Disclaimer: all characters and The Host belong to Stephenie Meyer

Hey guys in my defense I told you the story was going to have mistakes. If you don't want to read it, I'm fine with that! English is not my first language, it's the second and I'm trying to revise it again and again but of course something might slip. I always have very kind readers in my others stories, some even took time editing them in the reviews, something I'm thankful for–

When I started to lift them they were lighter than I imagine. Mel was on the other side, of course. I had to clasp a hand to my mouth not to giggle and she motioned me to get out. She put the door back into place softly and grabbed my hand. Without making any noise we made it to the corridor that lead to the exit of the caves.

"Thank goodness you thought about the doors!" I whispered when we were already outside. I don't even know why I was whispering. I breathed the night air and looked at the sky I missed so much

"With that little body of yours, you would have dropped them and we would be inside right now explaining some stuff to Ian"

"I would have said that I was going to the bathroom and you just happened to be standing in the corridor"

"Right…" she said rolling her eyes. She grabbed my hand "Ready?"

"As ready as I could ever be" I took a deep breath

"Then let's go" we run until I couldn't keep pace and started stumbling, then we walk really fast and then Mel made me run a little more tugging urgently at my hand saying "Ian could be awake right now Wanda! Come on!"

We made it to the cars hidden in the little cave. We knew exactly what to do; we've seen it done so many times. Mel put the thing that left no tracks on the back of the car. We changed to new clothes quickly and then we were driving. Mel drove really fast for my liking.

"I hate you driving" I said clutching my seat belt. The ups and downs from the mountain were making me dizzy "stop I'm going to vomit"

"Do you feel sick?"

"You are making me sick. That's why Jared doesn't like you driving in the desert" Mel smiled

"Just don't vomit in here, we have a long drive"

We were a few meters away from the road. We waited with the headlights off. One car passed and then nothing. Mel did the turn really fast

"Seriously you're getting us kill!" the tires made such a noise. I covered my face with my hands

"Sorry. Don't you feel the trilled!?" she was completely giddy. That made me smile. Mel was a free soul not someone who wanted to live in a cave

"Yeah, I feel it" because my heart was pounding fast too "Basically for your driving…but I like this, getting out just us"

"And Jared and Ian are going to be so mad" she added smiling. That excited her too.

"That worries me. He's going to be so scared. Do you think they'll go out looking for us?"

"They are going to wake up and freak, Ian is going to be all hyperactive like 'we have to do something! Oh my poor Wanda might be in danger'" that made me laugh "and then Jared is going to be mad at me and then he'll think rational and stop Ian of sending fire sings, and then Ian is going to get into de mad phase and then Jeb is going to make both of them sit and wait" I could pictured everything happening just like she described it.

"Slow down or the seekers will get us" She slow a few kls just below the limit but was not happy about it.

"Now be good and sleep. You have to look fresh when we get there" We decided Tucson because it was the closest but we were going to the smallest health facility.

"I don't think I can" I whispered. Suddenly it dawned on me that I could be returning the caves knowing that I was having a baby or that I was not. I didn't know which one to be happy about… I look at the window trying to hide my face from Melanie.

"Wanda don't…" I didn't want to cry but couldn't control the tears.

"What. Am. I. Going. To. Do"

"Well…you know if it happens to be positive you can always…" she didn't finish and I was sure I was to catch on the next word but as innocent soul as I was I didn't know what she was suggesting

"I can always what?"

"You know…" she was looking straight at the road

"No, I don't know"

"Well don't have the baby"

"How I-?" I stop midsentence because I got her. "What? Is that something you humans did?" her face told me yes. It was such a horrible idea.

"Look some people couldn't take care of their babies. Sometimes it was the only way. Its more complicated than that. It wasn't killin-"

"There's always another way!"

"You took babies and put souls inside them without getting them the chance to live! They weren't even conscious!" Mel regretted what she said. I could tell, but that didn't stop me from replying

"At least I didn't kill innocent babies because I didn't want them" she opened her mouth but close it again

"Look, we're not discussing that. Abortion has always been a controversial matter. It was complicated then and it's difficult to explain it to you now. Forget I said anything… and sorry, I didn't- what I said about you-" I shook my head. Fighting about this wouldn't get us anywhere

"It's okay. I didn't mean it, either" I took a deep breath

(a.n: I didn't mean them to discuss abortion. Please don't get all flustered and review your opinions on the matter. Because I don't care what you think, you have a very good opinion, I'm sure. This is just how Wanda had to see the subject. And I'm not saying which side I'm on. Thank you : D )

We just kept quiet after that. I looked outside the window facing away from her. Mel turned on the radio at some point and there was a poorly recreated melody of a song I've heard on the Singing World it had been a happy melody then. I was not sure about it now, I hummed it absentmindedly. Somewhere in between the sun started rising in the horizon. The few hours passed and we got to the entrance of town.

