So, first thing's first, I don't own Death Note

Spoiler in this chapter! But come on, if you don't know L's real name by now are you really that hard core of a Death Note fan?

I hated myself for L dying in the last chapter, I just couldn't do it. I was even losing sleep just thinking about it, and I only sleep about four hours a night anyway! So I drove myself crazy trying to find a way to save L at the very last second. I didn't want a cheezy cop-out like "It was all a dream" But I just couldn't think of a way to make L live. And then it hit me, and I was pissed that I didn't think of it first because before that I tried my hardest just to manipulate some other rules of the Death Note to cheat his death. It was so easy I just felt so stupid in the end. It was so obvious.

But enough of my stupidity. I finally realized that to save L...he would have to die! Isn't that great? No? Just read and you'll get it. I got the idea to do this from one of my friends in anime club, and my own stupid head.

The return of his Angel

L was dead.

L was gone.

What had he done? L couldn't die! This can't have happened.

Light was losing his mind; everywhere he went he saw L. They had the funeral, but he still couldn't believe it.

"Hey Light!" Light was depressed; he just couldn't bring himself to answer Ryuk. "Liiiiiiggggggghhhhhttttt" Still nothing. "Man, this is no fun." Light turned his head away.

"Maybe I'll just write your name in my Death Note then." He didn't even flinch.

"Wow, L dying really must've got to you" Then Light lost it.

"What do you think? How the hell did it even happen? I just started to care about him! It's all your fault for giving me this stupid book in the first place!" Light threw the Death Note across the room of his apartment. Then his anger turned into a sad smile. "I can't believe I loved him so much, I didn't realize…I didn't know… It feels so empty now…It'll be boring with him gone. You might as well just write my name down Ryuk, I've already thrown my life away" Light lay on his bed and closed his eyes.

I've never seen him like this… I don't wanna be bored…hmmm Ryuk didn't want to admit it, but he had grown attached to Light, he didn't want to kill him, plus it would be boring. Then, he remembered something, he only had a little left, he looked at Light. Aw I guess I gotta do it. Geez living here must've done something to my shinigami-ness. "Hey Light, I just remembered something. How would you like to have a Death Eraser?" Light was just about to tell Ryuk exactly where he could stick any more of his stupid shinigami crap, but his curiosity got the best of him. "What the hell is a Death Eraser?"

"Hyuk, hyuk, hyuk, you're really gonna like this kiddo. If you have a Death Eraser and rub out a name on the Death Note... That person comes back to life, I just happen to have one use left" Light was shocked. Come back to life? L could come back, he wouldn't have to be alone anymore! He could be with L again, he could… No, he wouldn't, L wouldn't ever want to see him again, he would turn Light in for being Kira.

…. That was fine, he would do it. He would use the Death Eraser, he had to see him, even if L would hate him.

"Give me the eraser Ryuk"

L would live, it was time for Light to reap what he sowed, and he would die to save L.

Light had decided that a good time to get L would be Friday night, no one ever went that night, and people were convinced it was haunted. He hadn't been buried yet, the funeral had been just to show his casket, he was going to be buried later on. He was still inside the funeral home. It was easy enough for him to pick the lock, and no one was inside.

And there it was, the coffin that he never wanted to see again after tonight. The sight was… The box was…

Closed.

All of a sudden, Light felt very nervous. He couldn't bring him back now, there may be a commotion, he would bring L to his apartment first.

He walked over to the coffin and lifted the lid.

Light gasped and was brought to tears.

There lie his best friend, the person closest to him, his own mind's match, his L. He looks so… so… Light couldn't even find a word to describe how beautiful he looked, how his heart jumped into his throat, how it made his heart beat faster just to be able to see him again. He brought him into his car, no one would open the coffin, the visits were already over. He started to drive home.

He brought L upstairs and lay him on the bed. He grabbed the Death Note with L's name inside, he never did look, he was afraid of the name. He knew that was ridiculous, but he just wasn't able to do it. Now he had to, he had to get L back. He opened it and finally knew.

L Lawliet

It was the most beautiful name in the world to Light, he had wanted to learn this name from day one. Most of it was curiosity more than to write it in the Death Note, but as long it was in this book he didn't want to look at it anymore. He clutched the eraser and rubbed out the name, he didn't stop when it was gone, he used the whole eraser. It was more desperation than necessity, but this had to work, there was no room for mistakes.

