Declaimer: Don't own Ranma ½
A/N: I never planned on continuing this fic... it was just something I had on my mind and I had to write it down. But... Since I kinda liked the idea of continuing it and writing what happens next... I'll try my best. This is a (p.o.v) and it is my first time I'm trying to write it like that so bear with me. It's part songfic since the first chapter was one too and just coz I like it to be so too. ^_^
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Can I go now?
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I can't believe it. He found me. I sighed looking at his blue eyes. I always loved his eyes. Who wouldn't? The moment they captor your gaze it's like your trapped. My love for him must have blinded me. I used to think he knew all my secrets the second he looked me in the eye. What a fantasy, feh.
To think he could tell my feelings for him without me telling him. I was a coward. A stupid dreamer. A child.
I don't love him anymore. It popped into my mind suddenly.
Yeah, you caught that right. It was just a puppy love. I know that now. After a long eight years. I was surprised when I found out, two years after I left. I was so busy I didn't even realize that it was gone. One day I saw him on TV he was at a national martial arts fighting computation. He was great. I felt happy for him. And then I noticed it. The butterflies I used to have when seeing him, even when I was looking at his picture, it was gone. At first I was panicked and scared, I mean this was the guy I was going to marry! What if I did succeeded in marring him and nobody would've stopped us?
After I calmed, and convinced myself it's all in the past now. I had this motto since I left `no dawdling in the past. What's done is done`. And indeed when I thought about it again I smiled. No regrets. That's what I said to myself when I left that's what I'll say to myself right now.
I should be ashamed of myself. After all he did for you Akane? But I don't. You can get mad if you want. It won't help you making me feel guilty. Ranma made his choices and don't think I'm not grateful for all the saving he did for me. But I can't help it. It's the human heart and it plays tricks on us all.
I lived a lot better after I found out about it. Stress less on my emotions.
Like I first suspected the modeling gig didn't go too well. I managed to keep it up for three months but lets face it I'm no lady and that is what they wanted me to be. They thought I was a nice Japanese girl. Heh, yeah right. I'm a martial artist... yes I love it that people telling me I'm beautiful and the admiring.. I am a woman after all but when they tried to make me something I'm not that just wasn't right. I got out of there pretty fast. There's never a shortage in models wanna be. The fact is that those girls would probably make an even better model then me. I hated to take pictures any way (thank you Nabiki *sneer*).
Luckily I had made some cash in my short modeling. Enough to keep me worm and sated. But I was looking for a job and again lady luck smiled at me and dropped it on me. Literally.
~Flash back~
CRASH
"Ouch!" I yelled out.
"Shut up you b!t*h!" the guy yelled and I turned my head up to look at him . GAH! He was wearing a ski mask and he had his gun pointed to my head . Hey! Don't get me wrong I am a tough martial artist but I'm not bulletproof. I was scared.
"He ran through there!! Quickly!" Thank kami. The cops.
"Dang!" the masked man hissed, got up and ran away. With his back turned to me. Now I was pissed. And there I was standing with my aura flaring about red and not minding the cops that were right behind me I ran full speed at the criminal... I guess I allowed myself being brave since his gun wasn't pointed at me anymore and I got my senses back - he really startled me - I did an air flip right above his head and kicked him with a high kick that sent him right into the shocked officer hands. Knockdown. Two points. Heh.
~End flash back~
I found out later that this guy was wanted about robbing a bank and killing the bank officer and he was stupid enough to try that again. Another surprise was that the police officer that caught the man after I kicked him was the commissioner at the police center. He actually wanted to see if I could do more. Dumb luck. *Snicker* not that I was complaining.
And now here I am. An Officer of the law. I was planning on joining the FBI or maybe the CIA (A/N: correct me if I'm wrong) since I was getting pretty good recommendations from my co-workers and superiors.
A sound of someone clearing his voice startled me from my stumper. Ho right. Ranma.
"Hello Akane. Long time no see."
I could see it in his eyes. He was mad, sad, disappointed and another couple of feelings I couldn't or didn't want to recognize. They all came and go with a flash. He also seemed to be older at his heart not only in age. Once I thought he had the wisdom of fools, now looking at his eyes I see he has the wisdom of experience. Did I say already he had beautiful eyes? I was actually sad to see him disappointed at me. But then I looked up at him again defiantly. - It's my life. -
The radio at the restaurant played a song. I recognized it. 'Can I go now' by Jennifer Love Hewitt (A/N: don't own the song). It fit my mood.