"Should we change places now?" I asked Mel.

"No. I'm going to put my shades on and drive around while you're inside."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm not hiding in the back" I nodded. After a few minutes we spotted the sign of the health facility.

"What if I am?" I whispered

"Wanda, don't worry" Mel said when she stop in front of the hospital. My hand shook on the door handle. Mel grabbed my other hand. She gave me a smile "Whatever it is I'm here for you. Everything's gonna be okay. If you're having a baby that's fine, we're going to care for him together. Forget about the rest. Forget even about Ian now" how could I forget about him? If I was pregnant the baby was half him.

"I'm so scared" I used the back of my hand to clean the tears.

"Look at me. Its okay" I hugged her. "I wish I could go with you"

"Yes, me too. You're a very good friend"

"Awn my little sister. I love you" she kissed my cheek. "Now go" I opened the door and I was half outside the car

"What if I'm not?" I murmured not looking in her direction.

"You want to be" she realized, she let the words out like a breath. That one thing I was trying to lie to myself about, but I was very bad at lying and I wasn't fooling myself in this one. I so wanted to be but I was scared and nothing made sense. She grabbed my arm and pulled me inside again. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I didn't know" I managed to say. "I just realized" she smiled. She pulled some tissues from the little drawer and gave them to me.

"You, thousands of years old Soul have aptitude for motherhood, I knew that. I remember you saying it and know exactly how you feel about Jamie, about being a mother. You shared those thoughts with me. You have been waiting for it your 9 lives and now you can do it without dying. This is wonderful Wanda! If you're not then you can talk to Ian about it. I don't know what he will say…and if you're then there's something you wanted to do and you'll be able to. Give love to someone that way. Mother love!" What she said was so cute and encouraging that made me smile, she smiled back and added "now pull yourself together. The souls are going to freak out if they see you like this" she was right so I took a minute to breathe slowly and calm down. I looked at my reflection in the reviewer mirror, my eyes were a bit red and my face was flushed.

I finally got out of the car and walk inside. The receptionist greeted me with a smile.

"Hi I'm Leaves Dancing in the Wind"

"I was a flower once too" She said smiling. I smiled too "I'm Pink Bright Petals…how can I help you?"

"I… I wanted to know what's wrong with my- I wanted to know if I am pregnant" She didn't seemed surprised because I was young; her face was with the same impassive smile.

"Okay, come this way if you please" She led me toward the elevator. We went to floor number 5, and then she knocked on the closest door.

"Hi Miranda" She said when the Soul opened the door "This is Leaves Dancing in the Wind she wants to know if she is pregnant" The Soul smiled at me. Their kindness made me smile too. I went in the room and Pink Bright Petals went away.

"Sit down please Leaves Dancing in the Wind. Is there any reason why you didn't go to a pharmacy to get a test?" She asked.

"I guess I thought there wouldn't be any doubt if I came to a hospital. And I really didn't want to find out this on my own" I said and she nodded "I- I thought maybe it was something wrong with my diet or maybe it's just irregular periods? And then I thought maybe it was pregnancy" she nodded again while looking for something on a drawer

"Can you sit?" she motioned the bed. I did and then she asked "How old are you?"

"I just turned 20" if I was lying I didn't know because I didn't know my exact age, I lost track of my birthdays.

"Give me your finger please" I didn't know which so I just showed her my hand. She took the index. The device she had was a small metal square with a needle in one of the corners "It's not going to hurt, don't worry" She poke my finger with the needle and some blood came out. She then pressed my finger to metal square. She through the needle away and put the small metal square in the computer disc. After that she put a bit of Seal on my finger.

"You can sit here now" she pointed to the chair next to her desk, she sat on the other chair "Lets give it a minute…" I was short of breath, my hands were cold and sweaty. A little beep told me it was over. "mm let's see the results" she was taking a moment too long to read them. "Well, its says here that you're perfectly fine, fine blood pressure and-"

"That's not what I wanted to know" I cut her, I felt bad when the words came out a bit harsh. But I was used to talk to humans, not Souls. She smiled. "I'm sorry"

"No, it's okay. I'm Sorry; I thought that by reading the other stuff the test says you'll be calm when the news came" I face fell. WHAT ARE THE NEWS I WANTED TO SCREAM but manage to be impassive. "It is positive. You are pregnant" I let out the breath I was holding. I give her a small smile but I wanted to cry too, she smiled back. She started talking again but her voice was in off

Oh goodness. I'm pregnant. I am really pregnant. Ian. What is Ian going to say?

