Chapter 2: Strength
Two months had passed since I had awakened in the sea. It was a rather dreary day, another bombardments of interviews from the news-press and questions asked from the council. And yet every time I could not explain why I had survived. The news of the girl who had survived Acnologia's attack soon spread, and I became a living wonder. People would come up to me ask questions on how I felt and how did I survive it. I would have loved the attention another time but now I desired answers as well. But none of them could answer them for me. One had a speculation that it had something to do with my celestial summoning magic as it required to open a gate to another realm. Another idea was that I had been, sent to the celestial world by my spirits, and had been kept there. But even if earth time is much faster than the celestial's world I should have stayed at the realm for a week or two at least.
I was also feeling lonely, despite there were still some of my guild mates and some friends. I missed nonsensical arguments with Natsu, having leisurely talks with Wendy, eating cake with Erza and many other stupid things we did together. The first few days of searching for them were hopeful, knowing that I had somehow survived gave them a new lease of hope. And then it became weeks. And then finally months. I finally understood how forsaken the remaining guild members were, and they had been searching for years.
"Miss Lucy? Are you alright?" I looked up, and sighed. I had completely forgotten I had another interview with another reporter.
"I'm sorry. Could we schedule this for another time? I'm not feeling so well." He looked at me with speculating eyes, and nodded in understanding, "Please contact me when you have the time and wish the best of health for you".
I leaned back in the chair, letting out a big sigh. I had been living in the guild house as the landlady owner wouldn't allow me back in my apartment after I had payed the rent. Which was physically impossible considering it had been five years since I did pay the last rent.
"Lucy-nee?"
"Hmmmmm…..yes Romeo" I said rather lethargically, I didn't really have much energy left in me anyways. The searching for the other half of Fairy Tail, the interviews, the questioning from the council, the people chasing after me for autographs had really taken a toll on me.
"What are you going to do now?" his question was so simple, and yet so heartbreaking. Indeed, what was I going to do now? All of my missions, quests and adventures were always with Team Natsu and with them missing, I really felt hollow.
"Romeo", he looked up, "How do you think Natsu, Erza, Gray and the others were always able to win in their fights. And even when they were losing, they somehow managed to stand right back up onto their feet". He answered without any hesitation.
"Well that's easy. They were strong, and they had their friends to back them up as well".
"That is correct. But even before that. How did they manage to fight so well? How did they manage to figure out how their enemy was fighting, how did they manage to cast spells on them to defeat them?" He looked a little confused, and thought about it. When he did not answer I answered for him.
I looked at him, "The answer is simple. They trained. They took years to master their magic. Become one with it. And they always had a mentor to guide them. Natsu had Igneel. Gray had Ur. Erza had Rob. Wendy had Grandeeny and so forth. They all had someone to teach them. However I never did, my mother died before she could teach me anything of importance. My father hated magic, and there was no-one to help me master my magic". I could feel some tears escaping my eyes, I truly did now feel ever so lonely.
"Lucy-nee?" I quickly wiped them away. And let out another big sigh. "The reason why that I am telling you this is because I have decided to go on a journey to find myself and become stronger. So when everybody returns I will also be able fight along beside them instead of behind them".
"But Lucy-nee, no-one ever thought of you as weak. Everybody loved you the way you were". I grinned, and hugged him, thanking him. But my mind was already set. Tomorrow I would leave. And when I would return, I wasn't quite sure. But I would. I was not leaving forever.
I would be back.