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What's the point of trying to meet you in the middle?
You got your point of view
There's nothing I can do
Can't change your mind
Can't leave it all behind
You're living in the past
~ ~ ~ ~
"Hello Ranma." I smiled at him. No point in having hard feeling. And then he asked me the question I feared of all.
"Why?"
I sighed and looked him in the eye. It was such a fluke we met in that restaurant. I had to be a guard there; since it was a fighter's reunion you could never know when a fight would break. I just hope there won't be a fight right now.
~ ~ ~ ~
We talk and talk
Discuss for hours
About how it should be
Why is it all me
Don't wanna fight
Don't wanna waste my time
Baby just can't relax
I'm moving on, moving on
~ ~ ~ ~
"I.. Do you really want to know?" I asked him seriously. "No more b.s." I stopped the child play seven years ago when I found out the world isn't always fairies and roses and "I ain't planning on being soft. If I'm gonna tell you I'm gonna say the truth." The middle part I said to myself I didn't want to tell Ranma I stopped believing in super natural things. Especially after all we went through. Even if Ranma had switched genders in front of my eyes I won't believe it. It's been a long time.
He rolled his eyes at me. "Just tell me Akane. I won't be angry at ya."
"Alright." I said and smiled sadly. "I was tired."
"Tired?"
"Huh uh. From the fighting, crying, from the danger.... From you." I whispered the last part.
He seemed to understand. "It could have been different." He told me finally, "You could have stayed and tell me.... Or your sisters...."
Or not. At that moment I wished I could go away from him again. Play the coward again and leave things be. I was happy with what I am now. Why did he have to complicate every thing all over again? I know he doesn't love me and if he did then not anymore. I can see it in his eyes. So why does it matter?
~ ~ ~ ~
Can I go now
Say what you have to say
Happy you've got your way
There's nothing to discuss
Can I go now
Giving your point of view
Say what you want it too
So what's the point of love
Can I go now
Oh say what you have to say
Happy you've got your way
What is to discuss
~ ~ ~ ~
The song kept playing. I wasn't sure it was mine anymore. At least I didn't want it to be mine.
"So.. I see you did well!" I had to change the subject, I didn't like where it was going. "Saw you on TV last week." I said happily.
He narrowed his eyes. "Yeah... Akane -.."
"Ranma," I cut through stopped him from saying any other word. I said no b.s. And I meant it, now I'll tell him what I feel. "There's no point. Look at me. I'm content with my life! Never had to fight demons only law criminals. I'm not proud that I ran away but.... I did it to myself. Selfish, you can call me but there is this much a person can take and I just wasn't mentally strong enough to hold. But it's all in the past right now. I moved on." O.k. so I censored some.
~ ~ ~ ~
What's the point of trying to reach compromise
When you're the only judge and jury
What's the story
I can't make you see that I'm not always wrong
I can't make you right
It's time to move on
I'm moving on
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He sighed and lowed his head. "I understand." This time I knew he understands. I mean, the guy was under a lot more pressure then I was. He just had too much honor to run away. I gave up mine long ago. He smiled at me bitterly.
"We can still be friends." I told him with a smile. "In fact let's start all over again!"
He looked at me like I went crazy, for a second I thought I did, but then his eyes yet again flashed feelings and what I saw made me smile even wider. Hope.
And I hoped he really was thinking about being my friend. I reached out my hand to him and said, "hi, I'm Akane. Wanna be friends?" and he smiled right back at me, this time a genuine smile, and took my hand answering, "sure, I'm Ranma." with his deep voice.
Now that we are friends.... Well, it'll take time but what we did right now is a start... then every thing will turn out fine. I hope.
The rest of the song went above my head. I didn't hear what it said next except for a couple more lines of the song. I guess it wasn't my song after all. Coz I know no matter how hard I've made things Ranma will never turn his back on me and I'll never again feel the need to go away from him or vise versa.
~ ~ ~ ~
.......Sure don't needs to stay
Well I'm not welcome anyway
Well that's alright and that's OK yeah
There's nothing left to do
Maybe I'm not for you
So why don't you let it go...........
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THE END! ^_^ I hope you liked it.
