I was crying my eyes out, sitting here at the corner at the once: place that I felt warm in, was a freezing, cold hole of misery. And it was all his fault. I trusted him. Gave him my entire life, just for him to chuck it out of the window like a rusty tool. Is that what he saw me as? Is that what I was all this time?

The stereo is on blink, but it's better that way. The air is filled with sorrow, and the only noise that can be heard is the emptiness and my sniffles. I'm home alone, lost in thought as I replay the image in my mind. Disgusting, repulsive... Especially when it is with someone I gave my life to.

Piplup comes try cheer me up, but I'm in no mood to feel all ecstatic. My boyfriend had just cheated behind my back, slept with another woman in our own house. In our own bed. And what's more shocking? Is that he doesn't have the decency to confront his sins. That I have to hear from the people around me and catch them.

I feel so torn...

The music finally plays, and I make the effort to stand up and turn it off. It was our song, the lullaby for whenever one of us was depressed. I remember clearly. We'd sing along in our happiest moment, and listen to the lyrics whenever we were in misery.

But today, I feel like doing neither.

It doesn't turn off, and by this note I am frustrated. I throw it on the floor, and it smashes. It was all he had that was once his father's possession, but at this moment at time I couldn't be bothered considering the feelings he had inside him. I was vexed, and angered.

I whirl round, averting my eyes off it, just to face another memory.

The vase of flowers on the table. I break down, onto my knees, crying hysterically as my bawling echoes through the house hold. Before I had lost him, he gave me these flowers to symbolize our forever growing love. Guess those flowers are going to wither anytime soon, because the so called love just died.

Pictures and frames were took down by the time an hour passed. Every frame I came across, he was giving his smile Genuine, devious, fake. It was still a smile to adore and cherish, At least... when he was by my side and I was clueless of his bad deeds.

I disposed of everything that made me remember him. Everything had to go. And soon enough... everything was gone. :(

It's strange to think the songs we used to sing,
The smiles, the flowers, everything...
Is gone~

It was still bright as day outside, although it was eight thirty. I decided to keep my mind fresh, and focus on the happiness. Bawling on what happened yesterday wasn't going to fix the past. I had to move on, and show that I was brave enough to make a stand and last afterwards.

I still kept a fine state, and grabbing the keys, I stared at the only thing that was his... the now spare keys lying on the counter. It would come in handy whenever I lost mine, and it would be stupid to dispose it since there was the danger of someone finding it and tracking the house down.

I walked out, locking the door behind me, greeting the great day. I forced a smile, as the neighbours looked and then turned to whisper. I ignored them and kept walking. To the park, where everything seemed clear whenever everything was wrong. Especially my life.

Passing friends, they held a affect as if they were jeering strangers, all against me. Soon I came to the conclusion to run. The outside world would become a blur and the faces would disappear from sight, although I knew living in denial wouldn't dispose of my misery for long.

I got the gates, and opened them quickly to make way. I threw myself on the bench that I once shared with Ash, and breathed out heavily as I gave myself rest. It was a gorgeous day, but it didn't make an impact on my emotions. I still stayed miserable, with the images flashing in my head.

I close my eyes, and lie down on the bench as I take it all in and allow air to kiss my skin. Being jailed inside my own house was stressful, and I needed the breeze to calm me down. It was all tranquilizing, until I had this inner sense that there was a pair of eyes on me.

I opened my eyes.

"Can I sit next to you?" he asked, giving me that gorgeous smile that I had fell for. Who am I kidding? I'm still falling for it. But I hold myself in and just budge, leaning on the side as I give enough room to fit three. I wanted to send the message that I wanted as much distance between us as possible. No way forgiveness was making an entrance after the sins he'd preformed.

"Look, I know you hate me right now."

I averted my eyes off him and just pursed my lips. He gave a great sigh, and then tried to rap his arms around my waist. The arms that had once been laid on another woman's bare skin. Then again, it was those arms that assured me in bad days that all was going to run smoothly.

"Get off me!" I hiss, jerking off as I kept my eyes averted. I didn't want to look at him. It hurt me too much to lock eyes with those soft, brown chestnut eyes that I loved so much. Seeing him in general seemed like a crime I couldn't accomplish.

"I take it all back Dawn! It was a moment of weakness?"

"And what?! You just had to say yes, didn't you?!" I retort, finally making eye contact with him as my anger was let loose. He didn't reply, just hung his head in shame as he twiddled with his fingers, lost for words. I would be, if you were asking your ex for forgiveness for something as cruel as what he did.

Even now just looking at you,
feels wrong~

You say that you'd take it all back.
Given one chance,
It was a moment of weakness...
And you said~... Yes. :[

"Thought so." I grumbled, walking away. But he still clung on, digging his nose in my hair as he took in the scent. For a split second, the feeling was too memorizing and familiar to shake off. But I wouldn't forgive myself if I'd break down and allow him in my heart again.

"Ash! You should've said: No. You should've gone home! You should've thought twice 'fore you let it all go! You should've know that word, with what you did with her, get back to me... And I should've been there, in the back of your mind. I shouldn't be asking myself: Why?! You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet... You should've said no Ash. And maybe, you might of still had me.."

"I guess..." he mumbled, releasing me as he walked away. I wanted to call out for him, give him one more chance. But I needed to settle my heart before I did anything. I knew the self confidence would pay off, and if I did get back with Ash, I'd be able to keep him on a short leash.

I forced a smile, and walked back home. We'd made too much of a scene to lie low - that was my plan - so my only option was to go back home. But I didn't mind.

It was a long path, and I couldn't dart home since this time I was swarmed with people asking if I was okay. I gave them the same question, but they still pleaded to know the details. I heard quotes that Ash was a 'prostitute' and 'should've known better', but I told them to stop.

"I wanna go home. Just please, leave me." I demanded, running through.

The following week wasn't pleasing, and I hadn't seen Ash at least once. But it was his fault. His actions, his sins. And I just wished that he didn't do it... because baby, he might still of had me.

Killed it with the ending, but ya know, I told you freedom was short. But I forgot to mention absolutely sweet. Anyway, it is up to you if Ash and Dawn end up getting together or staying apart. And if your here to bash pearl shipping, step away haters, because you ain't got nuthin' on Ash, nor Dawn.

Ok, so I hope you liked the speech part Dawn gave, because it was a part of the lyrics xD
Smart huh? I didn't know how to put it in action, so I made her say her on song fiction! And I might include a character saying like now.

Ash: Just for you supporters... it's all fiction. I did not cheat on Dawn and never will. I absolutely adore her and I wouldn't be surprised if she let me. But if it was her, yeah I would be pretty vexed for a while, but I can't keep myself away from her!

Dawn: D'aw! Well, I love you to Ash. Same. In my opinion, Angel should of gave the ending when us two are still together. You are no prostitute, and I would keep you forever. And besides, you wouldn't do anything like that to me. I trust you, since you have the key to my heart ^/^

That's so~ cute... but we kinda don't have time for it. So anyway, the next song will be today was a fairytale. And I made a new rule for my pearlswift :) My section won't always be the beginning of the song, may be the chorus. You never know!

K, I love you guys too much to give up freedom now. See ya! =D

Next song... Today Was A FairyTale. :D