Hey guys, I just need to tell you that this chapter is on really sensitive topics such as suicide. So, I suggest readers discretion. Love you guys and if you are suffering please don't hesitate to reach out to people who care about!

Recap: Amu zoned out for the rest of the lesson but was startled when the bell rang, and she was asked to stay behind. He moved across the room and towered over her and asked "really Amu? Not paying attention that requires a detention you will catch up and at least try to remember my name, it's Ikuto Tsukuyomi"

Startled Amu gapes at her teacher's face. It was impossible, Amu had never been caught for zoning out or even punished for it. The idea seemed so foreign to her. So, she just sat there stunned as her teacher sat on the desk opposite hers, staring intently until he spoke "so what made you think that zone out while I was going through someone of the basics? Are you that confident?"

Amu wanted to yawn but gave up on the thought, instead she responded, "it's not that I am confident but I just don't get maths and there is no point for me to even try its not like my parents will let take the exams this year, 'she is not mentally stable enough to take the tests' that's what they have been saying for the last two years, I am not even supposed to even be here I should have been in my 1st year of university!" all the words that were pilling up in her head like bricks weighing her down just spilled out her mouth. She didn't even care, even if he knew what he could do…nothing. 'No one can do anything for me, it's as simple as that and their pity is worthless'

"So, you said mental stable, right? Why aren't you mentally stable enough to take these tests?" Ikuto asked, he tried connecting some pieces, but nothing clicked. She didn't seem like she was lying she seem way older than the kids he was teaching a couple of minutes ago. She had a better, more toned body than the slim bodies of second year high school students. Amu scoffed, how pathetic if a teacher couldn't solve the obvious mystery of depression. "I am depressed, I have been since the start of middle school, it made my parents' divorce only after my father cheated and blamed me and took my younger sister. They still come together every month to make my life worse" Amu said easily, it didn't hurt her anymore since she talked to her therapist everyday after school the same repetitive, it came to her easily now. Ikuto nodded still thinking, 'what was her trigger, there must have been a trigger for her depression the human mind is more logical than another species on the planet, she wouldn't suddenly become depressed for no reason, but it doesn't seem like she knows.'

"I don't care, you will not zone out in any of you lessons this year, I want to see all my students pass this year, do you understand me Ms. Hinamori?" Ikuto said harshly, ignoring the fuming look on her face it was probably better than letting her wallow in the pity other teacher and people provided her. Amu fumed, what did this teacher not get? She was clinically depressed, suicidal and even self-harming, and she couldn't zone out during the day because she needs to boast this teacher's ego letting him believe that all of his students will pass. Hah what a joke.

"So, can I go now?" Amu asked him as he got out of his seat to move towards the board. "Nope, you're are going to stay here and do the lesson again, and then I am going to test to see how much you absorbed, if it's not enough we will redo all the lessons you zoned out in after school, do understand me Ms. Hinamori?" he reprimanded her.

~~~after break~~~

Amu stared at the test result in front of her. How long had it been since she had done so well? How long had it been since she listened to what was happening in the lesson? How long has it been since she scored 100% on her tests? Since middle school, that's how long it's been. Her life had been so different back then she had friends, everyone liked her, talked to her and it was all so fun but when did it change? Why did it change? Suddenly a memory replayed in her head…

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"Onee-san, why are you so mean to me?" Ami asked looking up at her older sister. Just as the little whine left her mouth both her parents stormed over, screaming, shouting their lung out at Amu for being a terrible older sister. Tears left Amu's eyes as her parent's turned away from her in disgust, turning to give all of their love and attention on the youngest daughter…Ami

Ami was perfect, even if she did make a mistake it would be glossed over like it was nothing. And if it was Amu, she would never hear the end of it. Suddenly Amu collapsed, when she woke up, she was laying in the same place.

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That was when her depression started acting up. She couldn't go near her sister. She avoided Ami like the plague because of the hurt that welled up in her heart.

Leaving her thoughts aside, she focused on her lessons, and focused even more until the end of the day she didn't lose her focus. She walked out of her class and towards the staff room to find the snobby teacher. She knocked on the door and saw Ikuto come out, "oh hey, Ms. Hinamori! Did you bring your report back?" he asked cheerfully as if he wasn't the cause for to go on the negative report. She rolled her eyes and handed him the report. A sudden epiphany hit her "sensei I can't have my parents sign the report; they would kill me if they found out."

He simply nodded as if he expected that. "you did better than I thought you would. Okay, you can go, I will keep this with me." Amu suddenly said "wait, sensei thank you for today, I didn't realise it had been so long since I tried in the lessons, if you hadn't given me that break detention I may never have realised that this is the way to get over my depression." She looked down as a blush took over face. His soft smile turned into a smirk as he saw her blushing, grabbing her chin making her look at him he said "Amu-Chan are you crushing on me already? Boi do you fall quickly, I can't wait to see you tomorrow, Amu-Chan!" he walked into the staff room cheerfully waving her off.

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