A/N: I never planned on continuing this fic... it was just something I had on my mind and I had to write it down. But... Since I kinda liked the idea of continuing it and writing what happens next... I'll try my best. This is a (p.o.v) and it is my first time I'm trying to write it like that so bear with me. It's part songfic since the first chapter was one too and just coz I like it to be so too. ^_^
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Can I go now?
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I can't believe it. He found me. I sighed looking at his blue eyes. I always loved his eyes. Who wouldn't? The moment they captor your gaze it's like your trapped. My love for him must have blinded me. I used to think he knew all my secrets the second he looked me in the eye. What a fantasy, feh.
To think he could tell my feelings for him without me telling him. I was a coward. A stupid dreamer. A child.
I don't love him anymore. It popped into my mind suddenly.
Yeah, you caught that right. It was just a puppy love. I know that now. After a long eight years. I was surprised when I found out, two years after I left. I was so busy I didn't even realize that it was gone. One day I saw him on TV he was at a national martial arts fighting computation. He was great. I felt happy for him. And then I noticed it. The butterflies I used to have when seeing him, even when I was looking at his picture, it was gone. At first I was panicked and scared, I mean this was the guy I was going to marry! What if I did succeeded in marring him and nobody would've stopped us?
After I calmed, and convinced myself it's all in the past now. I had this motto since I left `no dawdling in the past. What's done is done`. And indeed when I thought about it again I smiled. No regrets. That's what I said to myself when I left that's what I'll say to myself right now.
I should be ashamed of myself. After all he did for you Akane? But I don't. You can get mad if you want. It won't help you making me feel guilty. Ranma made his choices and don't think I'm not grateful for all the saving he did for me. But I can't help it. It's the human heart and it plays tricks on us all.
I lived a lot better after I found out about it. Stress less on my emotions.
Like I first suspected the modeling gig didn't go too well. I managed to keep it up for three months but lets face it I'm no lady and that is what they wanted me to be. They thought I was a nice Japanese girl. Heh, yeah right. I'm a martial artist... yes I love it that people telling me I'm beautiful and the admiring.. I am a woman after all but when they tried to make me something I'm not that just wasn't right. I got out of there pretty fast. There's never a shortage in models wanna be. The fact is that those girls would probably make an even better model then me. I hated to take pictures any way (thank you Nabiki *sneer*).
Luckily I had made some cash in my short modeling. Enough to keep me worm and sated. But I was looking for a job and again lady luck smiled at me and dropped it on me. Literally.
~Flash back~
CRASH
"Ouch!" I yelled out.
"Shut up you b!t*h!" the guy yelled and I turned my head up to look at him . GAH! He was wearing a ski mask and he had his gun pointed to my head . Hey! Don't get me wrong I am a tough martial artist but I'm not bulletproof. I was scared.
"He ran through there!! Quickly!" Thank kami. The cops.
"Dang!" the masked man hissed, got up and ran away. With his back turned to me. Now I was pissed. And there I was standing with my aura flaring about red and not minding the cops that were right behind me I ran full speed at the criminal... I guess I allowed myself being brave since his gun wasn't pointed at me anymore and I got my senses back - he really startled me - I did an air flip right above his head and kicked him with a high kick that sent him right into the shocked officer hands. Knockdown. Two points. Heh.
~End flash back~
I found out later that this guy was wanted about robbing a bank and killing the bank officer and he was stupid enough to try that again. Another surprise was that the police officer that caught the man after I kicked him was the commissioner at the police center. He actually wanted to see if I could do more. Dumb luck. *Snicker* not that I was complaining.
And now here I am. An Officer of the law. I was planning on joining the FBI or maybe the CIA (A/N: correct me if I'm wrong) since I was getting pretty good recommendations from my co-workers and superiors.
A sound of someone clearing his voice startled me from my stumper. Ho right. Ranma.
"Hello Akane. Long time no see."
I could see it in his eyes. He was mad, sad, disappointed and another couple of feelings I couldn't or didn't want to recognize. They all came and go with a flash. He also seemed to be older at his heart not only in age. Once I thought he had the wisdom of fools, now looking at his eyes I see he has the wisdom of experience. Did I say already he had beautiful eyes? I was actually sad to see him disappointed at me. But then I looked up at him again defiantly. - It's my life. -
The radio at the restaurant played a song. I recognized it. 'Can I go now' by Jennifer Love Hewitt (A/N: don't own the song). It fit my mood.
