us do," Katie snapped.
"Again why are you here?" I tried again but, again none of the agents seemed to listen.
"Cole, you made a call most of us think it was the right call but even if it wasn't, which for the record I think you were right, but even if it was a bad call it was twenty five years ago there is no going back now only forward so why don't we focus on the decision we need to make now, do we tell her or not? and Katie both Dave and I value your opinion," Alex said.
"By that logic it's two against one so tell her," Dave said, "but you get to tell Arizona that you two told her."
"I'm not taking the fall for anything else in this case," Katie snapped.
"I will," Alex said.
"Thank you so tell me why are you here?" I asked, standing to face them all.
"How much do you know about Arizona's past?" Katie asked.
"Well I thought I knew all of it, but I have no idea who she went to visit and I haven't the faintest idea why you are here so just start at the beginning," I said.
"When Arizona was about seven her brother died in a car crash, he was fifteen he had just gotten his learners permit, the car hit some ice and went head on into a semi truck, he died in surgery," Katie said.
"I know this what does it have to do with you?" I asked.
"Do you know what happened after that?" Dave asked.
"That's the end of the story," I said.
"No, it's not," Katie begun, "after Johnny's death everything was ok for about a month but, her day Harvey he blamed her mother for Johnny's death said if she would have been teaching properly he'd still be alive. Harvey got violent with her, Arizona stopped going to school, they said that she needed time to grieve her brother. Miss Torres you don't want to know the details of what happened but, her father and her other brother Cynrick, he was fourteen, they killed her mom and nine other women, they kept her locked in the basement for at least four months, she was abused, when I found out that Harvey had a daughter who's body we hadn't found I made the call to go into the house without a warrent because I was afraid for her saftey. See we'd already talked to him less than ten minutes before we found out about Arizona. I made the call that we didn't have time to wait for a warrant because he could clean house and kill his little girl. We broke down the door, because of my decision all evidence on the murders was thrown out, under unlawful search and seizure. Both Harvey and Cynrick went away for the abuse of Arizona," as she finished I saw her eyes fall to the floor.
"Katie, the profile said he would have killed her, you did the right thing," Dave said.
"You think you made a mistake?" it was all I could say, I was shocked but I knew somehow that they weren't here over a twentyfive year old case.
"I think that if I would have waited for a warrant neither of them would have seen the light of day and we wouldn't be here," I said.
"That little girl could also be dead," Alex said.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"because it's been twenty five years, they were supposed to tell be a week before they got out, they told me this afternoon that they got out three days ago, we tried to call Arizona and when we couldn't get ahold of her we came here. We think that Cynrick and Harvey may have come after her," Katie said.
"You think that she is in danger and you put her there! What the hell kind of agents do you think you are?" I yelled shaking from shock and anger at the thought that Arizona could be being hurt.
"Do you have any idea what Katie does, she was a profiler but after that case she left and started the most successful crimes against children unit in the world, she does everything in her power to stop harm from coming to kids," Dave said.
"Stop flattering me," Katie said.
"It's not flattery Katie, you take down international child sex trafficking rings every month there isn't a kid out there that you won't help, Katie we all thought you would burn out twenty years ago but you're still at it," Dave said.
"Twentyfive years Dave, she thought she was safe, I failed her once and now I've failed her again," Katie said.
"You didn't fail her you made a decision, it was a judgement call in a life or death situation, you don't want to know how many of those I've made in my life, sometime they live sometimes they don't," I cut in thinking of Arizona and all the life or death judgement calls that had been made about her, "you make them and you don't look back, not ever because if you look back you second guess yourself and you'll kill yourself doing that." It wasn't eloquent but it was true.
"What would you know about it?" Katie snapped.
"Katie," Dave hissed.
"You want to know what I know of looking back on a judgement call? A year and a half ago a plane went down in the woods, by the time that they were found most of them were unconscious, but by the time that they made it to the hospital Arizona was conscious I promised I would save her leg when I took my wife into surgery. I made a promise something every doctor knows not to do, but she was my wife and I made the promise. Once we got in everyone said that it was too far gone and I needed to take the leg to keep her alive, I made the choice to cut her leg off to keep her alive and there isn't a day I don't regret it, but the father of my child didn't every wake up, my wife lost her leg, a good friend died, and my hospital allmost went under. We used the money from the lawsuit to keep the hospital open but I lost my best friend, and my wife in one day. Arizona and I have tried to put ourselves back together but she isn't the same woman that got on that plane. So I know about making a call that you regret but I also know that Arizona is alive because of both of us," I said.
"We don't know that," Katie said.
"We have to believe that she is," Dave said.
"Ok what can I do to help you to find her?" I asked.
"Arizona was smart she left the letter as a clue, we have the old profile of Harvey what we need to do is work up a new profile of Cynrick using his prison records, then we do a joint profile with Harvey as the dominant partner, we know that they took Arizona what we need to know now is where they took her, Katie already put in calls to both of their parole officers, they haven't seen them," Alex said.
"What we need from you Mrs. Torres is your knowledge of the city, we don't know much about it so we'll need someone to help us when we start narrowing down a geographic location, also we need you to have keep your lines open in case she breaks out," Dave said.
"I'll do what I can but mostly I only know what is between here and the hospital," I said, as someone knocked on my door. Alex opened the door to reveal Addison.
"Addie?" I asked
"I left right after you called me, who are you?" she asked the agents.
"Alex Blake, and you?" Alex replied.
"Addison Montgomery," Addie said.
"Look Addie can you wait a few minutes the agents here are looking for Arizona and right now finding her comes first so unless you know much about the area," I begun.
"I thought she left you," Addie asked.
"It's complicated Addie just give me a sec, Agent anything you want to know I'll answer I just need some time to take this all in," I said.
"We'll come back later," Katie said walking out the door.
"Just one quick thing was anything out of place right after she left?" Alex asked as Dave held the door.
"No, maybe her keys were on the floor barely inside the door," I said.
"Thanks if you think of anything call us," Dave put his card on the counter and they left.
"Callie what's going on?" Addison asked.