Okay, this is the revamp. I hope that this is much better after I've edited it and made a few minor changes!
Disclamer: You all know I'm not Rumiko Takahashi! If I was I'd be rich! and I'm not. And I don't own any of the characters in Inu Yasha.
I was a little disappionted that no one reveiwed, but I won't be discouraged! on with the story!
It was raining when I got through. Not a good sign. I silently swore. Something I picked up form someone. I sighed and looked down at Douten. He was sleeping; I needed to get to the house before he got sick. I could think later, first I had to live up to my new responsibility. I ran to the house and sneaked up to my room. I rapped him in a blanket and put pillows around him to form a make-shift crib. Now I could think.
Why did I take him? I still can't answer that question. I wish I could. I wasn't thinking when I took him. He doesn't look completely human. His peers will detach him from normal life. My peers will detach both of us from normal life. I have to drop out of school all together now, well, unless my mom will take care of him. My schoolmates and teachers will look at me differently than before. And Douten will always be discriminated against. He will always be the boy without a father, with a whore mother. And because he will always look different. No, maybe not always.
I looked at him. The jewel glowed pink. I know I can do this. It's just a simple masking spell. I learned this with Kaede and Kikyo. I closed my eyes.
She expressed how she couldn't stand the evil of Naraku and decided to use her soul and the other's souls to lock Naraku into the jewel, making it an unstable weapon, even more powerful than before, capable of destroying anything if left in the wrong hands. I can still fell them, my friends, and my enemy. I can feel the love, and the hate. I can understand now. I can understand what could not be verbalized before. The closest word to it is love, but that does not nearly encompass all of it. It is like everything positive, but yet negative at the same time. Maybe this emotion is the reason I took on so many burdens. I never wanted them. Collecting the jewel, protecting it, living a seemingly normal teenage life. Now I have Douten. I don't understand why I will always pick the hardest way of life. I doubt I ever will.
He awoke with the sound of lightning. It was strange; he didn't start crying. He just looked at me. I instantly knew what he wanted. He was hungry. I hurried down to the basement and found a box with all of Souta's baby stuff. Since I was in a hurry, I only grabbed a bottle. I would bring up the rest of the things later. I ran to the kitchen and grabbed some powdered milk and some instant breakfast. I spooned some into a bottle and filled it the rest of the way with warm water. After I got back upstairs, I held him as I was taught to do in a child development class. He wanted to take the bottle out of my hands, but I didn't let him. He probably would have starved to death before any wolves got to him if I hadn't have found him. He probably hasn't eaten in days. If he were human he would already be dead. He finished the bottle and I put a blanket over my shoulder so I could burp him.
The night passed quickly after that. I drifted through my thoughts and feelings and watched him sleep. I must have fallen asleep sometime while drifting, but I don't remember ever taking my eyes off him.
When I awoke it was morning. I could smell and hear my mother making breakfast in the kitchen. I'm sure she knew I was home. Suddenly, I panicked. What if she disapproved of him? What if she made me bring him back? What if…? I couldn't stop worrying. But I could only know for sure if I found out…
I picked up Douten, trying not to wake him. Wrapping him in a blanket, I slowly walked out of my room and down the stairs. Mom was watching what she was cooking and only heard me come in.
"Oh, Hi Kagome! I thought you were home! I saw--" She had looked up. I knew she instantly saw the bundle wrapped in a blanket in my arms. She smiled. There was a hint of sadness in her eyes, for she knew the hardships I will have to face. "Well, why don't we go get Souta's baby things out of the basement?" Now it was my turn to smile. We both knew it would be a long road a head of us, but we will never look back.
With Souta's help, the crib and high chair were set up in less than three hours. All the clothes were washed and Douten was out of his feudal era clothes. I explained everything to my mom, but something tells me that even if I hadn't said anything, she would still have helped me. She commented on how well behaved he was, nothing like Souta or me. Both Souta and I woke up every two hours and just about woke the whole neighborhood up.
"He is the perfect child," she said. "You'll have an easy time raising him, and by easy, I mean he won't wake you up and you won't be grumpy in the morning." We both laughed. Then it fell silent.
"Mom?"
"Yes?"
"How bad will this affect out income?"
"Oh, Kagome! You don't worry about that, let me worry about that."
"But, Mom!"
"Will it affect how you love him?"
"Well, no."
"Then why do you care how much he will cost?"
"…" It was never mentioned again, but my mom got another job to help me, and as soon as I was old enough, I got a job, too.
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Kaihaku no Iroke (reviews and constructive stuff welcome, flames are not.)
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