It was gone… but he wasn't waking up "why isn't it working?"

Ryuk flew into the room "It might take awhile, he's been dead ya know" Light was frantic "What if it doesn't work! What if he really is gone! What if…if…"

"Hrmm…." Light froze. What was that? He turned and saw the most wonderful thing in the world.

He saw L lying on his bed, breathing in and out, he was asleep. He was asleep! Light ran over to him and put his head on L's chest. His heart was beating, Light finally relaxed. He was alive again. L was alive. Light didn't want to leave him alone, he didn't want to be away from him ever again, but he had to let L rest. Light decided to lay out some clothes for L to wear when he got up. He fell asleep by mistake, he had been up for hours and Light was exhausted. But he finally had some peace of mind back.

Hours had past, but it was still dark outside. The sleeping figure had started to stir, he rose… and felt horrible. Why does my head hurt? He rubbed his temples and stood up. He was too groggy to fully register what was going on or where he even was. He managed to find his way to the bathroom, he just sat on the floor, feeling sick he pretty much just emptied whatever was left in his stomach into the toilet.

When he was finished, he tried to shield his eyes from the light. Where am I? L tried to think, the last thing I remember is being in the Task Force building, and then… !. He had finally remembered! The shinigami…his name was written in the Death Note and Light… Light, he was really Kira after all. I guess I always knew, but why am I alive? It was too real to be a dream. What is going on?

He started to get up to investigate and walked to the bathroom door.

Light had finally woken up, he heard someone moving. He's awake…what will happen now? Light took a deep breath and started to walk into the room. He saw L walk through the door and his heart skipped a beat. He couldn't even think of anything to say. He tried to take a step forward, but L moved even further away, eyes wide.

"Kira" his voice was hoarse from disuse the words left his mouth before L had even thought about what he was saying. "You, You're Kira. You lied the whole time… you killed all of those people you heartless bastard!...I can't believe that I actually thought, that I really…" L stopped himself from saying anything else, but then came to the conclusion that he had been keeping back. He was quieter this time "You made that shinigami kill me, didn't you?"

Light lowered his head and nodded, he knew that this would happen, but he still couldn't bring himself to speak. He was literally frozen in place. All he could do was stare.

"You killed me… you just did whatever you needed to so that you could get rid of me, you pretended to care, pretended to be innocent" Light couldn't hold back anymore, he was unfrozen now, he walked up to L and stood there, looking at him. L cringed, expecting Light to hit him, but there was no impact. He opened his eyes and Light was still just standing there. What is he… His thoughts were cut off when Light wrapped his arms around L and held him close.

"You're alive…I'm so glad. I'm so happy you're okay" L noticed that L was crying. He was confused.

"Why? Why are you doing this? Why am I alive?" When Light finally trusted himself to keep his composure he let go of L and wiped away his tears. "I did kill you L… Kira took over, he had become a person of his own. I had lost myself…but when I saw you die, I-I-I just couldn't bear it. I tried to tell myself that I hated you, that I wanted you dead, but I just couldn't." Light couldn't continue, it hurt his heart to even think about L being taken away again.

"But how did I come back to life? It should have been impossible" Light smiled bitterly "Well it will take awhile to tell you everything…but I really want to stop lying to you. Please listen to me, and if you hate me you can turn me in to the police. I know that's what you're going to do anyway, think of it as my confession. I just want to be here with you before that. I just want to be honest with you"

L was apprehensive "How do I know that you just weren't able to kill me and are trying to get my name now?"

"Because I'm the one who brought you back to life. I know your name already" L's eyes widened

"What? How?" but then regained his composure "That's just a bluff Yagami-kun. There isn't any way that you could find out my name"

"No, L Lawliet. I know your name" L was stunned, he hadn't heard anyone say his real name in so long he almost forgot it himself.

"Then why would you want to bring me back to life after you had won?" Light looked into L's eyes and his heart was feeling heavy, but managed to smile anyway.

"Because L… I, um, maybe…what I mean is… I think…I mean I am…"

"…." He bit his lip.

Light could barely get the words out but managed to say one of the most sincere things that have ever come out of his mouth.

"I'm in love with you"

Review! Please? No one has been lately and its kind of depressing. Tell me what you think, give me suggestions. I love to hear from everyone! This weekend is Anime North! It's the first convention I'm going to ever, I'm so excited! Wish me luck in my hunt for merchandise and autographs!