Still just a little bit of an intro, bear with me.

April 13, 2013

Journal Entry 374 (14th: New Time)

Dear Journal,

He tends to watch us. I dont even think he means to do it. But Tony seems to want to keep a close eye on us all. Not in the scientific, calculating, way that Bruce does. He is less skittish. More like a worried mother hen checking in on its chicks. Mostly me and Thor, he likes to check on us the most. Like we might fall into some big black pit. Its sweet that he is watching out for all of us, providing us with a home and a purpose, but he should back off. He is going to ruin his own health with all his worrying. How does he expect to preform as Iron Man if he is stressed out beyond the point of function? Maybe I will have a talk with him, make sure he is going to be okay. At the same time, Anthony Edward Stark has some sort of grudge against me I am unaware of. Or of how it was formed. I suspect it has something to do with y comments on his personality when we first met. Neither of us where too kind.

I have made some observations on Tony's team actions. He doesn't like people to hand him things. Out of the whole group of us the only one who can hand him things is Pyme, and I believe that this is because he is the smartest out of us. Tony connects with him in an annoying way, it makes me feel useless when it comes to the pair of them. Tony especially has no sense of listening skills. Which in itself is very annoying. Its hard to lead a team mate that does not have the desire to be led. Which is exactly what is happening in Tony's case. I would like to understand Stark better, but I do not see it happening in the near future. Tony doesn't just use his armor in a fight. He wears his armor all the time. It never comes off, and that mask is securely in place. Like a wall of some sorts he thinks can protect him from the world. Or maybe he thinks he is protecting the world form him. That may be too deep for Tony Stark.

Sometimes I wonder how close Howard and Anthony Stark where. I never get around to asking, but in my mind the questions are there. The questions and the comparisons. That's what usually gets me the most, comparing the two of them. I know in my heart that they are different people, but there are so many things that make them impossibly similar. Or very different. Howey Stark would never have fought this way, it was never abou him. It was for his people and his family. The selfish things that Tony does are unbelievable. However, both of them are obvious ladies men and thats annoying to watch on all ends. The constant flirting and winking. Which has gotten worse since Ms. Potts got married and left Tony on his own. I cant say I blame her though, there comes a point where you have to think of yourself when you are a normal person. Tony and I aren't normal, however, we are hero's. I wonder if Anthony will ever give himself the chance to branch away from his steel cage to let the world see his true form, to see how amazing ANTHONY STARK can be.

I dont know what to do about him at the moment. All I know is, I have a team to keep together.

Sincerely,

Stephen Rogers.