~ ~ ~ ~
What's the point of trying to meet you in the middle?
You got your point of view
There's nothing I can do
Can't change your mind
Can't leave it all behind
You're living in the past
~ ~ ~ ~
"Hello Ranma." I smiled at him. No point in having hard feeling. And then he asked me the question I feared of all.
"Why?"
I sighed and looked him in the eye. It was such a fluke we met in that restaurant. I had to be a guard there; since it was a fighter's reunion you could never know when a fight would break. I just hope there won't be a fight right now.
~ ~ ~ ~
We talk and talk
Discuss for hours
About how it should be
Why is it all me
Don't wanna fight
Don't wanna waste my time
Baby just can't relax
I'm moving on, moving on
~ ~ ~ ~
"I.. Do you really want to know?" I asked him seriously. "No more b.s." I stopped the child play seven years ago when I found out the world isn't always fairies and roses and "I ain't planning on being soft. If I'm gonna tell you I'm gonna say the truth." The middle part I said to myself I didn't want to tell Ranma I stopped believing in super natural things. Especially after all we went through. Even if Ranma had switched genders in front of my eyes I won't believe it. It's been a long time.
He rolled his eyes at me. "Just tell me Akane. I won't be angry at ya."
"Alright." I said and smiled sadly. "I was tired."
"Tired?"
"Huh uh. From the fighting, crying, from the danger.... From you." I whispered the last part.
He seemed to understand. "It could have been different." He told me finally, "You could have stayed and tell me.... Or your sisters...."
Or not. At that moment I wished I could go away from him again. Play the coward again and leave things be. I was happy with what I am now. Why did he have to complicate every thing all over again? I know he doesn't love me and if he did then not anymore. I can see it in his eyes. So why does it matter?
~ ~ ~ ~
Can I go now
Say what you have to say
Happy you've got your way
There's nothing to discuss
Can I go now
Giving your point of view
Say what you want it too
So what's the point of love
Can I go now
Oh say what you have to say
Happy you've got your way
What is to discuss
~ ~ ~ ~
The song kept playing. I wasn't sure it was mine anymore. At least I didn't want it to be mine.
"So.. I see you did well!" I had to change the subject, I didn't like where it was going. "Saw you on TV last week." I said happily.
He narrowed his eyes. "Yeah... Akane -.."
"Ranma," I cut through stopped him from saying any other word. I said no b.s. And I meant it, now I'll tell him what I feel. "There's no point. Look at me. I'm content with my life! Never had to fight demons only law criminals. I'm not proud that I ran away but.... I did it to myself. Selfish, you can call me but there is this much a person can take and I just wasn't mentally strong enough to hold. But it's all in the past right now. I moved on." O.k. so I censored some.
~ ~ ~ ~
What's the point of trying to reach compromise
When you're the only judge and jury
What's the story
I can't make you see that I'm not always wrong
I can't make you right
It's time to move on
I'm moving on
~ ~ ~ ~
He sighed and lowed his head. "I understand." This time I knew he understands. I mean, the guy was under a lot more pressure then I was. He just had too much honor to run away. I gave up mine long ago. He smiled at me bitterly.
"We can still be friends." I told him with a smile. "In fact let's start all over again!"
He looked at me like I went crazy, for a second I thought I did, but then his eyes yet again flashed feelings and what I saw made me smile even wider. Hope.
And I hoped he really was thinking about being my friend. I reached out my hand to him and said, "hi, I'm Akane. Wanna be friends?" and he smiled right back at me, this time a genuine smile, and took my hand answering, "sure, I'm Ranma." with his deep voice.
Now that we are friends.... Well, it'll take time but what we did right now is a start... then every thing will turn out fine. I hope.
The rest of the song went above my head. I didn't hear what it said next except for a couple more lines of the song. I guess it wasn't my song after all. Coz I know no matter how hard I've made things Ranma will never turn his back on me and I'll never again feel the need to go away from him or vise versa.
~ ~ ~ ~
.......Sure don't needs to stay
Well I'm not welcome anyway
Well that's alright and that's OK yeah
There's nothing left to do
Maybe I'm not for you
So why don't you let it go...........
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THE END! ^_^ I hope you liked it.