"-and also it says here that you were taking pills" I look up at her. "Don't worry they didn't harm your baby but you have to stop taking them" I nodded. "It's really unusual that you got pregnant while taking them but nothing is a 100% sure so…"

"I don't know much about this actually is there something I'm supposed to do?"

"You have to go to a Healer every month to see progress. And you mentioned your diet before…well if you don't keep a well balanced diet you might want to have a supplement just to make sure the baby has all the nutrients"

"And morning sickness..?"

"Oh you can't prevent that from happening, sorry. Now do you want me to make a file on you or are you going to another Health centre?"

"I'm only on vacation here actually, visiting some friends. I'm from Chicago, but thank you" I kept my smile.

"Do you want to see your little baby now?" she asked. My heart stopped.

"Yes please" I smiled and she made me lie down on the bed. She lifted my t-shirt and with another device like a control remote she turned on a flat screen I hadn't seen was in the wall and turn up the volume, then she put the remote to my stomach and a heartbeat started

"Strong heartbeat. That's your almost two months old baby" she pointed a finger to the screen a really small black dot "Your baby it's about the size of a grain of rice, at this point most of the organs are already in place for further development"

"Wow" is all I could manage to say and I find myself staring at the screen choke with tears. How much I wish someone was with me to share the moment. I wanted Ian or Mel to be with me. The Healer turned off the screen and handed me a piece of paper.

"First baby picture!" She said. She walked me to the door and I shook her hand

"Thank you so much for your help" I said. I took the stairs instead, I wanted to run then I remember I was pregnant and that wasn't probably the wisest thing and walk the other half.

"See you soon" said the receptionist and waved

"Thank you" I told her grinning before heading out. Mel wasn't in the parking lot but as soon as I was visible the car appeared before me. I opened the door and got in.

"SO?!" She asked. I just smiled "Are you happy?" she hugged me tight

"Yes, yes of course" I show her the picture

"Oh my God. I can't believe this!" she said holding it "Tell me everything" she started the car and drove

"Wait before going back I want to make a quick stop" I motioned the pharmacy. She stopped and I went inside. Got a few more bottles of the nutrients supplement we already have back in the caves just in case and then went into another store in the same block and got out with a calendar and a red marker.

"Now tell me everything!" she demanded. She drove slowly this time, maybe making the most of the time we had. I told her everything, she listened without interrupting me.

"I'm happy for your" She said finally.

"Oh goodness I'm so scared" Mel looked at me. "Remember that conversation you had with Jared? You know…the first time you guys talked about your relationship…"

"Yes, what does that have to do with this?"

"Well I remember what Jared said…about babies and bringing one into this world"

"Are you seriously concern about what Jared might tell you? Like for real if he dares to say anything at all to you I'll kill him" She snorted

"No, that's not what I meant. I know he won't, and I don't care if he does. But he had a point, maybe a baby here and now it's not the best idea. What if he was right? What if Ian feels the same way?"

"First of you're already pregnant. And you're happy nothing is more important than that. If it happened it's because it was the right timing for you and that baby was made out of love, I can tell you that even before Ian knows about it. Because I've seen how you guys look at each other" I considered this, it was all true but that doesn't mean I was less scare, there were a lot of stuff to think about now that I was really pregnant. Dealing with Ian was just one of them.

"Do you think he's going to be mad?"

"About you being pregnant? Of course not. It's not like it's your fault, you didn't get pregnant on purpose. He saw you taking the pill everyday"

"I don't know what I'd go without you" I told her. I closed my eyes

"I don't know what you would either" she laughed and nudged me and I giggled. "I thank that it was you the one put in my body everyday"

"Me too" we kept quiet. I had my eyes closed but couldn't get to sleep. There were a lot of questions going on in my mind.

Before I knew it Mel turned and we were again in the desert going up and down. My heart was racing and this time it was not because of Mel's driving.

"I wish I could skip this part" I say when we got out of the car

"Do you mean the running or Ian?"

"Ian but maybe running too"

"We'll go slowly" We made it to the entrance after a good half hour of walking fast "This won't be fun" She took my hand. "Don't worry" she whispered.

As soon as we were inside the caves Jamie and Kyle attack us with questions. I swallowed hard while Mel told them to shup up and tell us through. Jamie went running down the corridor yelling they are back back they are back ack ack. His words echo all along the corridor. We made it to the central cave and most of them were there.

Ian and Jared looked between me and Mel and made its way to us.

Oh-oh.

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